It's been some time since I first wrote about crystal adults, but upon skimming through it today I felt the need to write more about us. This time in particular an issue that I feel is running rampant among crystal adults today which is standing in your truth and struggling to be who you are.
It's hard right now to stand firm and really believe to be the person you want to be. With all of us coming into an age where we are put to fend for ourselves, look for jobs, be more responsible and interact with more adults or "mature" people, we can feel inadequate within ourselves. I'm learning right now that feeling good within ourselves is so key to our future. Not because of superficial reasons or to look good in front of others, but it's believing in our talents and grace. Each of us have something very special to give to the world, that is why we came here. It's because of us that the world can ascend higher and higher into the lighter realms. Us choosing to be here knowing how difficult it is for a crystal being to interact and slog through the density which is earth, is quite the challenge. Helping people get over themselves, their issues and helping clear out the negativity that has been plaguing this world for too long. I totally get it, and it's tough for us right now.
We all are trying to find ourselves in a time that is especially tough for a crystal. We feel the pressure of "coming out of the spiritual closet", to start up our own businesses, private practices and move forward into being ourselves and living the life we know we can live. But it's hard when our inner world doesn't translate at all with reality. Or when people doubt us, our dreams, our abilities or what we speak of, of what can be than what is. It is tough, and I'm feeling for all of you. I'm in the same position as well...
Negative Programming
However, I feel that before we can truly take our show on the road and shine like we really want to, we have to dig deep into ourselves and fix the negative programming. The negative programming that life lead us to believe in. All that nonsense about war, competition, being the best, winning and losing, faking it till you make it and anything else that still abides by the old paradigm is flat out BULLSHIT. We truly knew that but when in Rome, do what the Romans do. We were too young to shout and scream about something better, and if we did we get shut down anyway. That is the very feeling, emotions and programming that we need to undo right now. All the bullshit that trapped us into feeling we were never good enough, or the fact we needed to change.
There is nothing wrong with us, our sensitivity, our abilities, our talents or anything we truly have inside. The only thing that is wrong is living by these piss poor standards when we clearly have a choice now! We all have a choice now, and we can choose differently. We can choose if we're going to listen to all the people that didn't believe us with our wacky, out of this world ways, we can choose to finally stop lying to ourselves about who we really are because people didn't get the real you, we can change the hard 3rd dimension "rules' that we thought we had to put up with.
It's all done, we have all the power in the world to change exactly what we want to change! And it starts with you as an individual. It starts with us believing in ourselves, right now. It might seem scary, and hell it is at times but you're strong enough, smart enough and damn good enough to be the person you want to be.
Why stomach all this nonsense when we have a clear choice? Why put up with our negative friends and family? Why put up with the news and the constant ringing of the negative bell? We all know we can do better and we all believe that people should have a choice of who they want to be, instead of going down the line like everyone else.
Our Individuality
Our individuality is key and we forgot about that in our journey. I forgot out sensitive I was, in fact, I didn't even know I was sensitive because I was just called a "cry baby" when I was young. However, when I opened back up to myself in 2011, it was clear that I held on to a lot of crap from my past because of how sensitive I was. I held on to the fact that it wasn't okay for me to be me. I had to be strong, tough and fight like the rest of the kids. Obviously it didn't work and I would end up being
picked on as a result. It was hard for me to stand up for myself because I didn't like getting into trouble or confrontation. I just didn't know how to stand up for myself without feeling the fear of being more hurt than I already was. That and shying away from a possible conformation of any form was my instinct from being picked on. I chose to stay in the background alone, it was safer and more comfortable than putting myself in a place were anyone can cut me with their words. And even till this day that instinct of mine is still running strong. I struggle to truly put myself out there without feeling inside that I'm doing something wrong or "against my nature." It's tough, and the situation I'm in now is making me face a lot of issues that I've been holding on to since childhood. Like not feeling good enough, worthy, being able to do things on my own or make my dreams come true. Everything is being tested right now.
Our Purpose To Create Change
I'm been given a chance to see where I dropped my crystal essences for the 3rd dimension reality thinking, and I feel that it's happening to all of us right now. It's time for us to pick up where we left off as children and start infusing our love and light in everything we do. We're here to uplift the world, not help it continue to go to hell in a hand basket. Choosing to keep doing what we're doing to help the mundane and limited to stay as they are only hurts us at the end. We're here to create change, in everything. We're not the babies or the young children that have yet the chance that we have. We're not here to settle down and just "be," we're here to shake things up. And that doesn't mean we're going to warfare or even up root things in an intense matter (like the indigos), but making waves and huge responses by being who we are! We're here to have people look at us and want to change themselves in a deep matter. We're here to help people believe more in what they don't currently accept. That's why we all come from different backgrounds, races, households, financial situations and even sexuality (I'm an asexual). We're here to create change everywhere, so we're very much spread out to cover the entire planet. I'll say it again, we're here to create change and that is why we feel the pressure now, even if you have been hitting all the marks up to this point.
