A Funeral to my Old Emotions and Feelings

I don't know where to start. In the last five years I've done many things. Many things that I thought would make me happy and successful, including pursuing a higher ideal. However, if you saw my post about leaving the spiritual community you see my feelings have changed. It's not only that area in my life that have changed, but everything. Literally everything that I thought would give me happiness have failed to do such. Which made me really angry at myself more than anything. I felt like I failed to do what I intended to do so many years ago.

Upon looking at myself in a new light, really taking in the consideration of my true talents and interests, I decided to coach myself. I wanted to coach myself to being whole and complete again. Where I tended to my feelings of feeling different, victimized and unworthy of myself and in life. I so much wanted to succeed and be successful but I found it all go up in smoke. I blamed myself for everything I thought I've done wrong, and felt liable of all the traits I thought that fostered failure and unworthiness.

When I closed my eyes and looked at myself, I saw a girl that was holding on to everything. Every piece of guilt, anger, unworthiness, sadness and anything she felt she had done wrong in the last 5 years. It was weighing her down so much; yet, she wanted to go down the new path she saw clearly that was calling to her. It was tragic and honorable at the same time.

When I saw that in me, all those things I was holding on too, I told myself "before you do anything, just stop. Stop thinking about the past and stop trying to move forward towards the future. The only thing you need to do right now is focus on yourself." It was mind boggling how accurate I was saying these things to myself. It's as if I was truly seeing myself as the client completely detached to my own situation.

When we were going back and forth, a lot of great things were said. The one idea I gave my client self however really hit me, it was giving my feelings a funeral. All those times I felt shitty, I would say my last goodbyes and bury them in the ground. I would close that specific chapter in my life and energetically start a new one. So that I would be able to go down this new road without being held back by my past.

It was so perfect and I wanted to do it then and there but I knew I needed to heal myself that night. I actually haven't done my normal healing routine in over 2 months so all my negative emotions from then on compounded really bad.

That next day, after I did my morning routine, I got on the computer and stated all of my negative feelings that I've felt. The anger, sense of failure, sadness, shame and all the negative thoughts and attachments that I had. Here is the most prevalent part of my funeral:

What I hated the most, was the fact I followed my bliss, calling and purpose only for it to blow up in my face. I wasn't happy, I wasn't abundant, life was still hard and I was sad and wanted things to stop. Everything I ever learned didn't seem to fit anywhere anymore.

All the experts were wrong and I hated the fact that I seemed so different from the people I followed and once looked up too. Nothing made sense. After all these years learning, trying and listening, I've gotten nowhere. I hated what I was doing and didn't see the people, progress or changes I so wanted to see. I was so angry that I just kept it all to myself and felt like a total failure.

All those feelings saying "that I couldn't do anything right" was true, that is how I felt. I tried so hard to be that perfect light worker, that great angel card reader and healer and still I wasn't happy. I felt like people would disown me if I showed my true colors. I felt stuck in life, I felt stuck in myself.

It felt good to get those feelings out on the table and state them as if they where detached from my being. It made me feel that this is the end, and I'm truly ready to open a new chapter in my life. This is apart of the closing of my funeral:

I'm choosing to let it all go. That isn't me anymore. This is a funeral to those feelings, places, sense of unworthiness and anyone that didn't believe in me. This is a closing of a chapter and a start of a new beginning. A new beginning where, I walk in love and not with a sense of guilt.

Where I know I'm smart enough, talented enough, and have plenty of people that care and want to see me succeed. That the world helps me everyday and that the next step is always present. More importantly, I can have a bad day and that doesn't mean I failed; I'm simply learning and being human with limitations. And that's okay.

I'm perfect as I am, even when I can't do everything I want in a day. Where I can't get everything I want at this hot red minute; that I cuss and get angry. Those are the very best parts of me and shows how even more enlightened I am. Not because I'm showing people the light, but also the darkness that resides in us all. That there is nothing to be afraid of and we all can change into better people everyday.

