The Crystal Code: My Divinity

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 This is the crystal code I done about my clarification ability that I mentioned in my last post: The Truth About Speaking My Own Truth 

There might be things that don't make sense because I never mentioned a lot of the spiritual journey that I went through in the last year. I'm actually going to start posting those stories so you all can see how everything came together for me along the way! Till then, enjoy and I do hope that maybe you can get a glimpse of your own purpose and power through my reading and experience!

The crystal code: My divinity (5/19/2012)

Q: Tell me about this power. What does it do and how can I learn to understand it?

The crystal code:

spiritual green/brown, bright cerulean blue crystal

What do those colors mean?

This is my own power that I gain a long time ago before I was born. However, I was just gaining access to it because I was spiritual enough to tap into it. That and my own abilities to seek out information has grown considerably.

I sense that this power was in me all this time and I'm just scratching the surface on what I can do with it. All of my power came from far away and is not of this world, though it may feel like it. In time, more of my abilities will start to come into fruition and I can claim my powers once again. But for now, I have to let my powers come to me instead of fighting to get them. Fighting my growth will never bring me my powers but hinder it in the long run.

Again, this power is not just of me but the many personas that I created over my spiritual life time, and most recently my angelic roots. I feel that I'm a gate keeper of some sort and my job was to protect many things from human eyes (thus the cathedral thing).

It says since I know of this power (the power I am keeping from people) I was able to come down here and finally share it then keep it hidden. But the more I let myself sink into my own despair about what I could and couldn't do, the more veiled my own knowledge became, and thus was kept from myself.

That is why now I'm gaining the abilities that I have been gaining for years. I can tap into my roots and my guides to receive the power that I stationed there. It was all because of my purpose, I didn't want to just come down here with everything, I wanted to learn as well, and I can't learn if I had all the answers right from the start. So I decided to keep my powers hidden for me to discover them when it was time. Not for my hard work, but for experience, time, and ultimately for the world I was sent to protect and enlighten.

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I took a food break and wrote my personal thoughts about the crystal code afterwards.

As I was fixing my food, I was thinking about what I wrote. Initially, I didn't know what to think, I didn't disbelieve it but something inside had my wheels turning, like consciously I wasn't sure but subconsciously I knew and I was trying to process it. It does makes sense.

I felt that my cathedral (or cathedrals in general) have a completely different purpose in heaven (I feel heaven goes by a different name it begin with a T or a C). Where on earth they are used to praise "god" in heaven (I need to know the real name it's driving me bonkers now) they are like treasure chests, and in treasure chests there is always something valuable inside. Whatever was inside is very important to everyone (whomever that may be) and my duty there was to keep it safe. But now it's time to share it to everyone (whatever that means).

Then the archetype of being a way shower or a "gate" that was used for me before. That cathedral, I'm exactly that, a gate, a way to go to the other side (of what I don't know). What was told to me, that I would be a gate for the future generations completely ties in now, and the reason I was born a crystal child trailblazer. I'm here not for the "children" but the world, the world that is coming (2012?) and somehow I have this deep ominous twist, desire, and tie to it that I can't explain.

Which ties into my prophecy I was shown and the visions I was shown. I am going to be the princess of the new world after the next great shift, my feelings of pushing the world into a new way, the gate concept where people have to go through me to enter this world as kryon/ ascended masters said to me. It all ties in and makes so much sense.

Not to mention the learning aspects of my life, the biggest challenges and strives I had to make, I had to learn, it was never given to me at all. And I know it's because I made it that way so I could learn for myself and remember it always.

This is all so crazy because at the end of the day it all makes sense. I'm getting information that I would only be able to reach when I was truly "enlightened" where all the answers would be in the back of my pocket. Now, that knowing is right here for my taking and I can access anything I wish, just like before, before I came down here. Wherever I was, I had this ability, this tuning into anything in the universe, like a cosmic map of the entire universe, there was nothing I couldn't know because I had the core power to do so.

Also, whatever this power or knowledge is that I was protecting, it's so important to so many or even to "god". I can't explain why it's important but I feel that only I could use/protect it in a way. And why the angels/entities look at me in the way they do. They probably remember be for who I was then what I am now.