Even though it seems tough, the universe is trying to wake us up even further to open ourselves up to make deep changes. We're going through this so that we can be who we are and then create the major changes we're here to make. There is no more hiding now, it's time to go big or go home. I definitely feel that we all want to make a major switch from what we're wanting or currently doing, but we've been procrastinating and this here, the intensity we're going through, is the answer.
So the question then becomes, how do I do it? How do I more align to who I really am? How do I handle the feelings of hurt, unworthiness and not being good enough? What will happen if I do become all that I really am? Will people understand me, will people try to hurt or tear me down as they did before? How do I know it's safe to be who I am, and feel accepting of myself with everyone being judged constantly by what they think, feel, believe and do? How do I know I'll be really okay with myself, and how will others react?
It's simple...
We Have To Love All Of Ourselves!
When you don't feel hurt in yourself no one else can inflect it on you. It's not being bold and daring despite your feelings, we've been through that already, it's time to be real and caring because that's who we are! It starts with us loving ourselves as we are, that is the key. A good way to do that is by writing out your feelings, I feel that a lot of emotions, especially stuff from the past has been coming up to the surface. This isn't a bad thing, but something we are meant to face now. We're getting a chance to finally put an end to the self defeating patterns and finally unlock the true crystal essence within! This is our chance to face ourselves so we can be ourselves. This is a chance we can show others that we're not like them and that is okay, we're still pure and divine. But most of all, we're able to love all of ourselves, without judging ourselves constantly or feeling that we're being frauds, especially in front of others.
So start creating, writing, explaining, talking, blogging and anything else you can do to get those emotions out! We've been sucking up the negative energies of the world and now it's time for us to finally release our ball and chain from what we've been exposed to for this long!
It's our time now and it's up to us as individuals to create that path to our grand destiny that the universe is laying out in front of us. Even if things look really scary, and I'm certainly going through a situation like that, rest assured that it's not as bad as it seems. This is just the universe giving us what we want, what we really want, and have been asking for, for years and years. It's just if we want it, we have to be able to come out of our own shadow to get it, and that means coming out of the dark, the spiritual closet, fear, hopelessness, unworthiness and our tragic past and mind set that we've been locked into for too long.
It's time to rise and shine like the sun crystal adults, our time is coming, our time is here!
I'm making this post today because after a year or so of searching, I could never find enough information on crystal adults. However, I did find a lot more information on crystal "children", in fact there is an abundance of information out there about them if you look consistently. Even though finding information on crystals in general are very slim compared other "new children" (adults included) you can still find a lot more information on crystal children rather then adults. With that said a lot of information you will find will be a copy from someone's original site or book.
It's frustrating because as much as I love to hear about crystal children, a lot of it is rather fluffy. It's geared to parents about children. Being children, they have different issues than someone that is looking to go out in the world to live their own lives. To hopefully find a suitable partner, career, and well being that is unique to them. Even though it's great to read up on these resources to know more about your crystalline nature, you'll always be hungry for more. Information that you can use for your own stage of life, not just for young children and babies.
The point of this post is so that I can finally provide information about crystal adults and all its blessings and curses it causes us! You don't see a lot of information on crystal adults (especially from another crystal adult like myself) when there is a desperate need for it! In my search for crystal children adult resources I gathered a lot of sites that provides wonderful information! I'll be sharing them here as well as my own experiences and information that I gained!
So hopefully the following paragraphs ofcrystal adult information will help you through your own crystalline journey, especially if you just found out you are a crystal being!
How I found out that I was a crystal child adult
The whole story on it's own is weeks long, but the day I found out that I was a crystal child was last summer (2011). That whole day was full of very divine insights and coincidences, mostly seeing babies and infants no older then 3 years old. Which is the age of most crystals that are coming in right now, or so I heard. That day when I was in the park I was seeing nothing but babies! It was so insane! During which I felt like something or someone was trying to come through to me. I wanted to let it in but I was so overwhelmed with the energy of the people in the park, I was just too exhausted to let in anymore thoughts. That and I was honestly afraid, I felt like a bigger part of myself knew exactly what was going on, but I just didn't want to hear it. I felt safe not knowing. But in a sudden flash I heard inside my head "do it for them" right before the flight of a brown and white pigeon (that I always related to angels for some reason). At the time I thought that I needed to further teach about the Law Of Attraction, since I was in my high point in learning it. Looking back a year later, that was not the case. In fact, that one saying probably had a much bigger and deeper meaning then I could ever realize, but that is for another blog post.
