Showing posts with label romance. Show all posts
Showing posts with label romance. Show all posts

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Asexuality and Twin Flames (TMI Warning)

asexual soul mates twin flames

This topic has been on my mind for a while now, especially since my own twin is due to pop up at anytime. I do have quite the update on that issue, and I'm sure you all are dying to hear about it. However, that will be for the next time.

Anyway, asexual twin flames, asexual twin flame relationship, does it exist I don't know. Every time I hear about twin flames, sex is somehow mesh into it, depending how deep the conversation goes. This puts a bit of the "ugh pressure" on me because I am asexual, meaning that I have no sexual attraction towards people. If you're like "what the hell is that?" then I'll escort you to this asexuality forum where you can get all your answers and even more questions from.

Remember that one post where I talk about meeting my twin flame in a dream? I mention how I wasn't a very romantic girl, and how I wasn't interested in relationships until college. Well, before I knew what asexuality was, that was apart of the reason. In those teen years having partners and such pretty much included sex. Being in high school, that's all I heard about everyday. Even though I didn't know I was asexual, I knew that I didn't want any parts of having sex.

Generally relationships includes sex, we all know that. But in college, really recognizing that I didn't want to have sex in my romantic relationships made things strange. Even going into my only relationship, I didn't know how to express my feelings on the matter or how to adjust the relationship to fit in my preferences. At the end, what really turned me off and made the relationship deteriorate was the ex's sexual feelings.

(TMI WARNING)

I'm debating even mentioning the actual story, but I will anyway. One night, he told me he had a sexual dream about me, then pleasured himself afterwards. That shit blew my mind. I mean, I never told him how I felt about sex, nor did he. Unless you count his cute little story about us making love then pleasuring himself, which is disgusting by the way. Who does that? Way TMI if you ask me.

funny wtf jackie chan

Anyway, the point is I felt so uneasy around him after that. Solely because he might want to take things to the next level. Even us cuddling (and I love cuddling and affection) made me uncomfortable. I remember clearly pushing him away a few times due to that very fact. The relationship ended with him up and leaving, like up and leaving without telling me at ALL. A hardy "fuck you" to you fine sir. (Yes, I'm still slightly pet peeved about that, it was a douche and cowardly move.)

Even though I was hurt at the time, I knew it was for the VERY best. For reasons I won't go into today. All I can say though is thank you for giving me the greatest gift of all, which is my twin flame. You can keep your nasty sex dreams and depression to yourself too.

After that I vowed when I'm emotionally healed, I wanted to be with the person I came into this world with. About 2 years later my twin flame appeared to me and so far, I like what he's about. I've gotten a lot of intuitive information about him that just slides into place of what I didn't even know I loved. However, in the back of my mind, I always wondered about how my asexuality will fall into place in all this. After learning that I was asexual, I told myself that I'm never having sex nor will I enter a relationship with anyone sexual. I heard about asexuals getting into relationships with sexual people. Even compromising and having sex, but that isn't me. I'm not compromising shit, sex is a deal breaker along with having children.


But what about my twin, will HE be sexual? Will he be asexual? I don't know. What about the twin flame connection and relationship? I heard many times that apparently making love to your twin flame the best thing ever, but I want no parts of that. It suppose to be the major thing that connects twin flames totally. Or something of the sort, I haven't checked my sources in a while haha. No matter how you cut it, sex won't be apart of my next relationship, but what about twin flame asexuality? How does that work? I never even heard about it. Seeing the circumstances and if some crazy lineups happen, I might be in the first one. But till and if that happens, what is an asexual Twin Flame relationship and can it work?

I say it does, for the simple fact that I was born asexual. I'm pretty sure I planed it to be that way as well. Why shouldn't my other half of my soul chose the same? It doesn't make sense for one partner to be asexual and the other sexual. Not to mention I found out about my asexuality well after I met my twin. During which I was learning (and still am) so much about myself. Things I knew that would improve and make our meeting even better.

happy twin soul couple

Intuitively speaking, I never got the feeling he was sexual, quite the opposite. Nor did I get any signs of it either. Honestly, it wouldn't make sense for the universe to push me in that direction when my plan was set in the beginning. And with all the peculiar and wonderful coincidences I've been putting together about us as twin flames, it would be extremely odd for this one issue to suddenly screw it all up. Besides, worst case scenario if he is sexual, I'm sure he'll understand my stance. I can't promise any romantic relationships though. 

Long story short, I guess you can say my curiosity has been plaguing me about this one issue for a long time. I meant to blog about this before but as always, I'm waiting for the right time to do so.

I hope you all enjoyed this. I would love to hear about any twin flame or asexual stories if you have any. One of my major goals is to get more involved with my followers in a more personal way. I enjoy the connection and it enriches my life in this area.

