Why we Need to Love Ourselves as Artists

There is something that I always found running rampant among the creative community for as long as I can remember. It's always something that never cease and always seem to grow over time as we develop our individual styles and mediums. It's a monster inside us ready to consume any and all light that we mange to obtain in ourselves, our art and in our spirit as creatives.

Welcome to The Divine Feminine

Hey everyone, it's been a long time since I sat down and did a real blog post for you all.

Everything in the last few months have been about the massive changes in my life, and the mind set shifting I've been going through. I'm still in that transition but I'm through the worst of it for the most part. The things that I left behind wasn't for my highest good anymore, and I'm happy that I'm strong enough to say the things I did in the last few months. It was hard admitting my truth feelings because I felt like I would be disowned or disliked in someway, but I've learned not to give a fuck to put it frankly hahaha.

Inner Child is moving on!

Hey everyone I have good and bad news, but it's mostly good haha!

It's been a long time coming but I'm finally switching gears in my spiritual career! Where I won't be doing anymore readings! 

I found a niche that I can connect to and grow from which I didn't have before. It actually made business a lot harder than it needed to be because I didn't have a certain group of people I wanted to help. I wanted to help everyone, which led to a lot of burn outs in that area. However, I've been doing a lot of inside work to find the tools and resources that I can use to transform my life's work into something I truly adore and love.

So now my mission and life's work is focused on: helping sensitive Earth Angels live intuitively and divinely in the real world. Using their high sensitivity as a base of power, strength, and confidence rather than a base of inferiority and unworthiness.

It's something that I've learned (and still learning) to do in the past few years and it's something I want to teach other Earth Angels facing the same issues. Being extra sensitive isn't easy, especially when you want to stand out loud and proud. We're often put in a box labeled "not good enough" because of our sensitivity when it's actually a true gift. So much negative expectations and conditioning comes with being a sensitive Earth Angel and I want to start busting those bullshit beliefs!

With all that being said, I'm changing my blog around and all of the other social networks that I have to align with these new changes. That also means that my shop will be closing down in the next coming weeks. So if you want a reading from me, the time is now because I won't be doing them anymore after the shop closes.

There is a lot more to these changes but you'll see them as they will roll out in the future. I hope you all enjoy this new direction, find it helpful and continue to support me in this new path!

Thank you all for your amazing support!

A Funeral to my Old Emotions and Feelings

I don't know where to start. In the last five years I've done many things. Many things that I thought would make me happy and successful, including pursuing a higher ideal. However, if you saw my post about leaving the spiritual community you see my feelings have changed. It's not only that area in my life that have changed, but everything. Literally everything that I thought would give me happiness have failed to do such. Which made me really angry at myself more than anything. I felt like I failed to do what I intended to do so many years ago.

Upon looking at myself in a new light, really taking in the consideration of my true talents and interests, I decided to coach myself. I wanted to coach myself to being whole and complete again. Where I tended to my feelings of feeling different, victimized and unworthy of myself and in life. I so much wanted to succeed and be successful but I found it all go up in smoke. I blamed myself for everything I thought I've done wrong, and felt liable of all the traits I thought that fostered failure and unworthiness.

When I closed my eyes and looked at myself, I saw a girl that was holding on to everything. Every piece of guilt, anger, unworthiness, sadness and anything she felt she had done wrong in the last 5 years. It was weighing her down so much; yet, she wanted to go down the new path she saw clearly that was calling to her. It was tragic and honorable at the same time.

When I saw that in me, all those things I was holding on too, I told myself "before you do anything, just stop. Stop thinking about the past and stop trying to move forward towards the future. The only thing you need to do right now is focus on yourself." It was mind boggling how accurate I was saying these things to myself. It's as if I was truly seeing myself as the client completely detached to my own situation.

When we were going back and forth, a lot of great things were said. The one idea I gave my client self however really hit me, it was giving my feelings a funeral. All those times I felt shitty, I would say my last goodbyes and bury them in the ground. I would close that specific chapter in my life and energetically start a new one. So that I would be able to go down this new road without being held back by my past.

It was so perfect and I wanted to do it then and there but I knew I needed to heal myself that night. I actually haven't done my normal healing routine in over 2 months so all my negative emotions from then on compounded really bad.

That next day, after I did my morning routine, I got on the computer and stated all of my negative feelings that I've felt. The anger, sense of failure, sadness, shame and all the negative thoughts and attachments that I had. Here is the most prevalent part of my funeral:

What I hated the most, was the fact I followed my bliss, calling and purpose only for it to blow up in my face. I wasn't happy, I wasn't abundant, life was still hard and I was sad and wanted things to stop. Everything I ever learned didn't seem to fit anywhere anymore.

All the experts were wrong and I hated the fact that I seemed so different from the people I followed and once looked up too. Nothing made sense. After all these years learning, trying and listening, I've gotten nowhere. I hated what I was doing and didn't see the people, progress or changes I so wanted to see. I was so angry that I just kept it all to myself and felt like a total failure.

All those feelings saying "that I couldn't do anything right" was true, that is how I felt. I tried so hard to be that perfect light worker, that great angel card reader and healer and still I wasn't happy. I felt like people would disown me if I showed my true colors. I felt stuck in life, I felt stuck in myself.

It felt good to get those feelings out on the table and state them as if they where detached from my being. It made me feel that this is the end, and I'm truly ready to open a new chapter in my life. This is apart of the closing of my funeral:

I'm choosing to let it all go. That isn't me anymore. This is a funeral to those feelings, places, sense of unworthiness and anyone that didn't believe in me. This is a closing of a chapter and a start of a new beginning. A new beginning where, I walk in love and not with a sense of guilt.

