Crystal Adults: Struggling To Be Who You are

It's been some time since I first wrote about crystal adults, but upon skimming through it today I felt the need to write more about us. This time in particular an issue that I feel is running rampant among crystal adults today which is standing in your truth and struggling to be who you are.

The challenges

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It's hard right now to stand firm and really believe to be the person you want to be. With all of us coming into an age where we are put to fend for ourselves, look for jobs, be more responsible and interact with more adults or "mature" people, we can feel inadequate within ourselves. I'm learning right now that feeling good within ourselves is so key to our future. Not because of superficial reasons or to look good in front of others, but it's believing in our talents and grace. Each of us have something very special to give to the world, that is why we came here. It's because of us that the world can ascend higher and higher into the lighter realms. Us choosing to be here knowing how difficult it is for a crystal being to interact and slog through the density which is earth, is quite the challenge. Helping people get over themselves, their issues and helping clear out the negativity that has been plaguing this world for too long. I totally get it, and it's tough for us right now.

We all are trying to find ourselves in a time that is especially tough for a crystal. We feel the pressure of "coming out of the spiritual closet", to start up our own businesses, private practices and move forward into being ourselves and living the life we know we can live. But it's hard when our inner world doesn't translate at all with reality. Or when people doubt us, our dreams, our abilities or what we speak of, of what can be than what is. It is tough, and I'm feeling for all of you. I'm in the same position as well...

Negative Programming

However, I feel that before we can truly take our show on the road and shine like we really want to, we have to dig deep into ourselves and fix the negative programming. The negative programming that life lead us to believe in. All that nonsense about war, competition, being the best, winning and losing, faking it till you make it and anything else that still abides by the old paradigm is flat out BULLSHIT. We truly knew that but when in Rome, do what the Romans do. We were too young to shout and scream about something better, and if we did we get shut down anyway. That is the very feeling, emotions and programming that we need to undo right now. All the bullshit that trapped us into feeling we were never good enough, or the fact we needed to change.

There is nothing wrong with us, our sensitivity, our abilities, our talents or anything we truly have inside. The only thing that is wrong is living by these piss poor standards when we clearly have a choice now! We all have a choice now, and we can choose differently. We can choose if we're going to listen to all the people that didn't believe us with our wacky, out of this world ways, we can choose to finally stop lying to ourselves about who we really are because people didn't get the real you, we can change the hard 3rd dimension "rules' that we thought we had to put up with.

It's all done, we have all the power in the world to change exactly what we want to change! And it starts with you as an individual. It starts with us believing in ourselves, right now. It might seem scary, and hell it is at times but you're strong enough, smart enough and damn good enough to be the person you want to be.

Why stomach all this nonsense when we have a clear choice? Why put up with our negative friends and family? Why put up with the news and the constant ringing of the negative bell? We all know we can do better and we all believe that people should have a choice of who they want to be, instead of going down the line like everyone else.

Our Individuality

Our individuality is key and we forgot about that in our journey. I forgot out sensitive I was, in fact, I didn't even know I was sensitive because I was just called a "cry baby" when I was young. However, when I opened back up to myself in 2011, it was clear that I held on to a lot of crap from my past because of how sensitive I was. I held on to the fact that it wasn't okay for me to be me. I had to be strong, tough and fight like the rest of the kids. Obviously it didn't work and I would end up being

picked on as a result. It was hard for me to stand up for myself because I didn't like getting into trouble or confrontation. I just didn't know how to stand up for myself without feeling the fear of being more hurt than I already was. That and shying away from a possible conformation of any form was my instinct from being picked on. I chose to stay in the background alone, it was safer and more comfortable than putting myself in a place were anyone can cut me with their words. And even till this day that instinct of mine is still running strong. I struggle to truly put myself out there without feeling inside that I'm doing something wrong or "against my nature." It's tough, and the situation I'm in now is making me face a lot of issues that I've been holding on to since childhood. Like not feeling good enough, worthy, being able to do things on my own or make my dreams come true. Everything is being tested right now.

Our Purpose To Create Change

I'm been given a chance to see where I dropped my crystal essences for the 3rd dimension reality thinking, and I feel that it's happening to all of us right now. It's time for us to pick up where we left off as children and start infusing our love and light in everything we do. We're here to uplift the world, not help it continue to go to hell in a hand basket. Choosing to keep doing what we're doing to help the mundane and limited to stay as they are only hurts us at the end. We're here to create change, in everything. We're not the babies or the young children that have yet the chance that we have. We're not here to settle down and just "be," we're here to shake things up. And that doesn't mean we're going to warfare or even up root things in an intense matter (like the indigos), but making waves and huge responses by being who we are! We're here to have people look at us and want to change themselves in a deep matter. We're here to help people believe more in what they don't currently accept. That's why we all come from different backgrounds, races, households, financial situations and even sexuality (I'm an asexual). We're here to create change everywhere, so we're very much spread out to cover the entire planet. I'll say it again, we're here to create change and that is why we feel the pressure now, even if you have been hitting all the marks up to this point.

Even though it seems tough, the universe is trying to wake us up even further to open ourselves up to make deep changes. We're going through this so that we can be who we are and then create the major changes we're here to make. There is no more hiding now, it's time to go big or go home. I definitely feel that we all want to make a major switch from what we're wanting or currently doing, but we've been procrastinating and this here, the intensity we're going through, is the answer.

So the question then becomes, how do I do it? How do I more align to who I really am? How do I handle the feelings of hurt, unworthiness and not being good enough? What will happen if I do become all that I really am? Will people understand me, will people try to hurt or tear me down as they did before? How do I know it's safe to be who I am, and feel accepting of myself with everyone being judged constantly by what they think, feel, believe and do? How do I know I'll be really okay with myself, and how will others react?

It's simple...

We Have To Love All Of Ourselves!

When you don't feel hurt in yourself no one else can inflect it on you. It's not being bold and daring despite your feelings, we've been through that already, it's time to be real and caring because that's who we are! It starts with us loving ourselves as we are, that is the key. A good way to do that is by writing out your feelings, I feel that a lot of emotions, especially stuff from the past has been coming up to the surface. This isn't a bad thing, but something we are meant to face now. We're getting a chance to finally put an end to the self defeating patterns and finally unlock the true crystal essence within! This is our chance to face ourselves so we can be ourselves. This is a chance we can show others that we're not like them and that is okay, we're still pure and divine. But most of all, we're able to love all of ourselves, without judging ourselves constantly or feeling that we're being frauds, especially in front of others.

So start creating, writing, explaining, talking, blogging and anything else you can do to get those emotions out! We've been sucking up the negative energies of the world and now it's time for us to finally release our ball and chain from what we've been exposed to for this long!

It's our time now and it's up to us as individuals to create that path to our grand destiny that the universe is laying out in front of us. Even if things look really scary, and I'm certainly going through a situation like that, rest assured that it's not as bad as it seems. This is just the universe giving us what we want, what we really want, and have been asking for, for years and years. It's just if we want it, we have to be able to come out of our own shadow to get it, and that means coming out of the dark, the spiritual closet, fear, hopelessness, unworthiness and our tragic past and mind set that we've been locked into for too long.

It's time to rise and shine like the sun crystal adults, our time is coming, our time is here!