And again this is probably why I gotten the name "The Crystal Code" when I woke up. Because in a sly way, it is a code. Something for me to detect and read where other's can't pick up or explain.

Again, this ties into my number 1 life path number and my numerology chart altogether. I'm am here to lead something, to be a gate or a way shower to something, but it's not by pushing the world by my own hands but being a door/gate where people can see me and chose to enter or not.

This would explain my love for keys and locks, crowns and so on.

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Continuing the code

The reason why I chose to come down here because as a gate, I was the only one that can carry out the code, the way, and the gate to the new thought. It's my job to know where I came from and why I'm here, and the reason why the angels look after me so closely. Even though I want to hide from it, my specialness is ingrained, it's not a generic thing or something that I lose after I'm gone.

My aura, my radiance is still in tact with my old spiritual body, and why people can sense that "different" feeling from me because I am. No matter how much I try to hide it, I can't be normal by any standard, even though I hide it with tricks of the mind I can only know that I am who I really am. And that my life purpose is dependent on how much of me I really am striving to be.

The more I run from my destiny the more depressed I'll be about it. Hiding away is not the answer but facing it dead on where everyone can see, that is my purpose to be a way shower so people know what kindness and a new world can look like if they done the same.

The knowledge from above has to be grounded here for the world to come no matter who says what. I know this consciously but I refuse to let it in because of my mortality. My fear of death comes form not fulfilling my duty, not because of my lack of knowledge of the other side. Even so, I have to put aside my fears and replace them with light, so that in the face of fear, I know exactly what I'm going to do and how I will do it. Being afraid isn't my journey but a lesson, a lesson to be brave, bold and straight forward. The more bullheaded I become the less greatness I can exude.

When I was in heaven, I chosen gifts that will aid in my heavenly journey. Those gifts would then be with me for life. I however let my powers die down so I can learn how to be human first. It's not my job to be the best right now. My best comes from being who I am, not coping someone's style.

I get that when I am who I am, I shine. But the language of other's disapproval is what keeps me down again and again. Being who I am requires strength that no matter who says what I will prevail. My journey does not involve being approved by anyone. The most approval I need is from myself and the universe which I already have.

The angels already know my path and what will come of it but I still have yet to see the great change that will come from this world. Even if it is deadly I have to accept the times and consequences that I made to come here. No matter what, what I do for this world is dependent on me and me only.

When I put aside my petty need to be liked and adored I will see that my ways have been set in stone for eons. To show people a way to be, but not to be pushed there, to gain knowledge though strength, not struggle, and to know who I am from being me, not copying someone that I like and adore.

My purpose and path is forever endowed in me and when I release the pains and struggles of the world and myself I can shine my light and knowledge to all that wants it. And anything less then that is not only wasting my time, but prolonging the change of the world that is yet to come.

 Fear not because it will be okay, I planned this along with many others and so we now have each other's backs to control the future, to ensure safety, and to finally bring something that has yet to touch this world in a very long time.

One thing however. I need to stop caring about how my stories sound. I need to take responsibly of how I think and feel and stop placing the blame on the people that may not like it. That is not the reason I'm here. This reason alone keeps me from reaching my full potential. When I let go and let god, only then can I unlock everything about anything. I want it but I first must let go of the need to be the best because in truth I already am the best of being myself and being who I am right now, at this moment.

The goddesses wanted to talk to me about what the crystal code said.

Focused intention (Diana)

She's saying that my concerns about being adored is a silly one. I have to approve of myself fully before I can expect anyone else too. She says to keep the faith and don't let anyone get in the way of being who I really am. I have her support in everything I do!

That and I have to watch how I feel about myself in relation to others because it might be I don't accept who I came down as, then what other people tend to believe.

Prosperity (abundantia)

She says that being who I am will grant me all of my wishes because I am a way shower and a powerful being of light. I grant my own wishes without knowing them and I can do the same for others if they ask. All I have to do is believe in my own power of manifesting and letting the universe take care of the rest!