After going to the park, me and my friend went to the bookstore across the street. It was the first time I ever went there, in fact I never knew it existed till that day! Of course, I found the new age section and was guided to read about indigo children. Somehow I felt like I needed to go further across the bookshelf when I saw Doreen Virtue's book about crystal children. Right then and there I knew that the divine wanted me to read that book. I just felt it in my bones, it was quite overwhelming!
Upon reading that book I was on the verge of tears. When I was reading it about these clearly special children it reminded me of my higher self. A few days before, I felt her 100% for the first time and it was the most wonderful experience I've had! That unconditional love, compassion, gentleness and the feeling that everything was going to be okay. It's something that is hard to replicate, so when I feel it, I know it is a special moment!
I also couldn't help but to see myself in these children, especially in childhood. I was very shy (still am haha), I didn't like being around my peers and often got picked on. It was hard for me to stand up for myself. I was clearly sensitive but I never thought of it that way. I just thought I was "too soft". But in reality, I was just a crystal in a seemly unforgiving world.
Before that moment I thought I was an indigo, because how I toughened up in my teen years, never really looking at my past. But that day, when I was sitting at that table, the divine was making it clear to me that I was a crystal child all along. This realization totally blew my mind, especially when I wasn't a fan of the crystal child concept to begin with. Ironically, that simply stemmed from my jealously of these children. Reading how special they were (in the few times I did) only made me feel inferior in comparison.
Another key part of that event was that I felt like I was a "guardian" or overseer to these children. I felt like I needed to protect these children in a way, from the world that they were being born into. I can't really explain it, but that was clearly shown to me. Since then, the divine always expressed to me that I was a "mother" to the children. In the way that all people around the world were in fact my children.
That day forever changed my life. It make things so much clearer for me, yet everything got so intense. It was both truly a blessing and a curse.
What is a crystal child?
In the simplest way, crystal children is the next step to our conscious, spiritual and even physical evolution. The term crystal child comes from their aura field, which is clear or hold opalescent colors.
Crystal children are here to help us bring a better, healthier and more peaceful Earth. With our rather gentle, healing and creative energy, we can help anchor more harmonious energy on to the earth after our older indigo bothers and sisters broke down the old and tired energies that was in place.
We're pretty much the next "runners up" of what this world will contain or will hopefully contain, along side our other cosmic partners like star, indigo and other "children" from around the universe. Each of us, as groups and as individuals have special missions and life paths that we chosen to help enlighten and make the world a better place. We literally chose to come here to help the planet. Make no mistake, if you're here now (despite your age) then more than likely you want to help out and contribute in someway for a better world!
Of course, none of this just comes to you on a sliver platter, we all have struggles and conflicts inside and outside ourselves that we have to resolve to archive self mastery! Thus making a way to be our true selves or what I like to call the "super self" so that we can put into action what we intended for this world before we incarnated! Something that most light workers have to go through before they can achieve true greatness! I talk more about why a light worker's life is seemly so tough in this article.
The amazing sensitively of a crystal
The staple of a crystal being is our overly sensitive natures. We are probably one of the most sensitive bunch in the light workers group, seriously. This sensitively can be emotional, physical, mental, spiritual or all of the above and then some. Even though light workers in general are very sensitive beings, crystals seems to take it to a whole new level.
For example, I'm currently going through a pretty tough eczema break out. I had eczema since high school after I tired Proactive to get rid of my acne. I had no idea how sensitive my skin was, so when I used proactive it dried my face out and suddenly the eczema appeared and haven't left since.
Another great example is my emotional sensitivity. When I was a child I was the "cry baby" of the group. I did cry a lot, especially if I was uncomfortable which was a lot in childhood. I didn't really develop my "suck it up" switch till I entered my teens so I was pretty much an open book other wise. I was always an emotional person, even if I didn't want to show it to myself. I learned to stuff it down and keep moving ahead in life. It was better to be tough, since kids were really cruel to me in grade school. Once I finally learned how to stand up for myself and get through the day without encountering problems with others, school life became a lot easier to deal with.
That emotional sensitivity only gotten stronger once I started to embrace my crystal spirit. I cry over everything now, sentimental moments, great wisdom, music or anything that reminds me of something worth crying over. When this first started it was hard to handle. Even though I was doing a lot more crying due to my tough situations in the last few years, whenever I could, I wouldn't shed a tear. But this time things just slapped me in the face, it was a lot harder to keep those tears down! So I just let myself cry and told myself that it was good for me to cry. In reality, I was just letting go of all the things I was desperately holding on to. Letting go of all the things I believed was right for me, the old beliefs, my old self and my "indigo shield" that I had on for many years.
No matter which way the sensitivity manifests itself as, just know that crystals are super sensitive, child or adult. For that same reason we have to learn to treat ourselves better emotionally, spiritually and physically. And we must also stand our ground so that others know how to treat us as well. Crystals are naturally very forgiving, including myself, but that forgiving nature can be so easily taken advantage of, thus it can lead us to absorb other's emotions which can bog us down. But if we do step up and give people the chance to know who we are and how we are expected to be treated, we don't have to worry so much of being taken advantage of.