Having that moment to acknowledge my true feelings and deciding with great intention to leave them where they stand was powerful. I feel that a lot has been lifted from my shoulders and I'm so much closer to where I need to be. Even though I've done the most important part, I still have a lot of self healing to do. Things to work out in myself and old programs I need to dissolve fully.

When I saw myself again after my funeral, I told myself that I can "slowly" proceed in the direction I want to go in. But, I have to be mindful that I still need to work on clearing out the old in its entirely. To disable some limited beliefs and completely disarm the past from rearing its ugly head.


I'm still in-between the old and new, and that's okay. This is the perfect place to do my healing work because I don't feel pressure to succeed or fight the old. I can take my time and let the universe guide me to where ever I need to go. At the same time, moving forward and blogging like I want to, expressing myself and focusing on the things I love make it that much more rewarding. I feel complete talking about my story and self discoveries. That I'm okay with the good times and bad, and most of all: I'm doing something I feel connected too. It's the best feeling in the world when everything around me is still very much uncertain.

What is it that you need to give a funeral too? An ex, a job, a friend, a relationship, your feelings of unworthiness, humiliation, failure or pressure? What is it that truly calls you but you resist with the feelings of holding on to something that isn't serving you. Tell me what you think you need to lose and how you want your new chapter to be about.

♥♥♥ Inner Child, The Divine Whisperer ♥♥♥

May 20-26 Archangel Micheal Reading

This week is all about following your intuition! Whatever your gut, nagging thoughts or emotions are telling you, it's time to listen. Don't hesitate to take action when you're called for it as well!

April 1-7 Fairy Reading

This week is all about forgiving your past, your issues and yourself for choosing the things that you didn't really need in the long run. This is the time to let things go and move forward to better things that are more aligned to who you are as a person.

Home From Zenkaikon

 I was away at Zenkaikon, an anime convention, for 4 days (I came home on Monday) and these are my most current thoughts since.

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Ever since I came home from Zenkaikon, a lot of different things became apparent to me. I just need to change. Change out of this old stuff that I've been holding on to for so long and stop thinking that my choices will fuck me over in the long run. I want to speak about the truth that I know for sure, something that I really hold dear to me, and that is following your dreams. Be passionate about what you want to do and do it no matter if someone is watching or not. Travel and see the world, find something different to explore and enjoy every moment. Life is not hard, but we make it that way when we choose things that we really don't need or want. When I started FYIC readings and card readings in general I wanted a quick source of income. Even though I didn't make a ton of money by any means, it gave me money to support myself and showed how my focus and dedication does work wonders. But it also showed how much I tried to work and cater to others more than myself at the end of the day. The blog content, the reading sales, the twitter and all of that was so more people can actually find me and hopefully buy from me. I do love what I do in essence, but being honest with myself, I just wanted to find a way to support myself without hating my job. FYIC readings did do that for me for a while till I started to really notice that I loved doing whatever I was doing rather than reading for people. Even though it would be fun, interesting and exciting, I would always look forward to doing something else.

This isn't a bad thing, but it really shows that my heart and passion isn't in giving people spiritual guidance. I don't want to give people guidance. I don't want to be apart of the spiritual community like I used to be, I don't want to teach people all the rules and ways of the universe. I want to teach people to follow their dreams. That is what matters to me and that is what I feel makes the world go round. I want to do things purely for myself and what I find passion in. And following your dreams is it. It just fills me with glee thinking about it. Nothing else to me matters but doing what I want at this point in life. I'm not trying to do things for other people and I surely don't want to speak about dreams for others. I want to speak about it because I am passionate about it. That's as simple as it gets.

 I want to talk because I want too. Not for money, popularity, frame, or some type of outside gain. I want to do this because I want too and I so love to do it. That is what matters to me. Everything else as far as spiritual guidance from whatever source doesn't matter to me anymore in the way it used to. I don't need it, and I surely don't want to talk about it like I thought I wanted to. I'll give that torch to so many others that love what they do in that arena.

