Crystal Adults: Struggling To Be Who You are

It's been some time since I first wrote about crystal adults, but upon skimming through it today I felt the need to write more about us. This time in particular an issue that I feel is running rampant among crystal adults today which is standing in your truth and struggling to be who you are.

The challenges

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It's hard right now to stand firm and really believe to be the person you want to be. With all of us coming into an age where we are put to fend for ourselves, look for jobs, be more responsible and interact with more adults or "mature" people, we can feel inadequate within ourselves. I'm learning right now that feeling good within ourselves is so key to our future. Not because of superficial reasons or to look good in front of others, but it's believing in our talents and grace. Each of us have something very special to give to the world, that is why we came here. It's because of us that the world can ascend higher and higher into the lighter realms. Us choosing to be here knowing how difficult it is for a crystal being to interact and slog through the density which is earth, is quite the challenge. Helping people get over themselves, their issues and helping clear out the negativity that has been plaguing this world for too long. I totally get it, and it's tough for us right now.

We all are trying to find ourselves in a time that is especially tough for a crystal. We feel the pressure of "coming out of the spiritual closet", to start up our own businesses, private practices and move forward into being ourselves and living the life we know we can live. But it's hard when our inner world doesn't translate at all with reality. Or when people doubt us, our dreams, our abilities or what we speak of, of what can be than what is. It is tough, and I'm feeling for all of you. I'm in the same position as well...

Negative Programming

However, I feel that before we can truly take our show on the road and shine like we really want to, we have to dig deep into ourselves and fix the negative programming. The negative programming that life lead us to believe in. All that nonsense about war, competition, being the best, winning and losing, faking it till you make it and anything else that still abides by the old paradigm is flat out BULLSHIT. We truly knew that but when in Rome, do what the Romans do. We were too young to shout and scream about something better, and if we did we get shut down anyway. That is the very feeling, emotions and programming that we need to undo right now. All the bullshit that trapped us into feeling we were never good enough, or the fact we needed to change.

There is nothing wrong with us, our sensitivity, our abilities, our talents or anything we truly have inside. The only thing that is wrong is living by these piss poor standards when we clearly have a choice now! We all have a choice now, and we can choose differently. We can choose if we're going to listen to all the people that didn't believe us with our wacky, out of this world ways, we can choose to finally stop lying to ourselves about who we really are because people didn't get the real you, we can change the hard 3rd dimension "rules' that we thought we had to put up with.

It's all done, we have all the power in the world to change exactly what we want to change! And it starts with you as an individual. It starts with us believing in ourselves, right now. It might seem scary, and hell it is at times but you're strong enough, smart enough and damn good enough to be the person you want to be.

Why stomach all this nonsense when we have a clear choice? Why put up with our negative friends and family? Why put up with the news and the constant ringing of the negative bell? We all know we can do better and we all believe that people should have a choice of who they want to be, instead of going down the line like everyone else.

Our Individuality

Our individuality is key and we forgot about that in our journey. I forgot out sensitive I was, in fact, I didn't even know I was sensitive because I was just called a "cry baby" when I was young. However, when I opened back up to myself in 2011, it was clear that I held on to a lot of crap from my past because of how sensitive I was. I held on to the fact that it wasn't okay for me to be me. I had to be strong, tough and fight like the rest of the kids. Obviously it didn't work and I would end up being

picked on as a result. It was hard for me to stand up for myself because I didn't like getting into trouble or confrontation. I just didn't know how to stand up for myself without feeling the fear of being more hurt than I already was. That and shying away from a possible conformation of any form was my instinct from being picked on. I chose to stay in the background alone, it was safer and more comfortable than putting myself in a place were anyone can cut me with their words. And even till this day that instinct of mine is still running strong. I struggle to truly put myself out there without feeling inside that I'm doing something wrong or "against my nature." It's tough, and the situation I'm in now is making me face a lot of issues that I've been holding on to since childhood. Like not feeling good enough, worthy, being able to do things on my own or make my dreams come true. Everything is being tested right now.

Our Purpose To Create Change

I'm been given a chance to see where I dropped my crystal essences for the 3rd dimension reality thinking, and I feel that it's happening to all of us right now. It's time for us to pick up where we left off as children and start infusing our love and light in everything we do. We're here to uplift the world, not help it continue to go to hell in a hand basket. Choosing to keep doing what we're doing to help the mundane and limited to stay as they are only hurts us at the end. We're here to create change, in everything. We're not the babies or the young children that have yet the chance that we have. We're not here to settle down and just "be," we're here to shake things up. And that doesn't mean we're going to warfare or even up root things in an intense matter (like the indigos), but making waves and huge responses by being who we are! We're here to have people look at us and want to change themselves in a deep matter. We're here to help people believe more in what they don't currently accept. That's why we all come from different backgrounds, races, households, financial situations and even sexuality (I'm an asexual). We're here to create change everywhere, so we're very much spread out to cover the entire planet. I'll say it again, we're here to create change and that is why we feel the pressure now, even if you have been hitting all the marks up to this point.

