Welcome to The Divine Feminine

Hey everyone, it's been a long time since I sat down and did a real blog post for you all.

Everything in the last few months have been about the massive changes in my life, and the mind set shifting I've been going through. I'm still in that transition but I'm through the worst of it for the most part. The things that I left behind wasn't for my highest good anymore, and I'm happy that I'm strong enough to say the things I did in the last few months. It was hard admitting my truth feelings because I felt like I would be disowned or disliked in someway, but I've learned not to give a fuck to put it frankly hahaha.

Inner Child is moving on!

Hey everyone I have good and bad news, but it's mostly good haha!

It's been a long time coming but I'm finally switching gears in my spiritual career! Where I won't be doing anymore readings! 

I found a niche that I can connect to and grow from which I didn't have before. It actually made business a lot harder than it needed to be because I didn't have a certain group of people I wanted to help. I wanted to help everyone, which led to a lot of burn outs in that area. However, I've been doing a lot of inside work to find the tools and resources that I can use to transform my life's work into something I truly adore and love.

So now my mission and life's work is focused on: helping sensitive Earth Angels live intuitively and divinely in the real world. Using their high sensitivity as a base of power, strength, and confidence rather than a base of inferiority and unworthiness.

It's something that I've learned (and still learning) to do in the past few years and it's something I want to teach other Earth Angels facing the same issues. Being extra sensitive isn't easy, especially when you want to stand out loud and proud. We're often put in a box labeled "not good enough" because of our sensitivity when it's actually a true gift. So much negative expectations and conditioning comes with being a sensitive Earth Angel and I want to start busting those bullshit beliefs!

With all that being said, I'm changing my blog around and all of the other social networks that I have to align with these new changes. That also means that my shop will be closing down in the next coming weeks. So if you want a reading from me, the time is now because I won't be doing them anymore after the shop closes.

There is a lot more to these changes but you'll see them as they will roll out in the future. I hope you all enjoy this new direction, find it helpful and continue to support me in this new path!

Thank you all for your amazing support!

A Funeral to my Old Emotions and Feelings

I don't know where to start. In the last five years I've done many things. Many things that I thought would make me happy and successful, including pursuing a higher ideal. However, if you saw my post about leaving the spiritual community you see my feelings have changed. It's not only that area in my life that have changed, but everything. Literally everything that I thought would give me happiness have failed to do such. Which made me really angry at myself more than anything. I felt like I failed to do what I intended to do so many years ago.

Upon looking at myself in a new light, really taking in the consideration of my true talents and interests, I decided to coach myself. I wanted to coach myself to being whole and complete again. Where I tended to my feelings of feeling different, victimized and unworthy of myself and in life. I so much wanted to succeed and be successful but I found it all go up in smoke. I blamed myself for everything I thought I've done wrong, and felt liable of all the traits I thought that fostered failure and unworthiness.

When I closed my eyes and looked at myself, I saw a girl that was holding on to everything. Every piece of guilt, anger, unworthiness, sadness and anything she felt she had done wrong in the last 5 years. It was weighing her down so much; yet, she wanted to go down the new path she saw clearly that was calling to her. It was tragic and honorable at the same time.

When I saw that in me, all those things I was holding on too, I told myself "before you do anything, just stop. Stop thinking about the past and stop trying to move forward towards the future. The only thing you need to do right now is focus on yourself." It was mind boggling how accurate I was saying these things to myself. It's as if I was truly seeing myself as the client completely detached to my own situation.

When we were going back and forth, a lot of great things were said. The one idea I gave my client self however really hit me, it was giving my feelings a funeral. All those times I felt shitty, I would say my last goodbyes and bury them in the ground. I would close that specific chapter in my life and energetically start a new one. So that I would be able to go down this new road without being held back by my past.

It was so perfect and I wanted to do it then and there but I knew I needed to heal myself that night. I actually haven't done my normal healing routine in over 2 months so all my negative emotions from then on compounded really bad.

That next day, after I did my morning routine, I got on the computer and stated all of my negative feelings that I've felt. The anger, sense of failure, sadness, shame and all the negative thoughts and attachments that I had. Here is the most prevalent part of my funeral:

What I hated the most, was the fact I followed my bliss, calling and purpose only for it to blow up in my face. I wasn't happy, I wasn't abundant, life was still hard and I was sad and wanted things to stop. Everything I ever learned didn't seem to fit anywhere anymore.

All the experts were wrong and I hated the fact that I seemed so different from the people I followed and once looked up too. Nothing made sense. After all these years learning, trying and listening, I've gotten nowhere. I hated what I was doing and didn't see the people, progress or changes I so wanted to see. I was so angry that I just kept it all to myself and felt like a total failure.