Me, myself want to talk about dreams and how wonderful it is to have and follow them. The many gifts it shows us and the many wonderful things that stems from dreams when we do follow them. That is everything to me and I love how my own spiritual nature adheres to that ideal that I love so much. I've truly been putting my spiritual gifts in the wrong area, for the wrong reasons and for the wrong people.

I want to put up my hat and jacket in this area of my life and start anew, with something I really want. To focus on me only and no one else because people don't give me passion like dreams do and talking about them. I'm going to be the most selfish I think I've ever been and say that I refuse to cater to anyone outside myself in my endeavors from now on, especially people on the internet. It will be quite the change of pace but I can do it. Whatever extra that comes from doing what I want, will be just that, extra.

Where I am and how I approach business

So here I am, typing for this blog in what seems like forever.

As you can tell if you follow this blog closely is that I stopped blogging regularly. There are many reasons for that. It just comes to a point where you have to shift and change with your moods, body, intuition and new interests. Not to say that I stopped blogging because it got boring, I will never get tired of blogging, but I was dying to get from under this self imposed way of business.

I am going to admit, as much as I love business, the creative side of it all, that is the only thing I love about business. I hate the numbers, the endless marketing methods to get followers (though I feel I can be good at marketing when I listen to my intuition), the adhering to a target market, trying to make people be interested in your stuff, trying to attract fans, likes and pretty much anything that is not about creating freely and sharing it with like minded people.

I honestly feel like in the years I've wanted my own business, I've been brain washed in what a business is suppose to be. I tried countless ways to be that big brand and great expert in the field that I hear I need to be in countless articles and books. But god damn, when does it end? When do I stop trying and just start being. Does it take so much just to be successful, or I'm missing something important? I get that it takes effort to do something great but I am not interested in selling my soul for this hobby either. I like things easy, effortless and fun. I'll admit a lot of my path in FYIC has been more like squeezing blood out of a daisy than effortless fun.

So in attempt to come out of the same routine I stopped doing the blogs every week to try something different and more flexible. Then I got into the videos (which I will stay I have some success in surprisingly) and the blogs pretty much stopped. Five months later more and more things became apparent in my way of "business". Everything is more in a "trying to be successful" than just "letting myself be successful" due to the countless rules I always thought I needed to listen too. Even when I knew this was just a hobby, I still struggled with these internal rules I thought I needed to follow to be successful which HAVEN'T really worked since the very beginning.

So why do I still follow them? Why do I still care? Why can't I let myself be myself in this endeavor and let everything else work itself out?

I care about succeeding and being the best I know I can be, but I am simply not aligned to what I really want to do with FYIC and I always knew that. This morning I found out exactly what was wrong with me in this path and why I always seem to be under the radar as far as success goes.

"I felt afraid of having fun in my own business/life work, follow your inner child readings, and anything that I would own because people would not take me seriously. I feel that people would see the way I do things and say "that is not a real business" and not validate me as a real business, thus people will never buy from me, or I will stay small. I felt that fear of going out of the box, being really out there and showing people who's boss, who I am and how I do things. I feel that people won't respond well and my businesses will flop. I always felt that I had to do certain things to be considered a real business or to be taken seriously. However, I feel that those are the very reasons why I am not achieving the great success in business that I am seeking."

Simply and beautifully put by my early morning self. I'm simply cutting myself off from the greatness that IS ME by following the methods I thought would work for me.

Going by the books doesn't work....

Doing what others say doesn't work...

Giving a damn about what others think doesn't work...

Not being myself fully doesn't work...

None of that crap works and yet I've been trying to switch it up since the beginning, only to face the same limitations and beliefs that is still keeping me in place. I'm not ungrateful towards my path, just annoyed that I kept this mindset for this long. But I know what I want and what I'm passionate about.

Talking about my path in life...