Where I know I'm smart enough, talented enough, and have plenty of people that care and want to see me succeed. That the world helps me everyday and that the next step is always present. More importantly, I can have a bad day and that doesn't mean I failed; I'm simply learning and being human with limitations. And that's okay.

I'm perfect as I am, even when I can't do everything I want in a day. Where I can't get everything I want at this hot red minute; that I cuss and get angry. Those are the very best parts of me and shows how even more enlightened I am. Not because I'm showing people the light, but also the darkness that resides in us all. That there is nothing to be afraid of and we all can change into better people everyday.

Having that moment to acknowledge my true feelings and deciding with great intention to leave them where they stand was powerful. I feel that a lot has been lifted from my shoulders and I'm so much closer to where I need to be. Even though I've done the most important part, I still have a lot of self healing to do. Things to work out in myself and old programs I need to dissolve fully.

When I saw myself again after my funeral, I told myself that I can "slowly" proceed in the direction I want to go in. But, I have to be mindful that I still need to work on clearing out the old in its entirely. To disable some limited beliefs and completely disarm the past from rearing its ugly head.


I'm still in-between the old and new, and that's okay. This is the perfect place to do my healing work because I don't feel pressure to succeed or fight the old. I can take my time and let the universe guide me to where ever I need to go. At the same time, moving forward and blogging like I want to, expressing myself and focusing on the things I love make it that much more rewarding. I feel complete talking about my story and self discoveries. That I'm okay with the good times and bad, and most of all: I'm doing something I feel connected too. It's the best feeling in the world when everything around me is still very much uncertain.

What is it that you need to give a funeral too? An ex, a job, a friend, a relationship, your feelings of unworthiness, humiliation, failure or pressure? What is it that truly calls you but you resist with the feelings of holding on to something that isn't serving you. Tell me what you think you need to lose and how you want your new chapter to be about.

♥♥♥ Inner Child, The Divine Whisperer ♥♥♥

Asexuality and Twin Flames (TMI Warning)

This topic has been on my mind for a while now, especially since my own twin is due to pop up at anytime. I do have quite the update on that issue, and I'm sure you all are dying to hear about it. However, that will be for the next time.

Anyway, asexual twin flames, asexual twin flame relationship, does it exist I don't know. Every time I hear about twin flames, sex is somehow mesh into it, depending how deep the conversation goes. This puts a bit of the "ugh pressure" on me because I am asexual, meaning that I have no sexual attraction towards people. If you're like "what the hell is that?" then I'll escort you to this asexuality forum where you can get all your answers and even more questions from.

Remember that one post where I talk about meeting my twin flame in a dream? I mention how I wasn't a very romantic girl, and how I wasn't interested in relationships until college. Well, before I knew what asexuality was, that was apart of the reason. In those teen years having partners and such pretty much included sex. Being in high school, that's all I heard about everyday. Even though I didn't know I was asexual, I knew that I didn't want any parts of having sex.

Generally relationships includes sex, we all know that. But in college, really recognizing that I didn't want to have sex in my romantic relationships made things strange. Even going into my only relationship, I didn't know how to express my feelings on the matter or how to adjust the relationship to fit in my preferences. At the end, what really turned me off and made the relationship deteriorate was the ex's sexual feelings.

(TMI WARNING)

I'm debating even mentioning the actual story, but I will anyway. One night, he told me he had a sexual dream about me, then pleasured himself afterwards. That shit blew my mind. I mean, I never told him how I felt about sex, nor did he. Unless you count his cute little story about us making love then pleasuring himself, which is disgusting by the way. Who does that? Way TMI if you ask me.

Anyway, the point is I felt so uneasy around him after that. Solely because he might want to take things to the next level. Even us cuddling (and I love cuddling and affection) made me uncomfortable. I remember clearly pushing him away a few times due to that very fact. The relationship ended with him up and leaving, like up and leaving without telling me at ALL. A hardy "fuck you" to you fine sir. (Yes, I'm still slightly pet peeved about that, it was a douche and cowardly move.)

Even though I was hurt at the time, I knew it was for the VERY best. For reasons I won't go into today. All I can say though is thank you for giving me the greatest gift of all, which is my twin flame. You can keep your nasty sex dreams and depression to yourself too.

After that I vowed when I'm emotionally healed, I wanted to be with the person I came into this world with. About 2 years later my twin flame appeared to me and so far, I like what he's about. I've gotten a lot of intuitive information about him that just slides into place of what I didn't even know I loved. However, in the back of my mind, I always wondered about how my asexuality will fall into place in all this. After learning that I was asexual, I told myself that I'm never having sex nor will I enter a relationship with anyone sexual. I heard about asexuals getting into relationships with sexual people. Even compromising and having sex, but that isn't me. I'm not compromising shit, sex is a deal breaker along with having children.

But what about my twin, will HE be sexual? Will he be asexual? I don't know. What about the twin flame connection and relationship? I heard many times that apparently making love to your twin flame the best thing ever, but I want no parts of that. It suppose to be the major thing that connects twin flames totally. Or something of the sort, I haven't checked my sources in a while haha. No matter how you cut it, sex won't be apart of my next relationship, but what about twin flame asexuality? How does that work? I never even heard about it. Seeing the circumstances and if some crazy lineups happen, I might be in the first one. But till and if that happens, what is an asexual Twin Flame relationship and can it work?