Bodies of water (sulis)

In time I will grow into a more powerful being but I must learn to put aside the petty doubts that I create about myself. Even if people don't believe you they are not the people you where here to protect. The people that will want to be your follower will come naturally. Like a river, people can chose to step into it and be swayed by it while others walk through it. The river doesn't chose people whom it wants to take, it's up to the person. So take it easy and remember who you are because the way you are now is the person you were meant to be.

Lastly, take care of yourself spiritually. Getting down to the root to your problems proves great awards so don't forget to address your spiritual and emotional needs.

Mother earth (Mawu)

She says that the great mother is calling me back to her. To ground myself in her so I can be fearless in what I am doing. It's not only my job to enlighten and protect the people but the earth as well. When I connect to the earth, wonderful things can happen!

The Truth About Speaking My Own Truth

Have you ever had trouble speaking your truth? Did you ever had to chew down your words, hide your opinion or not share what's really on your mind? And this isn't just about "how you feel about something" but how you feel about yourself, your own truth and wisdom about something that you may be going though. Maybe you feel that the people around you won't get it, people will think you're crazy or even get a negative response from others about your own feelings.

Maybe it's not about what other people think that scares us, but what we think about ourselves about speaking our truth.

We often  place the blame for others that "we can't speak our truth" when it's ourselves that don't let us speak our own truth.

Since overhauling my life and discovering more and more about myself in all ways, my need and desire to speak my own truth have become a blessing and a challenge. Accepting who I am as a soul and spirit has been the hardest challenge I had to face on my own, simply because I don't let myself fully believe.

When I say that, I go "Of course I believe!" but do I really? All the wonderful things that the angels said about me and the beautiful picture of grace that I felt for myself, is that truly who I am, or something I simply want to put faith in? What will other's think about these stories, this magical journey (laced with frustration and struggle) and life that I keep from others? As much as I want to share them, my inner child wants them hidden, out of fear from both sides of the field. From both being ridiculed and falling in love with the magic she fears that might not be true.

I often wonder what people will think, but it's not about what people think but what I think. I want to go bat shit crazy with my ideas, concepts and creativity only to be halted by my own fears.

Fear has it positive uses, I know that, but I'm using fear as an excuse to not be who I am fully. To hide myself again from my own beauty, something that the angels never kept from me. If I was half as bold as them I would probably be on T.V because of the insane stuff I would share, but I don't, out of fear and I have to break that cycle.

My journey have taken me to places in myself that I couldn't imagine going. Day after day more and more of myself becomes unveiled to me, making me a stronger more confident person. I get a bigger glimpse of my purpose and why my life has been the way it has. And then of course, I ask the tougher questions. My past life, not on earth but in divinity. Where does that tie in? Who was I before I came down here? Why did I decide to leave, really? The books, information and articles I read makes sense, but I'm always left with more questions because I want to know my own personal reasons and how they are tied to the various things I was shown.

I probably know a lot more about my spiritual self then a lot of other folks that are looking for it, and I should be thankful I have such heavy ties with my heavenly and cosmic bothers and sisters. I can't help but to know who I am fully, the pieces I was shown are awesome in nature but always leads me to more questions.

Did I come from heaven, am I an incarnated angel, fairy or goddess? Did I directly come from source then placed in a body? How does that tie into being a crystal child? What was my duties before I came here? How exactly am I suppose to change the world? So many questions with so many pieces that leads to even more questions.

What am I suppose to do with this information? Share it? What happens if I do? What will people think? Will I scare off people? How will this effect me and my personal life?

Those are the core questions that comes up to me daily when I think about "expressing who I really am"...

All in all however, no matter who or what happens in my path... It's up to ME to fully believe in what I'm shown and do something with it. I can say that just knowing what I'm shown isn't enough. It just doesn't feel right "hiding" it as opposed to "not sharing it". I know the difference, and it's between truly not caring what other people think and being afraid of outside opinions.

Today (5/19/2012) I decided to do an aura reading (that I'm now calling "The Crystal Code" I'll explain in a later post) where I asked about my clarification and what it "really" is. Honestly, I don't think it's clarification but a different kind of power that I can use as clarification so I was curious about the true nature of my power.  