Even though it seems tough, the universe is trying to wake us up even further to open ourselves up to make deep changes. We're going through this so that we can be who we are and then create the major changes we're here to make. There is no more hiding now, it's time to go big or go home. I definitely feel that we all want to make a major switch from what we're wanting or currently doing, but we've been procrastinating and this here, the intensity we're going through, is the answer.

So the question then becomes, how do I do it? How do I more align to who I really am? How do I handle the feelings of hurt, unworthiness and not being good enough? What will happen if I do become all that I really am? Will people understand me, will people try to hurt or tear me down as they did before? How do I know it's safe to be who I am, and feel accepting of myself with everyone being judged constantly by what they think, feel, believe and do? How do I know I'll be really okay with myself, and how will others react?

It's simple...

We Have To Love All Of Ourselves!

When you don't feel hurt in yourself no one else can inflect it on you. It's not being bold and daring despite your feelings, we've been through that already, it's time to be real and caring because that's who we are! It starts with us loving ourselves as we are, that is the key. A good way to do that is by writing out your feelings, I feel that a lot of emotions, especially stuff from the past has been coming up to the surface. This isn't a bad thing, but something we are meant to face now. We're getting a chance to finally put an end to the self defeating patterns and finally unlock the true crystal essence within! This is our chance to face ourselves so we can be ourselves. This is a chance we can show others that we're not like them and that is okay, we're still pure and divine. But most of all, we're able to love all of ourselves, without judging ourselves constantly or feeling that we're being frauds, especially in front of others.

So start creating, writing, explaining, talking, blogging and anything else you can do to get those emotions out! We've been sucking up the negative energies of the world and now it's time for us to finally release our ball and chain from what we've been exposed to for this long!

It's our time now and it's up to us as individuals to create that path to our grand destiny that the universe is laying out in front of us. Even if things look really scary, and I'm certainly going through a situation like that, rest assured that it's not as bad as it seems. This is just the universe giving us what we want, what we really want, and have been asking for, for years and years. It's just if we want it, we have to be able to come out of our own shadow to get it, and that means coming out of the dark, the spiritual closet, fear, hopelessness, unworthiness and our tragic past and mind set that we've been locked into for too long.

It's time to rise and shine like the sun crystal adults, our time is coming, our time is here!

What Are Dreams And Why They Are Important

Hey everyone, this week I won't be doing a week reading but expressing the message my heart and passion is sending me. I talk about dreams and all the benefits of having and following your own!

This is apart of the changing path that I am undertaking of following my true passions in life. I hope you guys find this video helpful and insightful. I have no idea what will come as far as my videos but it will be for the best. Thank you all for your support!

Home From Zenkaikon

 I was away at Zenkaikon, an anime convention, for 4 days (I came home on Monday) and these are my most current thoughts since.

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Ever since I came home from Zenkaikon, a lot of different things became apparent to me. I just need to change. Change out of this old stuff that I've been holding on to for so long and stop thinking that my choices will fuck me over in the long run. I want to speak about the truth that I know for sure, something that I really hold dear to me, and that is following your dreams. Be passionate about what you want to do and do it no matter if someone is watching or not. Travel and see the world, find something different to explore and enjoy every moment. Life is not hard, but we make it that way when we choose things that we really don't need or want. When I started FYIC readings and card readings in general I wanted a quick source of income. Even though I didn't make a ton of money by any means, it gave me money to support myself and showed how my focus and dedication does work wonders. But it also showed how much I tried to work and cater to others more than myself at the end of the day. The blog content, the reading sales, the twitter and all of that was so more people can actually find me and hopefully buy from me. I do love what I do in essence, but being honest with myself, I just wanted to find a way to support myself without hating my job. FYIC readings did do that for me for a while till I started to really notice that I loved doing whatever I was doing rather than reading for people. Even though it would be fun, interesting and exciting, I would always look forward to doing something else.

This isn't a bad thing, but it really shows that my heart and passion isn't in giving people spiritual guidance. I don't want to give people guidance. I don't want to be apart of the spiritual community like I used to be, I don't want to teach people all the rules and ways of the universe. I want to teach people to follow their dreams. That is what matters to me and that is what I feel makes the world go round. I want to do things purely for myself and what I find passion in. And following your dreams is it. It just fills me with glee thinking about it. Nothing else to me matters but doing what I want at this point in life. I'm not trying to do things for other people and I surely don't want to speak about dreams for others. I want to speak about it because I am passionate about it. That's as simple as it gets.