Inspiring people...

Encouraging people to follow their dreams...

Being myself, being hard and soft, hot and cold, sweet and savory, compassionate yet cynical...

Being creative...

Loving what I do...

Not taking life seriously, including spirituality...

And so much more...

I know that works because it's an effortless process that I don't have to think hard about. Or be concerned if I'm "doing it right" because of the countless ways I thought I needed to be. That and I have a positive feeling in myself that dictates exactly how things will go. Where anything else only attracts the lack of what I'm really looking for. A good time, excitement and people to share my experiences with.

So that's just one of the things that I've been dealing with in the last 5 months. Now I'm right in the middle of a HUGE transitional period in my life. Changing everything over into a new way including the way I approach this hobby. I hope you guys enjoy and get a lot out of these experiences that I will share with you all!

I missed you guys, this blog and I'm glad to be back on track with what I REALLY want.

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The Changes I'm Making in 2013

In this new 2013 energy I feel such a change in attitude and the way I view life. I remember being so ingrained in my spiritual path and my psychic abilities. I felt like my life was my psychic abilities, and that my business was very dependent on them. However, since I started to break down the inner walls of my soul, my more creative side have been taking the reigns.

I feel like more than ever that my creative abilities is the center of my soul. I am still very spiritual and happy about my psychic gifts, but it's not my "world". I want a lot more in my life and life's work than telling people about themselves from a solely psychic standpoint.

I don't feel like I came here solely to be a "psychic" in one way or another. Right now I feel like I need to create and "show" people something. Something bigger and greater than just psychic abilities, or how great it is to be intuitive. I feel it goes way deeper than that.

I noticed this feeling today while I was on Facebook, browsing through my dashboard. One of the people I follow posted their interactive reading, it was meanings to the words you felt guided too. Then I saw another post after that explaining she won't be doing anymore free readings. I understood her choice especially since she has a successful business in what she does, but then this intuitive feeling came over me. I felt like my path in this "business" was shifting, from a psychic based one to a solely creative one.

I wanted to see more magic, sparkle and fantasy in my fan page and business (not too fond of the word business anymore, so I'll call it my life's work). I wanted something people can touch and feel, something that people can be happy about. The path I chosen and took as a psychic, I feel like I was working on a more dense level. Like I was trying to save the world from itself. I wanted to heal suffering because I was suffering too and didn't want people to go through that. Reality was what the average person thought, so I felt like I had to be and do certain things to make it. It's as if I was living in a shell, a shell that wasn't fully mine. I had to cater to a certain group and seek approve from a specific ideal. I was in a dark place, even though I loved my fantasy and creativity, it had no real place there because I lived in "reality".

But now, I feel like I don't want to cater to that old mindset and go somewhere higher, better and more aligned to my true self. I feel like being creative and feeding that creative soul will give me everything I ever wanted. Now I feel like fantasy, imagination, dreams and anything out of this dimension is my place in the world. It doesn't necessarily relay on psychic abilities to survive, or in a way that's trying to stop suffering or cater to a more desperate group.

I feel like this change in how I do things is the right way, and the way I was meant to go in but was too afraid to. Now I can be more myself because I'm indulging in my fantasy loving self, while helping people see what I see than simply saving people from themselves. The life's work I'm going into will help people that want to be helped and will take them in when it's time. I get to dance and sing to my own song and if someone wants to join they can. Instead of looking at the "reality" of things and trying to work on a denser more survival level.

I always wanted this. This feeling that I can make this choice. To be more creative and less "by the book". It took time for me to realize that I had to save myself before I can help others in the highest way possible. I feel like now I can reach the number of people I was meant to reach. And in the most fun and creative way possible that I truly enjoy!

This change was waiting for me and I needed to be patient till the right time. I already was changing the way I do things but now it's a complete life's work overhaul. It's all about fun, positivity, magic and manifesting goodness and knowing there is more to life than just "this".