I say it does, for the simple fact that I was born asexual. I'm pretty sure I planed it to be that way as well. Why shouldn't my other half of my soul chose the same? It doesn't make sense for one partner to be asexual and the other sexual. Not to mention I found out about my asexuality well after I met my twin. During which I was learning (and still am) so much about myself. Things I knew that would improve and make our meeting even better.

Intuitively speaking, I never got the feeling he was sexual, quite the opposite. Nor did I get any signs of it either. Honestly, it wouldn't make sense for the universe to push me in that direction when my plan was set in the beginning. And with all the peculiar and wonderful coincidences I've been putting together about us as twin flames, it would be extremely odd for this one issue to suddenly screw it all up. Besides, worst case scenario if he is sexual, I'm sure he'll understand my stance. I can't promise any romantic relationships though. 

Long story short, I guess you can say my curiosity has been plaguing me about this one issue for a long time. I meant to blog about this before but as always, I'm waiting for the right time to do so.

I hope you all enjoyed this. I would love to hear about any twin flame or asexual stories if you have any. One of my major goals is to get more involved with my followers in a more personal way. I enjoy the connection and it enriches my life in this area.

Talk to you all soon!

My Golden Rules for Spirituality Part 1

With throwing away some old ideals and mindsets with the spirituality community, I feel a lot more free to be who I am. The parts of me that fought and struggled for control and perfection are finally settling down, because they both know they're perfect as they are. Due to the internal struggle I felt like I was cut in half, into the more "pure and enlighten" side as well as the more "dark and rustic" side. However, having these two energies finally met in the middle was the best thing I could ever gotten out of this. Where that clear light and dark turned into many rays of light, making it quite a beautiful show!

With these two energies free to act as they will I felt that I needed to establish some new and timeless rules for myself. Rules that I was afraid of,  hesitate to follow and actively pursue in fears of rejection. Now, however, I'm becoming a whole new me finally deciding what truly works for me and throwing out the rest. No more "what this person or expert" said, I'm deciding what I know is right for me and what feels good.

Since my list and explanations were so long I'm breaking this post into parts, this post being the first one. So without further ado, here is my personal new rules for spirituality!

1. I have to serve myself, not the world

For years I've read that we chose to come here to serve the world and make it a better place. I also heard it personally in that amount of time from my guides, angels and sometimes myself. However, me being wrapped up in only that made me lost sight of who I truly needed to serve first, myself. Because of that, I struggled for years to be this perfect divine light worker healer to serve and save the world. Even though mainstream spirituality (as did I) preach the fact that we came here to this super awesome special mission to help enlighten the world, I'm changing that in my life. I came here to serve and better myself for myself. I'm not making the fact that if I don't drop everything to solely serve the world, I'm being less of a light worker or a person that wants to see this world prosper. If I'm not happy in my own life I have to tend to that, not the world's suffering.

2. The ego is the greatest part of being human (RANT ALERT)

And I love every drop of it. In too many books have I read that the ego was the source of human suffering, our inferior desires for material gain, wealth, our negative emotions, negative experiences and so many other things that goes wrong in life. When I first read about it many years ago, I was pretty put off naturally. I felt rather offended that some yahoo had the nerve to say that my personality was somehow inherently bad. And that if I don't transcend beyond it and it's earthy desires, I'm doomed to have a shitty life. FLAT OUT BULLSHIT.

To me, blaming the ego for an individual's or the world's suffering is like calling a baby demonic because it shits on itself. Bad things happen, it's apart of life. You learn, get better and do better. Hiding away via spirituality on cloud nine pretending that anything less than feeling compassion and forgiveness is apart of this evil force of the soul, only makes you that much unwilling to learn about life.

More over, it's giving too many people excuses for their own downfalls when everyone is hopping on this spiritual bandwagon. The ego isn't some outside force that wants to see you fail. If you're feeling bad, feeling like you're attracting bad stuff, that isn't the ego that's fucking you up, IT'S YOU, YOU ARE THE EGO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR OWN ACTIONS. Stop blaming your downfalls on this imaginary ego concept, seriously.

The ego is the part of us that makes us human. It makes us feel, see, hear, touch and taste the world we chose to be in. It gives us that spark of life and it's the vehicle that makes living possible. What you think is the ego is just your past hang ups, regrets, frustrations and negative emotions, the kicker is those are gifts. If you decide to face and sort them out you'll find more of yourself as well as more self love.

I've been on the fence with spirituality's definition of the ego for years, and it only made me feel inferior for wanting the things I want. Thus causing me to slow down or halt my success and blossoming as a person within this world, rather than outside of it. Coming to the place where I completely allow myself to want and go after material things only made my life greater. I don't feel bad or impure about being human, so that is a vital rule I'm now fully integrating into my life.

3. Wanting material gain is something I shouldn't be ashamed of

Again, this falls into the whole "ego" concept.

4. Listen to no person, expert, guru or channeled entity if it doesn't resonate

For years I've been following all kinds of spiritual people and entities on my journey. They all had something different to bring and each of them were unique. However, more often than not, I wouldn't resonate with them fully, or something they feel strongly about puts me off or I feel indifferent to. Because of this, I had to learn that I should only follow people I truly resonate with. Since I naturally absorb whatever I'm around, no matter the source (like books, TV, audio) it would clash with my natural beliefs. Thus, causing me to push and pull between what was spirituality "right" and what was "wrong."  

Right now, I basically cleaned out all of my social networks of all the spiritual people I followed, and even more so the experts. That only gave me a lot more breathing room to be and follow my own guidance without interference which is vital.