 I want to talk because I want too. Not for money, popularity, frame, or some type of outside gain. I want to do this because I want too and I so love to do it. That is what matters to me. Everything else as far as spiritual guidance from whatever source doesn't matter to me anymore in the way it used to. I don't need it, and I surely don't want to talk about it like I thought I wanted to. I'll give that torch to so many others that love what they do in that arena.

Me, myself want to talk about dreams and how wonderful it is to have and follow them. The many gifts it shows us and the many wonderful things that stems from dreams when we do follow them. That is everything to me and I love how my own spiritual nature adheres to that ideal that I love so much. I've truly been putting my spiritual gifts in the wrong area, for the wrong reasons and for the wrong people.

I want to put up my hat and jacket in this area of my life and start anew, with something I really want. To focus on me only and no one else because people don't give me passion like dreams do and talking about them. I'm going to be the most selfish I think I've ever been and say that I refuse to cater to anyone outside myself in my endeavors from now on, especially people on the internet. It will be quite the change of pace but I can do it. Whatever extra that comes from doing what I want, will be just that, extra.

The Changes I'm Making in 2013

In this new 2013 energy I feel such a change in attitude and the way I view life. I remember being so ingrained in my spiritual path and my psychic abilities. I felt like my life was my psychic abilities, and that my business was very dependent on them. However, since I started to break down the inner walls of my soul, my more creative side have been taking the reigns.

I feel like more than ever that my creative abilities is the center of my soul. I am still very spiritual and happy about my psychic gifts, but it's not my "world". I want a lot more in my life and life's work than telling people about themselves from a solely psychic standpoint.

I don't feel like I came here solely to be a "psychic" in one way or another. Right now I feel like I need to create and "show" people something. Something bigger and greater than just psychic abilities, or how great it is to be intuitive. I feel it goes way deeper than that.

I noticed this feeling today while I was on Facebook, browsing through my dashboard. One of the people I follow posted their interactive reading, it was meanings to the words you felt guided too. Then I saw another post after that explaining she won't be doing anymore free readings. I understood her choice especially since she has a successful business in what she does, but then this intuitive feeling came over me. I felt like my path in this "business" was shifting, from a psychic based one to a solely creative one.

I wanted to see more magic, sparkle and fantasy in my fan page and business (not too fond of the word business anymore, so I'll call it my life's work). I wanted something people can touch and feel, something that people can be happy about. The path I chosen and took as a psychic, I feel like I was working on a more dense level. Like I was trying to save the world from itself. I wanted to heal suffering because I was suffering too and didn't want people to go through that. Reality was what the average person thought, so I felt like I had to be and do certain things to make it. It's as if I was living in a shell, a shell that wasn't fully mine. I had to cater to a certain group and seek approve from a specific ideal. I was in a dark place, even though I loved my fantasy and creativity, it had no real place there because I lived in "reality".

But now, I feel like I don't want to cater to that old mindset and go somewhere higher, better and more aligned to my true self. I feel like being creative and feeding that creative soul will give me everything I ever wanted. Now I feel like fantasy, imagination, dreams and anything out of this dimension is my place in the world. It doesn't necessarily relay on psychic abilities to survive, or in a way that's trying to stop suffering or cater to a more desperate group.

I feel like this change in how I do things is the right way, and the way I was meant to go in but was too afraid to. Now I can be more myself because I'm indulging in my fantasy loving self, while helping people see what I see than simply saving people from themselves. The life's work I'm going into will help people that want to be helped and will take them in when it's time. I get to dance and sing to my own song and if someone wants to join they can. Instead of looking at the "reality" of things and trying to work on a denser more survival level.

I always wanted this. This feeling that I can make this choice. To be more creative and less "by the book". It took time for me to realize that I had to save myself before I can help others in the highest way possible. I feel like now I can reach the number of people I was meant to reach. And in the most fun and creative way possible that I truly enjoy!

This change was waiting for me and I needed to be patient till the right time. I already was changing the way I do things but now it's a complete life's work overhaul. It's all about fun, positivity, magic and manifesting goodness and knowing there is more to life than just "this".

I'll still post spiritual things, that will never go away, as well as my down to earth self, but I'll do so in a new higher way that I'm more aligned too. I'll start doing new things that supports my creative soul and will help a totally new brand of people! That will also help the people already here get swept up in my creative and magical world!