I'll still post spiritual things, that will never go away, as well as my down to earth self, but I'll do so in a new higher way that I'm more aligned too. I'll start doing new things that supports my creative soul and will help a totally new brand of people! That will also help the people already here get swept up in my creative and magical world!

So I'm loving this new energy of 2013! While I was already on the path of changing my life, this energy is continually taking it to the next level, to the place I want to go! 

Thank you all for reading and take care!

♥♥♥ Inner Child, The Divine Whisperer ♥♥♥

November 26- Dec 2 Reading

A Positive Change in November!

A positive change is coming! This is because we've been more honest to ourselves and others! However, we will still have intense emotions in this November energy! This is the time to believe in yourself and dream big to really be successful! 

A Dream About The Next Great shift And 2012?

 Yet another dream that is possibly related to 2012 and the next great energy shift.

I had this dream on Monday morning, right after the energy shift left my area and the more "angelic" energy started to settle in. It was one of those "dreams" where it exceeded an out of body experience and the dream itself was very different from 95% of the dreams would I normally have. Clearly this was a very important dream, and a dream about an important change in our world.

That night me and my friend Brandon went to bed late, around 4AM. That night I had a couple of dreams. The first dream was about a women that was sleeping over at her job because her guinea pig was stuck there. Her dog was there too. They was in bed and the girl (or me I don't know) was trying to get the blanket on her since it was cool in the room. I remember seeing the guinea pig too. It was quite cute!

This next dream started the main one off. I remember there being a hotel or a home inn, and my family or at least me was staying there. It was a random person's house but it was like we were renting or borrowing it while they came by and etc. I remember this one part that had something to do with a UFO or something outer worldly.

That's when the main dream begun. I was in the backseat of a car that was being driven down the road. There were wooded areas on top of the rocky cliffs on the side of the roads we where driving down.

I remember seeing a giant beam of white light with a UFO right in the middle of the beam. The UFO was the classic "disk" type with the bump in the middle and was silver or at least from what I can tell. The way the light was shining down on the UFO there was a rainbow that had formed. I could see it perfectly and all the colors. The light was bright and intense, but it was so far away that it didn't hurt my eyes. In fact, it was so far that the scene had a "hued" look from the clouds, where it was light pink/cream color. The sky didn't hold that realistic color, though it felt incredibly real. It was quite beautiful but I was looking at it as if my eyes where playing tricks on me. As I'm trying to see with the trees zipping by, I knew I was seeing something different and not normal at all. I didn't understand what was happening, but the scene was so awesome that I had to take a picture. I scrambled for my camera I had with me and took a quick picture.

We were still driving and I had no clue who else was in the car, or if they even noticed the scene I was seeing. That's when I started to see a smaller, fat pill like shaped UFO come out of the disk one. I started to really freak a bit. Again, I had no clue what was happening. The original UFO was still in place, it didn't move and the giant beam of light was still there. Then suddenly, it was like I was out in the middle of the road by myself and Brandon was in front of me. I remember seeing this A-bomb like missile drop right in front of me. I can see all the detail and the destruction it was causing just in that one spot alone. I remember seeing a satellite, as if it was the alien's technology they were destroying. It was like a vision but at the end it was real and I realized where I was. And for whatever reason, Brandon was there and it seemed like he walked into it. Or somehow got caught in the blast.

I was directly in the blasts path, and I could either be destroyed in it or try to run. I had this instinct to run. I knew the blast was going to catch up to me and I simply didn't want that ill fate. So I turned around and started running. As I was running I knew I was too slow, it was only a matter of time till the blast would reach me. I was yelling "angels, angels!" in hopes to get an explanation or something since I had no idea what was going on. I knew what was happening was realistic and I just didn't want to die or think that this was happening for no reason.