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I hope you all enjoyed my list and even my rant haha! With that being said, are there specific rules for spirituality that you made for yourself? Do you think it helps you on your journey? If so, I would love to hear about it!

♥♥♥ Inner Child, The Divine Whisperer ♥♥♥

Leaving the Spiritual Community

I finally decided to leave the spiritual community as a whole. It's been almost 3 weeks since I made my decision and I finally feel like I can openly tell people about it.

Long ago I should of accepted myself as someone completely different than any group I could identify with. I realized that my unique take on spirituality, because I am still spiritual and I love spirituality on it's own, is a true gift and not an impurity of the soul. I have to accept and start being my own true god, goddess and guru without feeling guilty that I'm somehow breaking the spirituality rules.

To be honest I feel like I've been sheltered for years by spirituality and I've been cutting myself short by not wanting to seem too different from the mainstream spiritual community. It left me with a really fragmented life and a life where I wasn't being all of who I am. I struggled hard to "make it" and make a name for myself as an angel card reader but that alone has gotten old for a long time.

My beliefs in spiritually is much different than what I was reading, listening and watching for years.

I don't feel that the ego is bad, in fact I feel that is the furthest thing from the truth. I don't think we should "transcend life" while cursing the material world and all it has to offer. And one of the biggest things I came to realize for myself is that I loath the ideal that we came here to purely serve the world and not ourselves. Even though I hear about loving yourself quite a bit in new age information, for some reason it always boils down to bettering yourself to better the world. I'm sure I even said the same basic thing. I love to help people, but giving up my life and desires in hopes that my sacrifice will make the world a better place is too much.

Being in the spiritual community was a huge thing in my life. It was something that happened every single day for a decade if not more. However, it simply grew out of control, I was too ingrained and influenced by what the next person said, even if I didn't resonate with it. Spirituality as well as my career in it took up way to much of my time, and slowly over the years some vital parts of myself got left in the dust.

Spirituality is great but it won't make me or give me happiness. In fact, nothing will give me happiness but me, by being my own self. Even the parts of myself that seem nonspiritual, impure or even bad through the eyes of some extreme spiritualists. But I have to remember, the universe doesn't care what I do, in fact it wants me to be all that I am. It says that if I want it than I can have it. That includes material and earthy wants and desires. It's people's opinions that made me hesitant for so long, and quite frankly those opinions mean jack shit. 

There is so much more I can explain but I'll leave it at that. With everything being said, I'm still spiritual and will talk about spirituality, the difference being it'll be my own spirituality. I also feel that there is nothing wrong with spirituality or the community on it's own. I've met so many wonderful people during my journey; my dislikes with the spiritual community were 10 years in the making, so there is no single person I'm referring too. Just general lack luster things I've been seeing over and over.

That and I've honestly grown way out of it and need to set my own course from here on. My store will still be up and this blog will only grow into something I truly love. I'm excited with this new change and I'm sure you'll love the new changes too.

Till next time,

Inner Child, The Divine Whisperer

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Remember Where Your Source is!

Hey everyone, yes, I know it was a super long time since my last video but as you can tell from the last vlog I posted, things got crazy. I mean crazy crazy and I've been switching all kinds of gears within this cluster fuck so the videos pretty much stopped. However, I'm still intending to do more videos in the future and post up a super old vlog of my new guinea pig babies, so you can look forward to that.

Anyway, yes this is my first outdoor hippie video, in the beginning of it anyway... I explain some revelations when it comes to connecting to your true source of money or anything thing you are after. It's quite good and I really love this video and how it came out. More videos like this is needed since I'm breaking off into new things!

Crystal Adults: Struggling To Be Who You are

It's been some time since I first wrote about crystal adults, but upon skimming through it today I felt the need to write more about us. This time in particular an issue that I feel is running rampant among crystal adults today which is standing in your truth and struggling to be who you are.

The challenges

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It's hard right now to stand firm and really believe to be the person you want to be. With all of us coming into an age where we are put to fend for ourselves, look for jobs, be more responsible and interact with more adults or "mature" people, we can feel inadequate within ourselves. I'm learning right now that feeling good within ourselves is so key to our future. Not because of superficial reasons or to look good in front of others, but it's believing in our talents and grace. Each of us have something very special to give to the world, that is why we came here. It's because of us that the world can ascend higher and higher into the lighter realms. Us choosing to be here knowing how difficult it is for a crystal being to interact and slog through the density which is earth, is quite the challenge. Helping people get over themselves, their issues and helping clear out the negativity that has been plaguing this world for too long. I totally get it, and it's tough for us right now.

We all are trying to find ourselves in a time that is especially tough for a crystal. We feel the pressure of "coming out of the spiritual closet", to start up our own businesses, private practices and move forward into being ourselves and living the life we know we can live. But it's hard when our inner world doesn't translate at all with reality. Or when people doubt us, our dreams, our abilities or what we speak of, of what can be than what is. It is tough, and I'm feeling for all of you. I'm in the same position as well...

Negative Programming

However, I feel that before we can truly take our show on the road and shine like we really want to, we have to dig deep into ourselves and fix the negative programming. The negative programming that life lead us to believe in. All that nonsense about war, competition, being the best, winning and losing, faking it till you make it and anything else that still abides by the old paradigm is flat out BULLSHIT. We truly knew that but when in Rome, do what the Romans do. We were too young to shout and scream about something better, and if we did we get shut down anyway. That is the very feeling, emotions and programming that we need to undo right now. All the bullshit that trapped us into feeling we were never good enough, or the fact we needed to change.