So I just went over what a crystal being is, child or adult. I went through the most basic and iconic things about crystal people that a person should know first. Of course, I could go on since there is a lot to us, especially in relation to the world we are in right now but I want to dive into the blessings and curses of crystal adults, and our unique issues!
The crystal adult in today's world
Let's face it, if you are reading this or consider yourself or someone else a crystal, you know how tough it is right now for us. The world is changing so rapidly everyday and our natural sensitivity feels EVERYTHING. Energy naturally come to us because we have the passive ability to transmute it into a high frequency. Even though there isn't a lot of crystal adults right now, we are also here to not only show the way for other's but to also "clean up" the negative air waves wherever we go. So if you are tired, drained from a day out on the town, even a place where you frequent a lot you've been sucking up negative energy from people and places.
Of course we don't feel the delighted effects of the clearer energy waves we naturally create because now that old energy is interfering with our emotions, mind and body. If we don't know how to clear and shield ourselves from these negative energies passing through us, then yes, we will feel the negative effects from it. It's quite easy and I recommend doing it at least once or twice a day. Just visualize a bight white light washing over your aura, clearing out the old energy. Make your aura colors (however you perceive them) extra bright and radiant in result of this white light washing over you. Then once you feel that you've cleaned out your aura enough, make a crystal shield around your body. Like you being encased in a gem, or diamond being protected from negative energies.
That method works really well for me and it works even if you forget to do it before leaving the house. No matter what type of shield or protection method you use, it's never too late to use it. Doing it even if you are in the middle of a crowd works just as well. If you are feeling extra vulnerable or love the protection of the angels, asking Archangel Michael to protect you from foreign energies is an AMAZING tool to use! I ask him every time I leave the house and I sometimes feel him as I walk out onto the side walk.
Last Christmas, I asked him to protect me from other people's energies before going Christmas shopping a few days before the major holiday. And per normal the malls are pretty packed and I don't do well in crowds, I get drained, headaches and become scattered. However, this day I was just fine! I was alert, calm, focused and energized. I only realized that after a few hours passed in the mall, I was amazed how well Michael had protected me in such an energy draining situation! From then on I was convinced that he was the best protection of all! However, I still use the crystal shield method quite often with great results.
In these changing times, it's really hard for us to be focused on more than a few heart felt activities. Once where our energy goes into many things, passions and past times we can only reserve to only a few core activities. Mainly, because if you are coming of age (in any stage of your life) you're life path is starting to seriously take effect and show itself to you. Also our energy is very fragile so what we put in is what we put out, and if we are spreading ourselves too thin then the energy we get back will be just as fragmented. Not only that, but the energy we are giving to other's might not always reach back to us. These people might be in tough times themselves or are holding on to the victim mentality so we might be instead absorbing what they are putting out. And as natural healers and energy converters, we take that energy inside ourselves to be transmuted, but we might still be holding on to that old energy still.
With those things in mind, we just don't have enough energy to please everyone and ourselves. Our energy is just too fragile and particular to try to do too much, so we have to pull back towards the things that we feel very passionate about. So it's very important that we know what exactly what we want to do and do the things that bring us closer to those goals. And even with that said, we might have the trait of having too many passions so scaling down to a simple 2-3 can be very demanding. We may even have a lot of passions but have yet to realize our "dreams". Something that I feel is very important in any person's life, and vital to our life paths and missions. If you have yet to know what you're dream is or find it that your once dream is not so much a dream anymore, please be patient!
My latest dream was to have a big business in my craft sweets deco den. I've worked hard to better my skill and everything that I could possibly need to fulfill that dream of mines. But in the recent months I feel that dream is not for me anymore. It came as a shock because when I was thinking about it, I couldn't see myself putting my core life's energy into that goal. I felt that it was the wrong thing to do and I wanted to do something more humanitarian like, to make the world a better place. This really rocked me to my core because I have no idea what I really wanted to do since I was so dead set in my business dream. Yet, letting go of the old and letting myself be who I really was revealed my soul's plan rather then my personality's. Even now I have no idea what my "dream" is but I do have things I want to be. But they are not dreams just possibilities and goals.
If you are on the same boat, don't push yourself to find it. Let the universe, your guides and higher self guide you towards everything you need to realize it. And if you are rather pushed to find your divine purpose, I hold angel, crystal code, channeling sessions and readings to help people find their dreams and passions (which is one of my biggest passions). I would most recommend the crystal code readings because I can access that part of your soul that holds your divine purpose. Talking to anyone with a listening ear does help ease the pressure of it all, which I do for other's and also lean on for other's to do. Even if you just want to talk to another person in the same boat I'm always happy to help. You can just email me at innerchildreadings@hotmail.com.