So I'm loving this new energy of 2013! While I was already on the path of changing my life, this energy is continually taking it to the next level, to the place I want to go! 

Thank you all for reading and take care!

♥♥♥ Inner Child, The Divine Whisperer ♥♥♥

Tangled And The Internal Struggles Of Following Your Dream

Tangled is a great movie, not because it touches us in a deep way, but it shows how the human heart can both push us to something greater, but also keep us stagnate at the same time.

Here is the starting plot of the movie that sets everything off. Taken from Wikipedia:

"A drop of sunlight falls to the ground and grows into a magical flower, with the power to heal the sick and injured. An old woman named Gothel finds it and uses it to keep herself young by singing an incantation. Centuries later, a kingdom has developed, ruled by a king and queen. The Queen becomes ill during pregnancy, and the couple's loving subjects search for the legendary flower. The queen is eventually fed the flower, is healed, and gives birth to a daughter, whom they name Rapunzel. Rapunzel's golden hair, it is found, has absorbed the magical abilities of the flower. Gothel discovers this and tries to steal a lock of Rapunzel's hair. However, she finds that, once cut, the hair turns its normal brown and loses its power. So she kidnaps Rapunzel and hides her in a tower, saving the powers of the magic flower for herself, and raising her as her own child. Every year, on Rapunzel's birthday, her parents and their subjects release thousands of sky lanterns, in the hope that the lost princess will return. Rapunzel has seen these over the years from her high tower. Nearing her 18th birthday, she asks Gothel to take her outside to see the source of the annual floating lights as her present, but Gothel refuses."

I couldn't help but to notice the friction between Rapunzel's and Gothel's goals, and that of the human heart. How many times did we dream about doing something, big or small, only to meet an inner being, or a Gothel, telling us other wise.

Gothel is my favorite character believe it or not lol

 In the movie, Gothel is quite manipulative, and she undermind's Rapunzel's wishes and fills her head that the outside world is a horrible place. She tells Rapunzel that she couldn't possibly defend herself from its evils, that she was immature, naive and "vague". This was Gothel's way to keep Rapunzel from going into the outside world, to keep her "safe" in the tower, only to wonder "what if?". 

I can tell you now, I feel like I've always had an inner Gothel, telling me that it's safe to be where I am, even if I'm hungry to advance and strive for my dreams. Those "negative voices" that people talk about all the time, it's the same concept. People from all walks of life, from all backgrounds will face those feelings, obstacles, and hurdles.

What made Rapuzel so great was that despite her own fears of not only upsetting her mother, but "facing the world", she decides to put it all on the line to go for her dream! How many people you know have been so bold to do that? To have this incredible dream, vision and concept that they want to make a reality and said "The hell with the world!" and do it? Even for those of us that have taken the unbeaten path, it can be hard to change along the way and get better, because in the back of our minds those voices are still calling us home, back to the tower where it's safe. 

It was the same for Rapunzel, even when she felt grass under her feet, ran in the fields, and felt the freedom of being alive for the first time, she was conflicted greatly, and always thought about the tower. She thought how horrible of a daughter she was and how her actions would upset her mother enormously, so much so that Rapunzel was in tears. It's never easy to seemingly give up on everything you know for a simple dream.

The awards for striving for your dream is always great, but it's never an "easy" road. You don't just make your dreams come true, you are deciding that no matter what, you'll see your dream through for everything it's worth. Even when people say (me included) "life can be easy if you do/think/behave differently" it's never really that simple. Life is an open road, not a linear tunnel. What you decide to put in will result of what you'll get out. You can be positive all you want, but you'll still need the strength and courage to overcome everything that will be thrown at you. If you're sitting in your tower, waiting for your dream to smack you in the face, you will need Rapunzel's magic hair to keep you alive for all the time you'll be waiting. 

 That doesn't mean you have to work yourself to the grave for your dream, but I will never suggest that you sit in a tower and wait for it to happen either. When you feel it, that passion, that goal, that connection between you and the world around you, you'll know that you're more then ready to not only make your dream come true, but to finally know what to do to get there (at least the first step). Even if you're scared, afraid or alone, it will be that inner passion that will override the fear and make you "do something" that you'll never thought you would. 

That is what Rapunzel did, and she was faced with many challenges and even sacrifices, but she became a person that she never thought she could be. She become smarter, wiser and so much more vibrant because she moved mountains for this one dream she had since she was a little girl. That is what life is about, striving for something that is bigger then yourself, even when the whole world is against you. It's never the easiest road, but it's always the more exciting and awarding one! 

 Are you excited yet? Go out there and start going after your dreams!

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