I was given an immense journey about my angelic roots, my duties and the reasons why I came here. Everything was so unbelievable that I didn't know what to think, but in the back of my mind it all made complete sense. It ties into everything I've been shown and only shined a brighter light on my purpose and the reasons for being here.

The reading itself came to be 4 pages so I'll post it on it's stand alone post, though it probably would make less sense to the outside because I never explained my other stories about "who I truly am". In any event, it just shows more that I'm here to share something and not hide it, to show my true colors not dull them and to be a way shower for others.

It's becoming clearer and clearer that the more I run away from myself the more backlash I'm going to feel because I do crave to expresses those wonderful things. That being my superself means being all of me and not just the parts people will like. I have to take risks because without them how can I truly be an inspiration to anyone? Playing it safe in this world does nothing but make life boring, but taking action on what you love and know makes things interesting, different and alive. I want to be that, not a complete hermit that's too afraid to come out and shine.

No matter who or what is said about me, I have to realize that it's not about them, it's about me and it's always has been. I just thought it was about other people because I wasn't only afraid what other people might think, but what I felt about it, or if it was even true.

No one wants to be made fun of or to look like a fool. But most history changing people went through that and they didn't for a second give up on what they believed in, even when things got physical. So why do I choose to stay in the dark when so many others lit the path for me?  

I know the reason and I'm going to do my best to stop that excuse, because when the rubber meets the road my purpose is solely depended on how much of myself I choose to share. Even if I tell myself it's not, it is, hands down. I let myself fail and be less then I chose to be for long enough.

My destiny isn't in the hands of others but in my own. And I have to remember that.

Till next time

♥♥♥ Inner Child, The Divine Whisperer ♥♥♥

Clarification: How I Discovered That I Could Smell Colors!

The day I discovered I could smell colors was a pretty special one. Not because anything over the top happened, but it shows how clearing myself and stepping into my own true power really made me a more powerful being of light.

A little back track first, about a month after I discovered how to channel angels and guides, I was greeted by a random angel that was in the bedroom that actually introduced me to aura reading. That night I was wondering if there was any angels in the room, when I let my hand get limp I've gotten a sign that yes, there was an angel by me.

Upon further inspection this angel was on "vacation" from her duties and found her way to me by from the light I was radiating. She mentioned that it was the brightest in the neighborhood. When I asked for a name she decided to choose "Sonia" the author of the book I was reading at the time. After a bit of talking I learned that she was a psychic angel and I don't remember if I asked or she mentioned it, but I learned that she could read auras and I asked about my own.

I'm quoting this since I was writing everything down of what she said:

 Pink is a special color. I can see auras well, that's what I was made for. Pink means... It's hard to explain... People aura colors change into one another. Some colors you don't see often like gray, black which is really bad but pink not sure of any other color.

- What does pink mean? (Pink is my all time favorite color)

Pink is a really rare color for one and very special and good. It like a hero, demigod, grand destiny.

After that I had her draw my own aura and even done the same for some of my friends and family. From what I could tell they were pretty accurate. Me and Sonia hang around each other for a few days. On one of the last days she coached me on how to see/perceive the aura. The only thing I would get is a random color in my mind's eye, and just a knowing. I only tested it on my own guides that turned out to be dead on (especially now) and just random people on the street. Even though my own guides were giving me positive feedback I wasn't sure if I was right or not. At the time I was keeping my abilities under wraps so I didn't have anyone to test this theory. After a while I stopped trying to see the aura for about 2 or so years.

Fast forward a few weeks back from today after practicing seeing the aura again on and off again for months I watched this color scope reading. Elizabeth has amazing videos so I highly recommend every single one of them!

The reading consisted of three senses: vision, sound and smell that you had to intuitively pick out. I felt drawn to smell and when it came time to talk about the smell sense, she had bottle of essences and oils that she was going to randomly pick out of a bowl. She said to intuitively guess which color she was going to pick out. My mind completely raced and said purple haha! After I calmed myself, got quiet and took a whiff of air and  "smelled" blue. No sooner I did that, she had picked out a rich blue colored bottle, I was floored!