Then I remembered naturally about the dream I had about the tidal wave and how I flew out of it's path. Since the blast was the same as the tidal wave incident I knew that I could fly out of the path of destruction. So then I suddenly jumped and intended on flying! I started to fly upwards to avoid the blast, but I kept going ahead. I kept going till I was at this building. I remembered seeing a few other men and women around my age going inside before me. They were standing there floating about while I was still trying to get a handle on my flying. In the dream, I knew that we were there to protect the building, but not just the building but the world. The parts that we needed to protect from the missile blast.

Then just like that, I woke up.

This is the additional insight and feelings I've gotten that I also typed out that morning.

I was shaken to my core when I woke up because of what I seen, it's scary. But on a deeper level I knew that there was nothing to fear. Even now, I'm not paranoid or anything like that, I just feel my natural reactions to it which is fear. On a deeper intuitive level, I know this is all good, my higher self feels good about it. This is all for everyone's benefit, it is what we are asking for.

I feel like also that, I was the "key" of it all. Almost like an electric transformer, or the "gate" to the result. Which reminds me of that dream I had earlier that week. It confirmed that I AM a gate between this world's spirituality and the fully manifested one on the "other side". I had that dream a few nights ago. It wasn't really a dream but it was one of those nights where I woke up and fell back to sleep with insights and knowing. Somehow, I knew that I am a gate and somehow it was fully confirmed for me.

The most interesting part of that fact is I'm a channel and medium, but those things has nothing to do with the gate concept. The divine is talking about something different completely in its most rawest form. I have no idea what that is, how it is done or how it will manifest once the time finally comes. I just know that I have an important role to play in "all this" and in a way that I probably won't see coming.

But again, I felt like I was in the middle of the event itself, like the grand finale. Like all of "this" was happening so that I can do what I needed to do. To perhaps bring in the new world? It completely related to a dream I had before that clearly expresses change/2012(?) and my role in it. I never posted that dream (or what lead up to it) but I'll probably do that soon.

Also, I feel like those people (I honestly don't feel like they were people at all but other beings) and me, where there to protect "places" so that they wouldn't be destroyed in the blasts. Yet somehow, it seemed like they where ahead of me since they just knew what to do and I was the one stumbling around.

Another part of this dream is the UFOs. Normally, I never have dreams about UFO's so when I do, it's always important. The feeling I get is that the UFOs had nothing to do with negativity, it was helping us along. Even when the second spaceship emerged and was setting off it's course. I know inside that, this isn't evil, they are simply helping us.

The dream as a whole again, is NOT negative, even if the images are. My spirit guide Joe said that it could be a means for me to take this dream seriously. So it is not what happened that I need to worry about, but the core essences in the dream I need to take stride in. Not just that but what I intuitively feel inside. And I don't feel like this is an adverse event. It is what I and even the whole world has been waiting for. Maybe this is the beginning of that. Or maybe I reached a new point in my own spirituality that I am able to get more clues about my path and it's relation to the new world, 2012 or whatever. I did just get rewired in the recent energy shift, and this same type of dream happened last year too, so this is just the "next" step of it all.

In any event. I shouldn't fear because my inner guidance isn't telling me to fear but be happy for what is to come. This is what I and the whole world wanted!

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Take what you may from this dream, but I know that the bigger picture is slowly being revealed to me. I don't have all the answers of course, but things are getting clearer and more understandable. 

♥♥♥ Inner Child, The Divine Whisperer ♥♥♥

Global Shift Aftermath

 Hey everyone!

It's been 3 days since my original post about the global shifting of energies, so I figured it was time for an update!

As far as my area, the high tide of the shift has passed. That night when I posted about the shift originally, I finally was unhooked from the immense energy stream I was connected too. No sooner then that happened I felt normal again. Though I still had work to be done in my body, but the worst was over.

Depending where you are, you may still feel that intense energy but it all should settle down this week, though we are not out of the woods yet haha. In the heat of the intense energy you may be craving meat... bad, even if it's not in your diet currently. This is because your are instinctively trying to keep yourself grounded so you won't be up in the chaotic energy. You also might be overeating as a means to keep yourself grounded for the same reasons. I was doing both, I wanted to feel full so I was trying to eat what I could. Also, two nights ago I was craving meat in a way that I haven't felt in a long time. After the shift passed my area the craving was gone like it never happened.