The adult crystal's greatest issue: Knowing who we are and adhering to our truth
The world today is changing so we can be who we really are, that's why everyone is struggling with just about everything, especially things of the past. We are meant to clear those things out so that we can be our super selves without the old baggage tearing us down and keeping us from reaching are true potential. Crystals are no different but the kicker is that we have to also be able to withstand the negative energies that are being pushed out of people and places. People are fighting to be "right" when in truth everything we truly feel is "our" truth and there is no need to fight over anything.
People are constantly producing negative energy that crystals and other lightworkers have to soak up and transform. And if you don't know what you are, finding your own truth in the mass of everyone else's truth being thrown around will be one of your greatest challenges. We want to do our best, we want to strive for better things but when we don't know where we stand in this world, everything becomes a challenge. We want other's to tell us who we are and what we should do, but in the grand scheme of things only we can determine that. There is nothing wrong with getting the help of other people, but if we don't put the effort in to really know ourselves and step into our truth instead of everyone else's, we will never be as magical as our potential presents to us. No matter who you are, your potential is never realized just by sitting waiting for something to happen. It takes years of self mastery, a lot of patience and times of being thrown into the unknown to really get a taste of what you can do.
If you are afraid of your own power, afraid of what other people might think, afraid that you will be consumed by another force greater than you, then those are the very things (if not more) that you have to resolve. It's not always easy, I've shed tons of tears over my own crystal journey but it's not as scary as you think. If you allow yourself to be you, your true self, rather than the things everyone else wanted you to be or what you think you should be, things will start changing for the better. You'll see the moment you cut yourself short out of things. You'll see your mistakes as you're making them than after the fact. You'll see your potential a lot clearer, and you will start to feel something different inside, urging you to do things that you never thought you wanted or could do. It's a brilliant cycle but the person that is living it has to be willing to move forward with that flow. If you deny or resist it, you'll see constant challenges and roadblocks that doesn't have to be there.
I believe life can be easy, but that doesn't mean we can slack off when we are being called to the plate. It's up to every person on this planet to achieve what they want, big or small. Being a crystal, or any divine being doesn't guarantee anything. It only means that we chose the "tools" we wanted to hold to mold out our own destinies with.
But how do us adult crystals start to adhere to our own truth or even mold it. If you are an adult crystal, the world around you has effected you in some kind of way. That childlike attitude and beliefs you once had has been dimmed to barely holding on to that truth through small pastimes or even hobbies. Whether it's watching Disney movies, collecting fairy or angel statues, reading fantasy books or even creating your own works. Whatever it is that you truly felt inside has always been in your life, even if that said belief has been dimmed, crushed or pushed out of your being. There is no real escaping how we truly feel, and as crystals we are more connected to the divine so that connection is always in us, showing that faint light that desperately wants to shine! What we are and truly want to be is always showing itself to us, it's just up to us to run, grab it and not let anything stop that wonderful connection!
I let the church scare me from wanting to know the angels. Since I was a little girl the thought of wanting to "know" the angels or anything holy made me go into fear that god would punish me. I felt that from what I heard in church I wasn't allowed to know anything holy or divine. I felt like I was put in a box where lowly beings were suppose to be, completely unable to know the angelic kingdom. That put the stigma of me being afraid of, feeling odd and resisting getting to know the angels. And during my childhood in the 90's when the topic of angels blossomed and was everywhere, I felt odd and resisted a lot of the shows that had angels in them. Mostly being that I felt odd watching it, that somehow I wasn't suppose too, and another reason because they were shown as very sweet and endearing. I believed angels weren't always like that and somehow I always felt offended that they were always displayed as god's ass kissers and did things by his will and lacked their own. Even as a child I felt that angels being displayed as merely divine robots were extremely discouraging and very lack luster. It simply takes a lot of the "magic" out of the whole concept. And knowing that I'm a Mystic Angel (incarnated angel/wise one) I see why I feel those feelings, I somehow knew what we, the angels are more then what humankind has presented.
However, I could never let myself "not know" about the angels and in small ways I would always draw myself closer to them (and vice versa), even if I was fearful. In my early teens, when I got serious about my psychic development and new age beliefs, I wanted to face my fear about the angels and borrowed "The Big Book Of Angels" from my local library. The first day I got it I read a few pages from the massive book and took a short nap afterwards. I had a dream that I was in my high school's hallway. When I looked to my right I saw this massive light descend upon me, pulling me in. This scared the crap out of me so I resisted the pull as long as I could till I couldn't no more. That's when I felt that I was "pulled" out of my sleep. I didn't wake up, but someone or something pulled my consciousness into waking state. This was the first time this ever happened and it scared me to the bone. I never touched the book since and it took months or even over a year for me to return it to the library.