There is nothing wrong with us, our sensitivity, our abilities, our talents or anything we truly have inside. The only thing that is wrong is living by these piss poor standards when we clearly have a choice now! We all have a choice now, and we can choose differently. We can choose if we're going to listen to all the people that didn't believe us with our wacky, out of this world ways, we can choose to finally stop lying to ourselves about who we really are because people didn't get the real you, we can change the hard 3rd dimension "rules' that we thought we had to put up with.

It's all done, we have all the power in the world to change exactly what we want to change! And it starts with you as an individual. It starts with us believing in ourselves, right now. It might seem scary, and hell it is at times but you're strong enough, smart enough and damn good enough to be the person you want to be.

Why stomach all this nonsense when we have a clear choice? Why put up with our negative friends and family? Why put up with the news and the constant ringing of the negative bell? We all know we can do better and we all believe that people should have a choice of who they want to be, instead of going down the line like everyone else.

Our Individuality

Our individuality is key and we forgot about that in our journey. I forgot out sensitive I was, in fact, I didn't even know I was sensitive because I was just called a "cry baby" when I was young. However, when I opened back up to myself in 2011, it was clear that I held on to a lot of crap from my past because of how sensitive I was. I held on to the fact that it wasn't okay for me to be me. I had to be strong, tough and fight like the rest of the kids. Obviously it didn't work and I would end up being

picked on as a result. It was hard for me to stand up for myself because I didn't like getting into trouble or confrontation. I just didn't know how to stand up for myself without feeling the fear of being more hurt than I already was. That and shying away from a possible conformation of any form was my instinct from being picked on. I chose to stay in the background alone, it was safer and more comfortable than putting myself in a place were anyone can cut me with their words. And even till this day that instinct of mine is still running strong. I struggle to truly put myself out there without feeling inside that I'm doing something wrong or "against my nature." It's tough, and the situation I'm in now is making me face a lot of issues that I've been holding on to since childhood. Like not feeling good enough, worthy, being able to do things on my own or make my dreams come true. Everything is being tested right now.

Our Purpose To Create Change

I'm been given a chance to see where I dropped my crystal essences for the 3rd dimension reality thinking, and I feel that it's happening to all of us right now. It's time for us to pick up where we left off as children and start infusing our love and light in everything we do. We're here to uplift the world, not help it continue to go to hell in a hand basket. Choosing to keep doing what we're doing to help the mundane and limited to stay as they are only hurts us at the end. We're here to create change, in everything. We're not the babies or the young children that have yet the chance that we have. We're not here to settle down and just "be," we're here to shake things up. And that doesn't mean we're going to warfare or even up root things in an intense matter (like the indigos), but making waves and huge responses by being who we are! We're here to have people look at us and want to change themselves in a deep matter. We're here to help people believe more in what they don't currently accept. That's why we all come from different backgrounds, races, households, financial situations and even sexuality (I'm an asexual). We're here to create change everywhere, so we're very much spread out to cover the entire planet. I'll say it again, we're here to create change and that is why we feel the pressure now, even if you have been hitting all the marks up to this point.

Even though it seems tough, the universe is trying to wake us up even further to open ourselves up to make deep changes. We're going through this so that we can be who we are and then create the major changes we're here to make. There is no more hiding now, it's time to go big or go home. I definitely feel that we all want to make a major switch from what we're wanting or currently doing, but we've been procrastinating and this here, the intensity we're going through, is the answer.

So the question then becomes, how do I do it? How do I more align to who I really am? How do I handle the feelings of hurt, unworthiness and not being good enough? What will happen if I do become all that I really am? Will people understand me, will people try to hurt or tear me down as they did before? How do I know it's safe to be who I am, and feel accepting of myself with everyone being judged constantly by what they think, feel, believe and do? How do I know I'll be really okay with myself, and how will others react?

It's simple...

We Have To Love All Of Ourselves!

When you don't feel hurt in yourself no one else can inflect it on you. It's not being bold and daring despite your feelings, we've been through that already, it's time to be real and caring because that's who we are! It starts with us loving ourselves as we are, that is the key. A good way to do that is by writing out your feelings, I feel that a lot of emotions, especially stuff from the past has been coming up to the surface. This isn't a bad thing, but something we are meant to face now. We're getting a chance to finally put an end to the self defeating patterns and finally unlock the true crystal essence within! This is our chance to face ourselves so we can be ourselves. This is a chance we can show others that we're not like them and that is okay, we're still pure and divine. But most of all, we're able to love all of ourselves, without judging ourselves constantly or feeling that we're being frauds, especially in front of others.

So start creating, writing, explaining, talking, blogging and anything else you can do to get those emotions out! We've been sucking up the negative energies of the world and now it's time for us to finally release our ball and chain from what we've been exposed to for this long!

It's our time now and it's up to us as individuals to create that path to our grand destiny that the universe is laying out in front of us. Even if things look really scary, and I'm certainly going through a situation like that, rest assured that it's not as bad as it seems. This is just the universe giving us what we want, what we really want, and have been asking for, for years and years. It's just if we want it, we have to be able to come out of our own shadow to get it, and that means coming out of the dark, the spiritual closet, fear, hopelessness, unworthiness and our tragic past and mind set that we've been locked into for too long.

It's time to rise and shine like the sun crystal adults, our time is coming, our time is here!

Dream Activation Tips #1

 

Your current circumstances has nothing to do with your potential success or failure, but your deep seated beliefs!