All those feelings saying "that I couldn't do anything right" was true, that is how I felt. I tried so hard to be that perfect light worker, that great angel card reader and healer and still I wasn't happy. I felt like people would disown me if I showed my true colors. I felt stuck in life, I felt stuck in myself.

It felt good to get those feelings out on the table and state them as if they where detached from my being. It made me feel that this is the end, and I'm truly ready to open a new chapter in my life. This is apart of the closing of my funeral:

I'm choosing to let it all go. That isn't me anymore. This is a funeral to those feelings, places, sense of unworthiness and anyone that didn't believe in me. This is a closing of a chapter and a start of a new beginning. A new beginning where, I walk in love and not with a sense of guilt.

Where I know I'm smart enough, talented enough, and have plenty of people that care and want to see me succeed. That the world helps me everyday and that the next step is always present. More importantly, I can have a bad day and that doesn't mean I failed; I'm simply learning and being human with limitations. And that's okay.

I'm perfect as I am, even when I can't do everything I want in a day. Where I can't get everything I want at this hot red minute; that I cuss and get angry. Those are the very best parts of me and shows how even more enlightened I am. Not because I'm showing people the light, but also the darkness that resides in us all. That there is nothing to be afraid of and we all can change into better people everyday.

Having that moment to acknowledge my true feelings and deciding with great intention to leave them where they stand was powerful. I feel that a lot has been lifted from my shoulders and I'm so much closer to where I need to be. Even though I've done the most important part, I still have a lot of self healing to do. Things to work out in myself and old programs I need to dissolve fully.

When I saw myself again after my funeral, I told myself that I can "slowly" proceed in the direction I want to go in. But, I have to be mindful that I still need to work on clearing out the old in its entirely. To disable some limited beliefs and completely disarm the past from rearing its ugly head.


I'm still in-between the old and new, and that's okay. This is the perfect place to do my healing work because I don't feel pressure to succeed or fight the old. I can take my time and let the universe guide me to where ever I need to go. At the same time, moving forward and blogging like I want to, expressing myself and focusing on the things I love make it that much more rewarding. I feel complete talking about my story and self discoveries. That I'm okay with the good times and bad, and most of all: I'm doing something I feel connected too. It's the best feeling in the world when everything around me is still very much uncertain.

What is it that you need to give a funeral too? An ex, a job, a friend, a relationship, your feelings of unworthiness, humiliation, failure or pressure? What is it that truly calls you but you resist with the feelings of holding on to something that isn't serving you. Tell me what you think you need to lose and how you want your new chapter to be about.

♥♥♥ Inner Child, The Divine Whisperer ♥♥♥

My Golden Rules for Spirituality Part 1

With throwing away some old ideals and mindsets with the spirituality community, I feel a lot more free to be who I am. The parts of me that fought and struggled for control and perfection are finally settling down, because they both know they're perfect as they are. Due to the internal struggle I felt like I was cut in half, into the more "pure and enlighten" side as well as the more "dark and rustic" side. However, having these two energies finally met in the middle was the best thing I could ever gotten out of this. Where that clear light and dark turned into many rays of light, making it quite a beautiful show!

With these two energies free to act as they will I felt that I needed to establish some new and timeless rules for myself. Rules that I was afraid of,  hesitate to follow and actively pursue in fears of rejection. Now, however, I'm becoming a whole new me finally deciding what truly works for me and throwing out the rest. No more "what this person or expert" said, I'm deciding what I know is right for me and what feels good.

Since my list and explanations were so long I'm breaking this post into parts, this post being the first one. So without further ado, here is my personal new rules for spirituality!

1. I have to serve myself, not the world

For years I've read that we chose to come here to serve the world and make it a better place. I also heard it personally in that amount of time from my guides, angels and sometimes myself. However, me being wrapped up in only that made me lost sight of who I truly needed to serve first, myself. Because of that, I struggled for years to be this perfect divine light worker healer to serve and save the world. Even though mainstream spirituality (as did I) preach the fact that we came here to this super awesome special mission to help enlighten the world, I'm changing that in my life. I came here to serve and better myself for myself. I'm not making the fact that if I don't drop everything to solely serve the world, I'm being less of a light worker or a person that wants to see this world prosper. If I'm not happy in my own life I have to tend to that, not the world's suffering.

2. The ego is the greatest part of being human (RANT ALERT)

And I love every drop of it. In too many books have I read that the ego was the source of human suffering, our inferior desires for material gain, wealth, our negative emotions, negative experiences and so many other things that goes wrong in life. When I first read about it many years ago, I was pretty put off naturally. I felt rather offended that some yahoo had the nerve to say that my personality was somehow inherently bad. And that if I don't transcend beyond it and it's earthy desires, I'm doomed to have a shitty life. FLAT OUT BULLSHIT.