Over the few years since, I've had encounters with people and events that finally broke down that fear of the angels. Included when I discovered my channeling and mediumship ability. Within my life other celestial beings and concepts have been shown to me even when I let the world cover my crystal spirit with mud and rock to convince me otherwise. After I've seen what the world had done to me and saw who I really was face first, I knew that everything I felt drawn to was real, touchable and achievable.
I can imagine every crystal having the same kind of stories, even my most recent good friend that is a star person and a crystal had experiences through out her life that related to her core being. The key here is going back to those experiences and allowing those things to come up to the surface again! Just like the day I found out that I was a crystal it might be overwhelming yet magical, but it's needed for you to be who you are. You are you're truth and you have all the right to live by it 100% despite what other's might think! You'll see over time that people that love you for you will show up and protect you from the world's harshness. But you have to get there first, you have to be willing to let go and move forward into your own light instead of your own shadow. Just like a light passing through a real prism or crystal, when you allow your own light to shine in and through you, you'll see many colors and rays of light hit all those that are around you to see, even yourself! But it's up to you and only you to do that.
Being who you are
Being or just finding out you're a crystal can be intimating. Among the wonderful things we can truly do (I haven't gotten close to that yet!) it can feel like we are being pressured into doing something we don't know or what to do. That we have to adhere to this sort of crystal cage and not go out of those boundaries. Let me reassure you that being who you are, no matter who that person is, is the person you where meant to be. No one should "live in a label" based on anything, but I want to make it clear that, we do have different tools and resources that make our lives challenging in different ways then a person that is not a crystal (and vice versa). And I also want to make it clear that, whatever that crystal being is trying to call out to you, it's perfectly okay to let it in. It's okay to have those feelings and core beliefs that you have. It's okay that you feel different than what you allowed yourself to turn into. It's okay to change paths based on how you truly feel. It's truly all okay. No one can make you do anything, but I want to tell anyone in the sound of my voice that, being you, your true self is so needed now. YOU need you at this moment. Because things are changing and if you are not passionate about your life and what you want it to be, you'll always feel lost and alienated.
I'm going through a total life, no, a soul makeover! It's hard because I always felt that I needed to be tough, driven and strong to make it. This came from my childhood of being picked on a lot. I placed what I called an "indigo shield" around myself for years to toughen me up, emotionally especially. This literally pushed my crystal spirit in a dormant state. For years I thought I was an indigo because of this life long persona and shield I put around myself to protect my truly gentle spirit.
Since that crystal spirit had woken up again, my indigo shield has been peeling off more than you can imagine. Through those peelings more and more of my true feelings, intentions and goals have been resurfacing. Things I didn't thought I wanted to do or didn't allow myself too is now integrating into my personality. My craft dream has been replaced with a feeling of a humanitarian effort of some sort, my path I use to see clearly is now nonexistent, the goals I wanted to achieve, I feel is no longer valid. The person, soul and being I felt and wanted to be is slowly taking over my path and I've been very resistant. But in that resistance I have nothing to fall back on. I don't have things I can dive into because I feel they are not right for me anymore. The world has been pushing me to go to that last step of this phase so that I can be in my power and in my true self, than the one I was molded into.
I feel that clash of the Titians in myself, as if I was two different people. The tougher more rougher part of me that is willing to do anything to "make it". That cynical nature I hold towards the world because of the "reality" of this plane. The way I was treated I had to protect myself for the rest of my life because simply, people are cruel. And it doesn't matter who or what you are, if you stuck out or was different you'll be ridiculed and shunned. You have to work hard for everything because the world doesn't give "free rides" to anyone. If you want it, you better work to the bone for it, even do things that goes against what you feel is right.
Then there is another part of me. So compassionate, loving, overly caring and warm. I see the suffering of the world and I would do anything to fix and relive that feeling from people. I don't see struggle but a reason to be more helpful and to make the world a better place. I just see and feel this overwhelming compassion that I've been crushed by and left me immobile. That sweet feeling knowing that all people, places and things can make it. And that dreams can come true with enough effort and determination from the person. That everyone can do what they came here to do no matter where they come from or who they are. Everyone can succeed...
Those two sides have been clashing and I admit to resisting my better self from emerging fully. I fear that what I will become will be much different from what I know myself as "now". Yet, I so crave for the moment when I won't hold myself back from what I truly feel and want to do. I also have a great fear of being taken advantage of or people seeing my radiance and stealing it away, leaving me with nothing. I feel that without my shield, I will be left open for attack and that rougher part of me wants to protect that gentle crystal spirit from ever being hurt again.
My path has been drastically changing, switching from the tough me to the compassionate me. I haven't yet made the full switch so only so much can truly be revealed to me till I'm fully aligned to my soul's path. But within all this mess and fog the one feeling I know that is my calling and purpose is "wanting to make people happy". That is not something I ever considered my purpose being but it feels so right and I know it's true. It's for sure one of the things I came here to do and I've cut myself off from that truth because I felt so hurt by people and how people hurt each other.