 

When I woke up this morning I could tell it would be a good day. After launching my Dream Action Program Beta and going through the constant nerves after, I knew that my negative expectations was the main reason for my nervousness. I'm not in the best position so that made me feel that I wouldn't be successful. I've done launches before of projects I loved that never made real traction. At those times I felt then that I wasn't in the best position and things were stressful, and when I felt like my project had failed I linked it to my circumstances.

However, this morning when I made my connection to my past "failures" and my circumstances at the time a brilliant reminder popped in my head. My circumstances has nothing to do with my success, but my thoughts, feelings and beliefs have EVERYTHING TO DO WITH IT. Once I reminded myself that my current situation have nothing to do if I fail or succeed, I knew it would be a good day because I will no longer look at my situation and instantly think I've already failed. But I will feel in my heart that I'm already successful because I launched a project that I'm passionate about, and that is all that counts. I'm choosing to believe something different despite everything!

So, whatever you are going through right now, especially an intense situation, remind yourself that your surroundings does not define your ability to create something great! You have everything you need right now to create all that you need to get to the next step and be abundant, radiant, peaceful, happy and secure, no matter what is going on around you!

Believe in your dreams!

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Tough Times And Time Of Birth Vlog

This video is like 2-3 weeks old so a lot of time has passed since I recorded it. I'll provide a small update when I have the time!

May 27-June 2 Video Reading

  Mermaid Reading

This week our big goals and dreams will be halted because of the intense energy. Don't fight all the madness that is happening, go with the flow and relax.

May 20-26 Archangel Micheal Reading

This week is all about following your intuition! Whatever your gut, nagging thoughts or emotions are telling you, it's time to listen. Don't hesitate to take action when you're called for it as well!

May 6-12 Unicorn And Mermaid Reading

This week the unicorns and the mermaids guide us on the creative energies that is coming to us this week. We have to protect our energies from outside influences, especially negative ones to ensure we get the creative ideas that will take us to the next step of our lives!

April 30-May 5 Angel Reading - Forgive Yourself And The World

This week the angels address our cynical view of the world especially when things go wrong. It's time to purify our view of the world and forgive ourselves and our world for not being perfect!

What Are Dreams And Why They Are Important

Hey everyone, this week I won't be doing a week reading but expressing the message my heart and passion is sending me. I talk about dreams and all the benefits of having and following your own!

This is apart of the changing path that I am undertaking of following my true passions in life. I hope you guys find this video helpful and insightful. I have no idea what will come as far as my videos but it will be for the best. Thank you all for your support!

April 15-21 Archangel Michael Reading

This week is all about taking a fresh perspective towards the things you're been dealing with as of late. Taking in why you want the things that you do and how far you come in regards to the internal struggles within your life. Once you get to know and sort out your internal feelings, a new path, situation or clarity will take place so you can make the first and right steps!

The Magic of Having Fun & Being in The Moment

Having fun is so important. Having fun is important because it reminds you of the other side of life. Not the one where you wake up in the morning for work, think about your bills, issues, job, the economy and how you're going to solve this or that. But the side of life where you're focused on the good, positive and the childlike present you're experiencing.

Having fun truly rises above any and all things material, grounded and solid. Having fun lifts your energy, brings you solutions, connects you with people and brings you in a totally different state of mind.

Whether it's with friends, yourself or a pet, having fun does magical wonders. When was the last time you had true fun? When was the last time you had fun in the worst of times or when things seem bleak. Even if it was a moment, you felt that lightness in your laugh, that airiness of your mind and your current issues take a back seat. This is the magic of not just having fun but also living in the moment.

Too often we take our issues with us every single day. Hoping that somehow thinking them through will somehow solve and complete them. But in the grand scheme of things, constantly thinking of the same issues over and over just creates a bigger illusion of what we want to happen. We can not control everything, we surly can't control other people or circumstances. But somehow, the control we have over ourselves, our moods and emotions takes us from where we are to where we want to be, even if it seems like we're taking a more passive role in life. It's not giving in or submitting that makes life work, but realizing that this very moment, all that matters is having fun and taking notice of the opportunities that is right in front of you. 

When you have fun, you're right in the moment. You're realizing that in this very time space, you are "enjoying yourself" way more than thinking about the past or visualizing the future. You're right here, in the now in all the grandness that it has to offer you.

Bringing more joy, laughter and just that magic of being in the moment in life makes your world work and flow. You're not distracted by everything else, you're enjoying yourself, even loving the air your breathe and just what is currently happening. Even if things isn't perfect and you're desperate for answers or a solution, having fun is the first thing I would suggest. Don't feel guilty about it either, that makes your life even more complicated than it has to be. Take that time off from the harshness of the world, the constant opinions of others and just that cynical mindset of the world and take in a lighter, easier approach to what is happening. Laugh about your issues, make light fun of yourself and how you're reacting and see how small the problem gets in comparison to what they were a few minutes ago.

Life is suppose to be easy, fun and light. Yes, we do have issues to deal with, but that doesn't mean that life is all about embodying the very things we're trying to clear out. It's just the things we chose to resolve during our journey in life, and there is nothing wrong with a little turbulence along the way!

The greatest thing the world, the universe and just existence has to offer is our ability to laugh, play and have fun. Use this very unique gift to aid you on your path in life. Not to feel guilty that you're being passive or naive about things, but so you can ride a higher more finely tuned vibration in life. That kind of energy only allows more fun things, solutions and ideas to come to you because you're able to reach them in your state of bliss. 

Take care of yourself always, and allow the magic of fun and being in the moment guide your path!

April 8-14 Angel Reading | Incoming joy and sexuality?