To me, blaming the ego for an individual's or the world's suffering is like calling a baby demonic because it shits on itself. Bad things happen, it's apart of life. You learn, get better and do better. Hiding away via spirituality on cloud nine pretending that anything less than feeling compassion and forgiveness is apart of this evil force of the soul, only makes you that much unwilling to learn about life.

More over, it's giving too many people excuses for their own downfalls when everyone is hopping on this spiritual bandwagon. The ego isn't some outside force that wants to see you fail. If you're feeling bad, feeling like you're attracting bad stuff, that isn't the ego that's fucking you up, IT'S YOU, YOU ARE THE EGO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR OWN ACTIONS. Stop blaming your downfalls on this imaginary ego concept, seriously.

The ego is the part of us that makes us human. It makes us feel, see, hear, touch and taste the world we chose to be in. It gives us that spark of life and it's the vehicle that makes living possible. What you think is the ego is just your past hang ups, regrets, frustrations and negative emotions, the kicker is those are gifts. If you decide to face and sort them out you'll find more of yourself as well as more self love.

I've been on the fence with spirituality's definition of the ego for years, and it only made me feel inferior for wanting the things I want. Thus causing me to slow down or halt my success and blossoming as a person within this world, rather than outside of it. Coming to the place where I completely allow myself to want and go after material things only made my life greater. I don't feel bad or impure about being human, so that is a vital rule I'm now fully integrating into my life.

3. Wanting material gain is something I shouldn't be ashamed of

Again, this falls into the whole "ego" concept.

4. Listen to no person, expert, guru or channeled entity if it doesn't resonate

For years I've been following all kinds of spiritual people and entities on my journey. They all had something different to bring and each of them were unique. However, more often than not, I wouldn't resonate with them fully, or something they feel strongly about puts me off or I feel indifferent to. Because of this, I had to learn that I should only follow people I truly resonate with. Since I naturally absorb whatever I'm around, no matter the source (like books, TV, audio) it would clash with my natural beliefs. Thus, causing me to push and pull between what was spirituality "right" and what was "wrong."  

Right now, I basically cleaned out all of my social networks of all the spiritual people I followed, and even more so the experts. That only gave me a lot more breathing room to be and follow my own guidance without interference which is vital.

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I hope you all enjoyed my list and even my rant haha! With that being said, are there specific rules for spirituality that you made for yourself? Do you think it helps you on your journey? If so, I would love to hear about it!

♥♥♥ Inner Child, The Divine Whisperer ♥♥♥

Leaving the Spiritual Community

I finally decided to leave the spiritual community as a whole. It's been almost 3 weeks since I made my decision and I finally feel like I can openly tell people about it.

Long ago I should of accepted myself as someone completely different than any group I could identify with. I realized that my unique take on spirituality, because I am still spiritual and I love spirituality on it's own, is a true gift and not an impurity of the soul. I have to accept and start being my own true god, goddess and guru without feeling guilty that I'm somehow breaking the spirituality rules.

To be honest I feel like I've been sheltered for years by spirituality and I've been cutting myself short by not wanting to seem too different from the mainstream spiritual community. It left me with a really fragmented life and a life where I wasn't being all of who I am. I struggled hard to "make it" and make a name for myself as an angel card reader but that alone has gotten old for a long time.

My beliefs in spiritually is much different than what I was reading, listening and watching for years.

I don't feel that the ego is bad, in fact I feel that is the furthest thing from the truth. I don't think we should "transcend life" while cursing the material world and all it has to offer. And one of the biggest things I came to realize for myself is that I loath the ideal that we came here to purely serve the world and not ourselves. Even though I hear about loving yourself quite a bit in new age information, for some reason it always boils down to bettering yourself to better the world. I'm sure I even said the same basic thing. I love to help people, but giving up my life and desires in hopes that my sacrifice will make the world a better place is too much.

Being in the spiritual community was a huge thing in my life. It was something that happened every single day for a decade if not more. However, it simply grew out of control, I was too ingrained and influenced by what the next person said, even if I didn't resonate with it. Spirituality as well as my career in it took up way to much of my time, and slowly over the years some vital parts of myself got left in the dust.

Spirituality is great but it won't make me or give me happiness. In fact, nothing will give me happiness but me, by being my own self. Even the parts of myself that seem nonspiritual, impure or even bad through the eyes of some extreme spiritualists. But I have to remember, the universe doesn't care what I do, in fact it wants me to be all that I am. It says that if I want it than I can have it. That includes material and earthy wants and desires. It's people's opinions that made me hesitant for so long, and quite frankly those opinions mean jack shit. 