It was so sudden and strange to smell a color but I was dead on and it felt "right". It's like the color just came to me in a way. I wanted to see if I truly had the gift so I decided to test my sense in a few rooms in the house which were all accurate upon looking up the colors I smelled!

The greatest thing that really showed me that I had the gift was doing a reading for my friend Jer and myself. His reading was very in depth, really taking how he felt about his situation and laying it out in front of him. He was "impressed" and so was I, which is saying a lot since it's hard to impressed myself these days lol. When I did a reading for myself I was truly blown away! It took exactly what was going on in the "inside" of me and laid it out for me to read. There was no "not getting it" or a resistance to it, it was all laid out for my viewing pleasure. I couldn't ignore the facts that my clarification grabbed about me.

Since then, I opened my aura readings on the Powerful Intentions forum to further practice and develop my clarification with some stellar reactions!

I couldn't be more happy to discover my ability because with all the plans I have going for myself, this can help so many people! When I was practicing on myself and my personal friend, I can feel the blocks we had and the reasons we had them. I could not only tune into a person's aura and the dominate situation they was in, but completely different levels of the energy body, situations, (sub) conscious, time, and just whatever and whomever I chose.

Even by complete random I smelled my twin flame's aura which was a very romantic lavender. I even gotten the book "Life Colors" and discovered that my two life colors is crystal (didn't see that coming LOL) and lavender (the color I secretly wanted!).

With that said, earlier in the post Sonia said that I had a lot of pink in my aura and what it meant. For a very long time I was super uncomfortable sharing what she said to me with anyone, even now. There is only one person I shared that information with, and now I'm sharing it with all the world.

Since that was 2 years ago I'm pretty sure that color changed for me because when I read my own aura, pink never showed up. However, I do feel that there are many levels of energy in the world and in a person so what she picked up was definitely something I'm carrying in me. I also just learned how to channel at that time so that could of been the energy I was in currently, though I feel it's miles deeper then what she explained.

Another thing to consider is that when I felt my higher self for the first time she was a pink angel (in clothing anyway) and had rose colored wings (I have yet to post about it). I'm not sure why she came to me in pink but I know that is a very important color in my life especially since pink is indeed my all time favorite color!

Even when I was doubting what Sonia said about me, I picked up an aura book about a year or so later that told me the same general meaning that Sonia gave me (Pink normally means romance, compassion, love and etc), even some aura sites online have the same general meaning that Sonia gave me. And honestly as far as I can tell she wasn't lying about it. There is a ton of things that I never mentioned before that completely ties into that pink aura concept. I'm hoping to be able to share those stories really soon!

Even though what she said made feel good and made sense, I was really reluctant about it after awhile. It made me more timid and afraid to share myself fully to the world because of the possible negative backlash I might get for it. I love being different, but being told I was "special" (in more ways in one over the last 2-3 years) can be really taxing to a human soul.

However, since I've been facing my demons about the issues about myself, I'm a lot more willing to let my hair down and show exactly who I am without the fear that someone may not like it! With that said, you might hear some pretty amazing yet whacked out stories, concepts and basically the whole nine from me from now on haha!

I hope this answers the questions you all had about me discovering my ability!  

Till next time! :) 

♥♥♥ Inner Child, The Divine Whisperer ♥♥♥

Back with 50% Off Sale in Facbook Store

Hey everyone! I'm back from my anime convention, all my angel reading orders will be worked on and sent to everyone that ordered from me!

Also, I'm having a HUGE sale on my readings in my facebook store, all my readings will be 50% off, yes completely HALF OFF to celebrate my birthday week! All you have to do is "like" my fan page to get the sale prices in my facebook shop! So if you been wanting a reading or a spread this is the time to do it, because I won't be doing a sale like this anytime soon! This will be for this week ONLY!

Again this is only in my facebook store and NOT on the blog! :)

Leaving out! Please Read!

Hey everyone just a quick post to say that I won't be here for the next 3-4 days! I'm going to staff at an anime convention! My birthday will be on Monday so I'll be going out then as well!

If you order a reading from me please know that I won't be able to do it till the 15th at least.

Thank you all for your support! Take care!