Hey everyone! This week we have great and joyous events coming towards us so we can lift our energies from the dark and deep issues we've been faced with. It's time to leave our issues behind for a few days and start spending time with friends and things that take us out of our current mind set. Once we have time to get some fresh air mentally and physically, we can return to our issues and start going to the core of them once and for all!

April 1-7 Fairy Reading

This week is all about forgiving your past, your issues and yourself for choosing the things that you didn't really need in the long run. This is the time to let things go and move forward to better things that are more aligned to who you are as a person.

Rise of the Guardians

Last night I decided to finally watch Rise of the Guardians and holy crap I regret not seeing it in the movies! This movie has truly inspired me to go after my dreams 100%. To talk, embrace and remind myself and maybe many others to follow their own dreams. We all have a divine purpose and it often shows itself in our passions and dreams. But when we get older and reality is slammed in our faces, it may seem like we're living a lie.


Where no magic exists, money rules and social acceptance is our only calling. I've been living in the cold shadows of my fears, failures and rejections for way too long, on ideals of the hard and broken. Money, material items and social acceptance is not what I want out of life. Dreams, magic and the beauty of living in the now is what I truly want. I can get that even in the worst of times. It's weightless, tasteless, you can't see it but you can feel it. You can take it with you wherever you go and even give it to others. That magic, the kind that true believers like me believe in, is in following your passion, instinct and dreams. That is what I want, dreams and magic. Not frame and popularity at the end of the day. I know what I want is there and is already coming to me.

It's the sparely shimmer of the heart, that trial of magic and wonder. That calling of something greater than yourself, that belief that who you are and who you want to be is truly magical, mystical and vibrant. That is what I'm passionate about and that is what the movie reminded me of.

Even though Jack Frost didn't know who he was, his determination and passion to know his purpose shined through and gave him what he wanted. I loved the fact that the movie showcased getting in touch with your inner child, that one part of you that knows what you really want. That was really stirring to me, I was very moved by it.

When North showed how he had many different sides of him, but his core was wonder and delight and sharing that with all the children of the world, I was on the verge of tears. That is something I want to do, to show and be the magic that I know is in the world. Show others that what you want to do in this world is so valid. Even though I'm doing all this for myself, I want people to take away exactly what I'm showing and giving.

I want to have fun in life and other people should too. That is truly magical and Jack Frost highlighted that as well. 

His fun loving nature, not only helped saved the guardians, but also helped him find himself. Because of that, everything that he ever wanted came right to him on a silver platter, that is truly magical.

I guess to end this, I feel that I am a guardian myself because I know exactly what it is that moves me in life, or one of the many things that moves me. That is dreams and bringing more magic in this world. For people, especially older reality driven people to take a step back and truly question if what they are doing is right, or even apart of their divine makeup.

  Keep dreaming folks!

Home From Zenkaikon

 I was away at Zenkaikon, an anime convention, for 4 days (I came home on Monday) and these are my most current thoughts since.

Original Picture by Eirian-stock

Ever since I came home from Zenkaikon, a lot of different things became apparent to me. I just need to change. Change out of this old stuff that I've been holding on to for so long and stop thinking that my choices will fuck me over in the long run. I want to speak about the truth that I know for sure, something that I really hold dear to me, and that is following your dreams. Be passionate about what you want to do and do it no matter if someone is watching or not. Travel and see the world, find something different to explore and enjoy every moment. Life is not hard, but we make it that way when we choose things that we really don't need or want. When I started FYIC readings and card readings in general I wanted a quick source of income. Even though I didn't make a ton of money by any means, it gave me money to support myself and showed how my focus and dedication does work wonders. But it also showed how much I tried to work and cater to others more than myself at the end of the day. The blog content, the reading sales, the twitter and all of that was so more people can actually find me and hopefully buy from me. I do love what I do in essence, but being honest with myself, I just wanted to find a way to support myself without hating my job. FYIC readings did do that for me for a while till I started to really notice that I loved doing whatever I was doing rather than reading for people. Even though it would be fun, interesting and exciting, I would always look forward to doing something else.

This isn't a bad thing, but it really shows that my heart and passion isn't in giving people spiritual guidance. I don't want to give people guidance. I don't want to be apart of the spiritual community like I used to be, I don't want to teach people all the rules and ways of the universe. I want to teach people to follow their dreams. That is what matters to me and that is what I feel makes the world go round. I want to do things purely for myself and what I find passion in. And following your dreams is it. It just fills me with glee thinking about it. Nothing else to me matters but doing what I want at this point in life. I'm not trying to do things for other people and I surely don't want to speak about dreams for others. I want to speak about it because I am passionate about it. That's as simple as it gets.

 I want to talk because I want too. Not for money, popularity, frame, or some type of outside gain. I want to do this because I want too and I so love to do it. That is what matters to me. Everything else as far as spiritual guidance from whatever source doesn't matter to me anymore in the way it used to. I don't need it, and I surely don't want to talk about it like I thought I wanted to. I'll give that torch to so many others that love what they do in that arena.

Me, myself want to talk about dreams and how wonderful it is to have and follow them. The many gifts it shows us and the many wonderful things that stems from dreams when we do follow them. That is everything to me and I love how my own spiritual nature adheres to that ideal that I love so much. I've truly been putting my spiritual gifts in the wrong area, for the wrong reasons and for the wrong people.