If you are going through this random change of diet and do not want to eat meat, eat oats, grains and other earthy foods as such. Those are very grounding as well as healthy for you. It can make you feel full so you don't have to resort to overeating or breaking your no meat rule. However, if you don't have access to that, eat what you can. This won't last long and you are only acting on your instinct which is vital to follow right now!

You may also be craving salty and sugary junk foods and drinks. Again, this is a means to ground yourself and even be sluggish so you won't do anything to put more hurt on your body though action.

After the most intense part of the shift is done, you will feel normal again and a lot of the symptoms will fizzle out or decease in intensity.

Even though you will feel a lot better, don't go doing anything rash just yet. The energies are still active and chaotic but not as intense as it was. On top of that if you were on the receiving end of these energies, there will be work to be done with you still. Take it easy, dream about your desires, and rest. You'll probably have an instinct to go back up "higher" through eating fresh and natural foods, mediation and other means to connect to the universe. Do it because you are being moved to expand yourself and do further inner work. That and so the divine can also work on your energy levels and rewiring. You might feel pain here and there, be unproductive and the like but this will be normal. Take everything in stride and don't do anything you don't need to do.

That early Sunday morning I woke up and was incredibly scattered and emotional. It was like "I" was shifting between old and new and the process of it was manifesting in my emotional and mental state. My ankles was also hurting bad since I was out that whole day before, though my ankles was never sore as a result. I was still craving meat and wanted to eat and feel full. Luckily, eating something wholesome, drinking a sweet lemonade and inducing color healing in my ankles did me so much good! The pain in my ankles decease considerably and I was ready to go back to bed. That morning, especially after I slept in more than normal, I felt soo good!

More than likely you will feel a lot stronger and as if you can "take" a lot more then ever before! I felt a peace and a newest in the air though the energy was still active. It felt "angelic" haha! I also had some intense dreams last night. Which you may be experiencing too. Write them down if they are really stimulating because it is the divine trying to let you know something important.

Even now, I feel a lot better but I'm not yet "complete" enough to really test my new energy levels. I still need lots of rest and just go with the flow with everything. Even thought I had some plans I wanted to carry out, I feel that I should still wait till I get the green light.

I highly suggest that you all do the same too. We have a lot of work being done to our bodies as a means to help us carry out our goals. I feel like once this is "finally" over we will be able to manifest a lot quicker! And somehow be more able to manifest and connect with like minded people like never before (thus the social shifting in the last few months!)

So take it easy, relax, and enjoy what is being presented! In time, things will get easier and for most of us the hardest part is now over! We just have to keep listening to our inner guidance because it knows what it is doing! Logic will not work in this moment!

Thanks for reading and I hope this helps!

♥♥♥ Inner Child, The Divine Whisperer ♥♥♥

The Twin Flame Dream chronicles: Life Overhaul

 Since meeting Korea (the pet name I've given my twin), I've changed gears about my life and whole heartedly decided to completely overhaul it. I want to be thin and even more healthy so I've been doing my belly dancing exercises 5 times a week. I'm normally a bit lazy with it because I get bored easily, but this go round I have a new resolve and I know why I'm doing it! When I first started, I was so excited to do it, and even on week 3 I still have the drive to get up from being exhausted to do it, something I can't say I was willing to do before! I feel the difference in my body and can't wait to get stronger and leaner because of it.

To my surprise I want to fully embody my girly side. I've always had a tomboy look and style with maybe a few dashes of girlyness once in a blue moon. Black, baggy t-shirts, pants, and a pony tail or a bun is basically what you'll normally see me in. If was "dressing up" you'll probably see me in a punk/gothic/rave getup which to this day I still love. But for a while, I wanted to wear more colors, lace, and just girler things.