Talk to you all soon!


Monday, February 11, 2013

Valentine's Day 2013 Week Reading

To celebrate Valentine's day, I will be giving guidance to people with a relationship and people without a relationship from two different decks. Collectively, this week is about choosing better, letting go of the old and going towards for what you really want. Finding out what is making you feel unworthy in life and weeding out old and tired beliefs.

For this week only if you use the coupon code "romance10" you'll get 15% off your entire order at my online store!



Monday, December 17, 2012

December 17-23 reading | Twin Flames Competition and Dreams

This week is about people wanting to find their twin flames, the competition mindset and how to follow your dreams further. This week is all about looking at yourself in a deeper way for healing. It's about changing the competition mindset to a cooperation one to achieve your dreams. This week is chaotic and is changing people's minds about how the world works. Follow your intuition and dreams to find success in not only this week but the new year ahead!


Monday, April 30, 2012

The winner of the romance angel reading is!


The winner of the romance angel reading is
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ModestTreasure

Congrats! You won a 3 card romance reading with any deck of your choice from me! 

Thank you all who entered! 

Thursday, April 19, 2012

The Twin Flame Dream chronicles: Life Overhaul

Twin Flame symptoms


 Since meeting Korea (the pet name I've given my twin), I've changed gears about my life and whole heartedly decided to completely overhaul it. I want to be thin and even more healthy so I've been doing my belly dancing exercises 5 times a week. I'm normally a bit lazy with it because I get bored easily, but this go round I have a new resolve and I know why I'm doing it! When I first started, I was so excited to do it, and even on week 3 I still have the drive to get up from being exhausted to do it, something I can't say I was willing to do before! I feel the difference in my body and can't wait to get stronger and leaner because of it.

To my surprise I want to fully embody my girly side. I've always had a tomboy look and style with maybe a few dashes of girlyness once in a blue moon. Black, baggy t-shirts, pants, and a pony tail or a bun is basically what you'll normally see me in. If was "dressing up" you'll probably see me in a punk/gothic/rave getup which to this day I still love. But for a while, I wanted to wear more colors, lace, and just girler things.

 Even though I don't look it, I have a huge love for all pink and cute things. I want to show that side more so that I can express myself in more ways then the "dark/scary/I don't get a shit" side of life! Sometimes, I want to be loud and stand out in a bright and colorful way since I love being different no matter what I'm doing. I've also grown an appreciation for mainstream fashion which I couldn't care or less before, I'm still not "into it" but I see pieces that I would love to own! I even want to try my hand (or feet) at wearing heels, something that I used to despise as a teenager. Overall, I want a new wardrobe and get rid of the very old clothes that still plagues my drawers. I'll always have my punk/goth/raver style but I want to expand my everyday style a lot further. I want to look dynamic inside and out!

On the girler note, I want to actually do something with my long hair. Being African American, I was blessed greatly with long hair that everyone would always comment on. I never really cared to do anything with it for the longest time till maybe a few years back. But now, I really want to learn how to do some hair styles, particularly the hair styles out of my Japanese magazines. Their hair styles are always so damn cute! That and I want to learn how to take care of it better then brushing and combing it everyday haha! I was even thinking of getting it dyed and having bangs but I might have to think about that more.

I'm so old school that I live by the phrase "If it's not broke, don't fix it" haha. If however I didn't have to worry about the cons of dyeing my hair, I would want a light pink, or a brown-red color. Something that's catching to the eye. I just don't want to have too much maintenance with my hair. I'm a pretty simply girl so I don't want to constantly go back to fix the roots and stuff like that. So yeah we'll see about all that.

There are a couple of other things that I want to do like whiten my teeth, find more ways to make my skin clear, try my hand at simple make-up and stuff like that, but overall the reason why I want to do all this for myself is so that I can finally look like the person that I feel I am! There is nothing wrong with me now, but a lot of what I'm currently still doing is pretty much in the past, old or doesn't resonate with me anymore.

At the same time, being and looking my best can only bring greater things to me including my twin flame. Whenever we do physically meet, I want him to see me as I see myself, the very best person in the world! Confident, sweet, radiant, beautiful, giving and just so much more. It's my duty to myself to love and cherish myself with unconditional love; putting my very best effort to make myself shine shows how much I care about my body, inside and out!

Now, I want to come out of my shell more and really show what I'm made of. I'm beautiful now with a beautiful personality, but now it's time to really put forth the effort to take care of the body that I came in with. Make it shine, radiant and healthy! Hell, I want to show it off too on the beach and anywhere I go because I'm so proud of it and my effort!

This is just the beginning of my life overhaul journey but I can say that it's starting off quite well!

Thank you all for reading and I hope it inspires you to become your best self!
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