I want to put up my hat and jacket in this area of my life and start anew, with something I really want. To focus on me only and no one else because people don't give me passion like dreams do and talking about them. I'm going to be the most selfish I think I've ever been and say that I refuse to cater to anyone outside myself in my endeavors from now on, especially people on the internet. It will be quite the change of pace but I can do it. Whatever extra that comes from doing what I want, will be just that, extra.

March 18-24 Ascended Masters Reading

It's time to get real and honest with ourselves. We've been uncomfortable in our own skin trying to draw wisdom from other people and concepts to define us. Unfortunately, that doesn't work when we're entering a world of true authenticity so it's time to GET REAL with yourself. Accept yourself as who you are and your real wisdom will shine from the inside!

Stand in Your Power!

Are you REALLY in your power?

Or simply dancing around the idea while life passes you by? It's time to stand up and go for what it is that you want, we all worked pretty hard on clearing the bullshit out of our lives and now it's time to really put our money where our mouth is. DON'T BE AFRAID OF YOUR POWER, POWER IS A POSITIVE THING! This week's reading is all about facing your issues with power and deciding to not give a damn about what anyone has to say about your life and how you do things. Stand up and take your power back once and for all! It's pretty much your birth right, don't screw it up!

Where I am and how I approach business

So here I am, typing for this blog in what seems like forever.

As you can tell if you follow this blog closely is that I stopped blogging regularly. There are many reasons for that. It just comes to a point where you have to shift and change with your moods, body, intuition and new interests. Not to say that I stopped blogging because it got boring, I will never get tired of blogging, but I was dying to get from under this self imposed way of business.

I am going to admit, as much as I love business, the creative side of it all, that is the only thing I love about business. I hate the numbers, the endless marketing methods to get followers (though I feel I can be good at marketing when I listen to my intuition), the adhering to a target market, trying to make people be interested in your stuff, trying to attract fans, likes and pretty much anything that is not about creating freely and sharing it with like minded people.

I honestly feel like in the years I've wanted my own business, I've been brain washed in what a business is suppose to be. I tried countless ways to be that big brand and great expert in the field that I hear I need to be in countless articles and books. But god damn, when does it end? When do I stop trying and just start being. Does it take so much just to be successful, or I'm missing something important? I get that it takes effort to do something great but I am not interested in selling my soul for this hobby either. I like things easy, effortless and fun. I'll admit a lot of my path in FYIC has been more like squeezing blood out of a daisy than effortless fun.

So in attempt to come out of the same routine I stopped doing the blogs every week to try something different and more flexible. Then I got into the videos (which I will stay I have some success in surprisingly) and the blogs pretty much stopped. Five months later more and more things became apparent in my way of "business". Everything is more in a "trying to be successful" than just "letting myself be successful" due to the countless rules I always thought I needed to listen too. Even when I knew this was just a hobby, I still struggled with these internal rules I thought I needed to follow to be successful which HAVEN'T really worked since the very beginning.

So why do I still follow them? Why do I still care? Why can't I let myself be myself in this endeavor and let everything else work itself out?

I care about succeeding and being the best I know I can be, but I am simply not aligned to what I really want to do with FYIC and I always knew that. This morning I found out exactly what was wrong with me in this path and why I always seem to be under the radar as far as success goes.

"I felt afraid of having fun in my own business/life work, follow your inner child readings, and anything that I would own because people would not take me seriously. I feel that people would see the way I do things and say "that is not a real business" and not validate me as a real business, thus people will never buy from me, or I will stay small. I felt that fear of going out of the box, being really out there and showing people who's boss, who I am and how I do things. I feel that people won't respond well and my businesses will flop. I always felt that I had to do certain things to be considered a real business or to be taken seriously. However, I feel that those are the very reasons why I am not achieving the great success in business that I am seeking."

Simply and beautifully put by my early morning self. I'm simply cutting myself off from the greatness that IS ME by following the methods I thought would work for me.

Going by the books doesn't work....

Doing what others say doesn't work...

Giving a damn about what others think doesn't work...

Not being myself fully doesn't work...

None of that crap works and yet I've been trying to switch it up since the beginning, only to face the same limitations and beliefs that is still keeping me in place. I'm not ungrateful towards my path, just annoyed that I kept this mindset for this long. But I know what I want and what I'm passionate about.

Talking about my path in life...

Inspiring people...

Encouraging people to follow their dreams...

Being myself, being hard and soft, hot and cold, sweet and savory, compassionate yet cynical...

Being creative...

Loving what I do...

Not taking life seriously, including spirituality...

And so much more...

I know that works because it's an effortless process that I don't have to think hard about. Or be concerned if I'm "doing it right" because of the countless ways I thought I needed to be. That and I have a positive feeling in myself that dictates exactly how things will go. Where anything else only attracts the lack of what I'm really looking for. A good time, excitement and people to share my experiences with.

So that's just one of the things that I've been dealing with in the last 5 months. Now I'm right in the middle of a HUGE transitional period in my life. Changing everything over into a new way including the way I approach this hobby. I hope you guys enjoy and get a lot out of these experiences that I will share with you all!

I missed you guys, this blog and I'm glad to be back on track with what I REALLY want.

To prove I'm willing to move out of my own limitations lets add a random yacht at the end of this blog post 

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March 4-10 Archangel Michael Reading

This week is all about the transitional stages of going towards what we want. It's time to make big changes and choose what it is that we want now if we haven't already. Don't be afraid to leave the old and go into to the unknown, the angels has our backs in everything we do!

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February 25 - March 4 Reading

It's that wonderful time again of more self reflection, clearing out the old and realizing your talents. Things are not working out and are slowing down for a reason, use this time very wisely for introspection!

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