There is so much more I can explain but I'll leave it at that. With everything being said, I'm still spiritual and will talk about spirituality, the difference being it'll be my own spirituality. I also feel that there is nothing wrong with spirituality or the community on it's own. I've met so many wonderful people during my journey; my dislikes with the spiritual community were 10 years in the making, so there is no single person I'm referring too. Just general lack luster things I've been seeing over and over.

That and I've honestly grown way out of it and need to set my own course from here on. My store will still be up and this blog will only grow into something I truly love. I'm excited with this new change and I'm sure you'll love the new changes too.

Till next time,

Inner Child, The Divine Whisperer

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Where I am and how I approach business

So here I am, typing for this blog in what seems like forever.

As you can tell if you follow this blog closely is that I stopped blogging regularly. There are many reasons for that. It just comes to a point where you have to shift and change with your moods, body, intuition and new interests. Not to say that I stopped blogging because it got boring, I will never get tired of blogging, but I was dying to get from under this self imposed way of business.

I am going to admit, as much as I love business, the creative side of it all, that is the only thing I love about business. I hate the numbers, the endless marketing methods to get followers (though I feel I can be good at marketing when I listen to my intuition), the adhering to a target market, trying to make people be interested in your stuff, trying to attract fans, likes and pretty much anything that is not about creating freely and sharing it with like minded people.

I honestly feel like in the years I've wanted my own business, I've been brain washed in what a business is suppose to be. I tried countless ways to be that big brand and great expert in the field that I hear I need to be in countless articles and books. But god damn, when does it end? When do I stop trying and just start being. Does it take so much just to be successful, or I'm missing something important? I get that it takes effort to do something great but I am not interested in selling my soul for this hobby either. I like things easy, effortless and fun. I'll admit a lot of my path in FYIC has been more like squeezing blood out of a daisy than effortless fun.

So in attempt to come out of the same routine I stopped doing the blogs every week to try something different and more flexible. Then I got into the videos (which I will stay I have some success in surprisingly) and the blogs pretty much stopped. Five months later more and more things became apparent in my way of "business". Everything is more in a "trying to be successful" than just "letting myself be successful" due to the countless rules I always thought I needed to listen too. Even when I knew this was just a hobby, I still struggled with these internal rules I thought I needed to follow to be successful which HAVEN'T really worked since the very beginning.

So why do I still follow them? Why do I still care? Why can't I let myself be myself in this endeavor and let everything else work itself out?

I care about succeeding and being the best I know I can be, but I am simply not aligned to what I really want to do with FYIC and I always knew that. This morning I found out exactly what was wrong with me in this path and why I always seem to be under the radar as far as success goes.

"I felt afraid of having fun in my own business/life work, follow your inner child readings, and anything that I would own because people would not take me seriously. I feel that people would see the way I do things and say "that is not a real business" and not validate me as a real business, thus people will never buy from me, or I will stay small. I felt that fear of going out of the box, being really out there and showing people who's boss, who I am and how I do things. I feel that people won't respond well and my businesses will flop. I always felt that I had to do certain things to be considered a real business or to be taken seriously. However, I feel that those are the very reasons why I am not achieving the great success in business that I am seeking."

Simply and beautifully put by my early morning self. I'm simply cutting myself off from the greatness that IS ME by following the methods I thought would work for me.

Going by the books doesn't work....

Doing what others say doesn't work...

Giving a damn about what others think doesn't work...

Not being myself fully doesn't work...

None of that crap works and yet I've been trying to switch it up since the beginning, only to face the same limitations and beliefs that is still keeping me in place. I'm not ungrateful towards my path, just annoyed that I kept this mindset for this long. But I know what I want and what I'm passionate about.

Talking about my path in life...

Inspiring people...

Encouraging people to follow their dreams...

Being myself, being hard and soft, hot and cold, sweet and savory, compassionate yet cynical...

Being creative...

Loving what I do...

Not taking life seriously, including spirituality...

And so much more...

I know that works because it's an effortless process that I don't have to think hard about. Or be concerned if I'm "doing it right" because of the countless ways I thought I needed to be. That and I have a positive feeling in myself that dictates exactly how things will go. Where anything else only attracts the lack of what I'm really looking for. A good time, excitement and people to share my experiences with.

So that's just one of the things that I've been dealing with in the last 5 months. Now I'm right in the middle of a HUGE transitional period in my life. Changing everything over into a new way including the way I approach this hobby. I hope you guys enjoy and get a lot out of these experiences that I will share with you all!

I missed you guys, this blog and I'm glad to be back on track with what I REALLY want.

To prove I'm willing to move out of my own limitations lets add a random yacht at the end of this blog post 

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