Asexuality and Twin Flames (TMI Warning)

This topic has been on my mind for a while now, especially since my own twin is due to pop up at anytime. I do have quite the update on that issue, and I'm sure you all are dying to hear about it. However, that will be for the next time.

Anyway, asexual twin flames, asexual twin flame relationship, does it exist I don't know. Every time I hear about twin flames, sex is somehow mesh into it, depending how deep the conversation goes. This puts a bit of the "ugh pressure" on me because I am asexual, meaning that I have no sexual attraction towards people. If you're like "what the hell is that?" then I'll escort you to this asexuality forum where you can get all your answers and even more questions from.

Remember that one post where I talk about meeting my twin flame in a dream? I mention how I wasn't a very romantic girl, and how I wasn't interested in relationships until college. Well, before I knew what asexuality was, that was apart of the reason. In those teen years having partners and such pretty much included sex. Being in high school, that's all I heard about everyday. Even though I didn't know I was asexual, I knew that I didn't want any parts of having sex.

Generally relationships includes sex, we all know that. But in college, really recognizing that I didn't want to have sex in my romantic relationships made things strange. Even going into my only relationship, I didn't know how to express my feelings on the matter or how to adjust the relationship to fit in my preferences. At the end, what really turned me off and made the relationship deteriorate was the ex's sexual feelings.

(TMI WARNING)

I'm debating even mentioning the actual story, but I will anyway. One night, he told me he had a sexual dream about me, then pleasured himself afterwards. That shit blew my mind. I mean, I never told him how I felt about sex, nor did he. Unless you count his cute little story about us making love then pleasuring himself, which is disgusting by the way. Who does that? Way TMI if you ask me.

Anyway, the point is I felt so uneasy around him after that. Solely because he might want to take things to the next level. Even us cuddling (and I love cuddling and affection) made me uncomfortable. I remember clearly pushing him away a few times due to that very fact. The relationship ended with him up and leaving, like up and leaving without telling me at ALL. A hardy "fuck you" to you fine sir. (Yes, I'm still slightly pet peeved about that, it was a douche and cowardly move.)

Even though I was hurt at the time, I knew it was for the VERY best. For reasons I won't go into today. All I can say though is thank you for giving me the greatest gift of all, which is my twin flame. You can keep your nasty sex dreams and depression to yourself too.

After that I vowed when I'm emotionally healed, I wanted to be with the person I came into this world with. About 2 years later my twin flame appeared to me and so far, I like what he's about. I've gotten a lot of intuitive information about him that just slides into place of what I didn't even know I loved. However, in the back of my mind, I always wondered about how my asexuality will fall into place in all this. After learning that I was asexual, I told myself that I'm never having sex nor will I enter a relationship with anyone sexual. I heard about asexuals getting into relationships with sexual people. Even compromising and having sex, but that isn't me. I'm not compromising shit, sex is a deal breaker along with having children.

But what about my twin, will HE be sexual? Will he be asexual? I don't know. What about the twin flame connection and relationship? I heard many times that apparently making love to your twin flame the best thing ever, but I want no parts of that. It suppose to be the major thing that connects twin flames totally. Or something of the sort, I haven't checked my sources in a while haha. No matter how you cut it, sex won't be apart of my next relationship, but what about twin flame asexuality? How does that work? I never even heard about it. Seeing the circumstances and if some crazy lineups happen, I might be in the first one. But till and if that happens, what is an asexual Twin Flame relationship and can it work?

I say it does, for the simple fact that I was born asexual. I'm pretty sure I planed it to be that way as well. Why shouldn't my other half of my soul chose the same? It doesn't make sense for one partner to be asexual and the other sexual. Not to mention I found out about my asexuality well after I met my twin. During which I was learning (and still am) so much about myself. Things I knew that would improve and make our meeting even better.

Intuitively speaking, I never got the feeling he was sexual, quite the opposite. Nor did I get any signs of it either. Honestly, it wouldn't make sense for the universe to push me in that direction when my plan was set in the beginning. And with all the peculiar and wonderful coincidences I've been putting together about us as twin flames, it would be extremely odd for this one issue to suddenly screw it all up. Besides, worst case scenario if he is sexual, I'm sure he'll understand my stance. I can't promise any romantic relationships though. 

Long story short, I guess you can say my curiosity has been plaguing me about this one issue for a long time. I meant to blog about this before but as always, I'm waiting for the right time to do so.

I hope you all enjoyed this. I would love to hear about any twin flame or asexual stories if you have any. One of my major goals is to get more involved with my followers in a more personal way. I enjoy the connection and it enriches my life in this area.

Talk to you all soon!