Nevertheless, my crystal spirit has been leading me to all the right things including this revelation, and I intend on following it. If it's who I really am and I "feel it" then I have no right to deny it. Even in my roughest weeks in this year so far, trying to figure it all out, I know that where I am now is where I need to be. And that the angels and all of my guides are there helping me along. I just have to help myself now and that's by being who I am fully. It's tough at first not throwing up my defense shields at every chance I get but it's getting easier. Letting myself be truly soft, forgiving, openly compassionate and letting the harshness of the world pass through me than "in me" is one of the hardest lessons I have to learn. But I know that is who I really am in truth and I have all the right to strive for it, even if it is hard.
Slowly but surely, even in odd ways the world has changed more so I can be who I am, because I'm finally letting myself be that. Instead of controlling myself to be perceived in a certain fashion, so people can "leave me alone".
Without a doubt, everyone, not just crystals have to face themselves to be themselves. And you also have to allow it as well. If you resist those calling and urgings, you will find yourself in tough situations that will remind you who you really are.
The talents and skills you already have is all you really need. The world will guide you to where you need to be to learn new things naturally. Don't look so far outside yourself to figure out what you need and should be, all those things are just reflections of your potential, not who you should be. The person you are now and the person you are destined to be is already in you, ready to shine but if you don't let that light in, no one will ever know, not even yourself.
It's not being superior or better than the next person. All of our paths are uniquely different for just as unique of people. Even if we do the same things, we do them in different ways and even different reasons. It's about being you, it's about being who you really are and letting go of the nonsense we chose to keep running in our lives. No one in this world is like you, even if they seem better or worst than you. It's not about being the best than everybody else, but being the best at mastering yourself. Because if you're better than everyone else but have yet to master yourself, you haven't mastered and owned real personal power. And every person has the right to access their own power and let themselves shine with grace. With you're own power you can create wonderful things, even worlds. The very thing our souls have originated from is the thing we have in control inside ourselves. But if we can't get over the masks we wear, how can we see our real future and not the one we molded from our denials?
In turn, everyone has a grand destiny, a road to go down and their own talent and skills that they can create wonderful things from. You just have to let yourself in so that you can be able to handle the true power of your inner tools and start craving out the best life only you can create!
The conclusion
Despite having 10 plus pages on the subject of crystal children and adults I have yet to scratch the surface about who we are, what are purpose is, our natural abilities and so much more wonderful things. I've really grown to love writing this post out, especially the last 8 pages where I felt inspired to continue it. Mostly because I can read it and feel like someone else has written this about myself, and that I feel so connected to my own spirit through these writings.
In short, crystal beings are super sensitive, gentle and are passive healers. We chose to incarnate here to help the planet and to also advance our own spiritual growth. The world we are in today is hard for a crystals, especially a crystal adult that might of shut down that crystal spirit due to life's drama's and ridicule. In sprite of those things, we are being called to heal ourselves and fully embrace our crystal spirit, so in turn we can do it for the each other and the world.
Shield yourself everyday and clean your aura out everyday because we pick up negative energies wherever we go to clean the air waves. Embrace your unusual experiences, gifts, talents, beliefs and childlike attributes because it is our super selves calling out to us, leading us to what we are in spirit.
Believe in yourself and live your truth! You are the one that is meant to be you and no one else. Everyone is unique and beautiful with different challenges and obstacles to overcome. When you decide that you want to be free from the world's and even your own earthly standards and roles, the magic will start to blossom in awesome ways!
And most of all, love yourself always and remember that magic does exist, you've just have to shine your light so that magic can be seen! From one crystal adult to another... :)
In my last blog post, I touched slightly on the topic about Lightworkers. I mostly told you my personal story that inspired the series that
I'm doing now, "Everything Lightworkers" I guess I will call it for
now.
If you didn't read it, I recommend that you do, because if
you feel like you were here on a special "mission" or purpose, you
will probably relate to my story in someway. In a nut shell, the life of the Lightworker is and can be tough to say the least.
There are many reasons for this, and no, simply being out of
the vortex, having resistance, or just "attracting" negative things
isn't the problem. There is a special linage that each of us has, and if we
keep moving ahead without knowing our divine selves, personal and spiritual
laws, it will seem like we are just meant for living in misery, but that is not
even the tip of the ice berg.
What is a Lightworker? I always thought that it described an
older spiritual person, a title you would get when you were old enough in the
spiritual community. However, in the last few years, I've seen the word
describe much more then older spiritual people. In fact, it would describe
people of all ages, sizes, races and even divinities!
A Lightworker is a
person that works with light to help heal the planet in someway. There are
many different descriptions out there but the one I listed sums up the general
view of it. Lightworkers are here to help heal, restore, and energize the planet.
If I were to sum up my own personal view of what a Lightworker is; this is what my higher self points me to: A Lightworker soul is a being of light that came here from the universe
and Divine Kingdoms to help ascend the planet though different means.
Both descriptions are pretty much the same and really
highlights one thing. If you're in fact a Lightworker, you have a job to do my
friend. You didn't come here to chill out, have fun and play games, you are
literally here doing overtime for the planet. Okay, you CAN have fun and play
games, but you have to satisfy that Lightworker soul of yours that knows what
needs to be done!
Being a Lightworker involves doing something for the greater
good for all. As I mentioned before, we are here doing overtime for the planet.
In a lot of cases, you might not know that you actually came here from a
completely different realm or planet. That's what make the Lightworker life so
tedious and hard. We are all clearly different from the normalcy here. We're
from different worlds, even if we had more then one life time here on planet
earth. Our divine origins comes from high spiritual places where things are
much more easier and different from the earth's. We lived in these places for
many many years, not having to worry about our next meals, paychecks or jobs.
We were healers, shamans, witches, angels, mermaids, fairies, beings from
different planets, so much more and even combinations of these energies!
Learning about our key origins will help us know who we
really are, even more so then just a "spiritual being". We all do
have a personality, a linage that is uniquely ours in the divine. It outlines our
life path, our special talents, even our relationships with the ones closest to
us. It answers a lot of questions we had since we were children, including: Why
am I so different and why am I here?
If I could say one thing, the most important thing for the Lightworker to know, is to answer the question: why is our lives so hard?
I want to go deeply into this in a stand alone post but
simply put, these are lessons to help us know what we want to do, and what we
should teach the world. These are tools we can use to either help us or destroy
us in our lives.
In the worlds we come from, which are higher planes of the
universe's, there is always love, peace and harmony. We don't have to try to do
anything to prove ourselves, we are just basting in the light, love, and the
connection of all. Not to mention all the other fun and interesting stuff that
we may be doing. When we are born, onto planet earth, all that light and love
is drastically cut down, and mixed in with an environment of positive, negative
and everything in-between. This isn't lollipops and candy land anymore, this is
planet earth where both good and bad resides, and we have the pleasure to
choose the path we want to go down on. Well, that's after we picked the right
pair of parents and circumstances we want to be born in and go through in our
first years of living and beyond.
More then likely you'll have quite the story to tell, the
struggles, heartbreak, and just the unfairness that some unworldly force has
descended upon you in your years. Even if your childhood (and even beyond) was
overall positive, there will be some staple events that literally changed your
way of thinking. Either about yourself, the world around you, or both. Now, this
may sound like something everyone goes through, but what makes this so special
in the Lightworker's life is that these things are burned into us. Branding us
our pains and miseries no matter how trivial they may seem to another person.
It can be from bullying, an inattentive parent, some act of
unkindness, betrayal or even some form of abuse, whatever happened in those
first years, or even decades are our most prevalent. Those hurts makes us grow
into stone in someway, making our gifts harder to come out as well. Leaving us
feeling like we just exist and nothing else. That little bit of magic that we
did retain from our past lives have been buried by hurt and deceit, which we
dare for anyone to come close to, we'll cut them off at the pass.
Not knowingly, even though these things can change us for
the rest of our lives, it outlines why we came here. It's the bigger picture we
don't see, it's the hurt, pain and fear that keeps us from knowing who we truly
are. As we grow up, we might retain some of our magic and abilities which can
haunt us because we either don't want these "gifts" or don't
understand what is really happening. A huge roadblock for the Lightworker to
get over, especially if they feel drawn to do their life's work in someway but
don't know where to start.
Learning to see our past as learning tools, and seeing our
talents as gifts for betterment for ourselves and the world, we can indeed
break old patterns and overall tragic lives. Of course, there will always be
those times were things don't work out, and that's okay. Learning to take
control over our destiny also means letting the universe do its job freely too.
Even if you can't see the lessons in your most hardest of struggles after you
took control of your life, it doesn't mean that "you're failing".
This is the universe giving you what you need and you well see the benefits
later.
In time you will learn how to become less stressed, worried,
and fearful because you solved the immense mystery about how your life is
suppose to work, and the laws that govern it. Making your life a lot smoother
and controllable.
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This is just the beginning, for the series that is. In the
future posts I want to highlight each and every aspect of the Lightworker from
start to end. I want people to know just as much as I do and become wiser about
life because of it. Thus, making our lives easier in the process.
I hope that anyone that finds themselves here will
undoubtedly be peeked in interest even if they don't feel like they are a Lightworker.
I hope that this might help someone, even if it's one person that finds out
more about themselves and even the people around them.