 Even though I don't look it, I have a huge love for all pink and cute things. I want to show that side more so that I can express myself in more ways then the "dark/scary/I don't get a shit" side of life! Sometimes, I want to be loud and stand out in a bright and colorful way since I love being different no matter what I'm doing. I've also grown an appreciation for mainstream fashion which I couldn't care or less before, I'm still not "into it" but I see pieces that I would love to own! I even want to try my hand (or feet) at wearing heels, something that I used to despise as a teenager. Overall, I want a new wardrobe and get rid of the very old clothes that still plagues my drawers. I'll always have my punk/goth/raver style but I want to expand my everyday style a lot further. I want to look dynamic inside and out!

On the girler note, I want to actually do something with my long hair. Being African American, I was blessed greatly with long hair that everyone would always comment on. I never really cared to do anything with it for the longest time till maybe a few years back. But now, I really want to learn how to do some hair styles, particularly the hair styles out of my Japanese magazines. Their hair styles are always so damn cute! That and I want to learn how to take care of it better then brushing and combing it everyday haha! I was even thinking of getting it dyed and having bangs but I might have to think about that more.

I'm so old school that I live by the phrase "If it's not broke, don't fix it" haha. If however I didn't have to worry about the cons of dyeing my hair, I would want a light pink, or a brown-red color. Something that's catching to the eye. I just don't want to have too much maintenance with my hair. I'm a pretty simply girl so I don't want to constantly go back to fix the roots and stuff like that. So yeah we'll see about all that.

There are a couple of other things that I want to do like whiten my teeth, find more ways to make my skin clear, try my hand at simple make-up and stuff like that, but overall the reason why I want to do all this for myself is so that I can finally look like the person that I feel I am! There is nothing wrong with me now, but a lot of what I'm currently still doing is pretty much in the past, old or doesn't resonate with me anymore.

At the same time, being and looking my best can only bring greater things to me including my twin flame. Whenever we do physically meet, I want him to see me as I see myself, the very best person in the world! Confident, sweet, radiant, beautiful, giving and just so much more. It's my duty to myself to love and cherish myself with unconditional love; putting my very best effort to make myself shine shows how much I care about my body, inside and out!

Now, I want to come out of my shell more and really show what I'm made of. I'm beautiful now with a beautiful personality, but now it's time to really put forth the effort to take care of the body that I came in with. Make it shine, radiant and healthy! Hell, I want to show it off too on the beach and anywhere I go because I'm so proud of it and my effort!

This is just the beginning of my life overhaul journey but I can say that it's starting off quite well!

Thank you all for reading and I hope it inspires you to become your best self!

The Power of Contentment And Wisdom

A lot of things have been happening lately in my life. A lot of things that truly revealed my "true self" in a lot of ways that I didn't think was possible. Then again, when I think I found my true purpose, or think I know everything about myself I get smacked with even greater insight.

This started a few weeks ago, shortly after the dream about my twin flame. I've gotten a new resolve about life and I started to change things around for myself. Like getting leaner, stronger, getting back to my creative activities and overall focusing on myself a lot more than just working on my angel card business.

I love my angel cards but when push comes to stove, I've been putting to much time promoting them and trying to make sales. I would love to see my business boom or grow a lot quicker but I'm seeing now that a lot more important things have to be made and learned before I can get the success that I want.

In the short time where I've gained what seems like a life time worth of wisdom, I see why all the things that happened to me was there in the first place. I have a greater calling that I couldn't have even imagined and the universe wants me to be prepared to do what I need to do.

A short few months back, I would get angry that all of my hard work never gets returned. I preach the all too common theme "When you follow your bliss money will follow" but when I look at myself I often feel that I'm running in circles. There is a lot I want out of my life, and a lot of what I'm currently in is simply what I do not want. If I believed I could move out and live the life of my dreams simply because I "believed" I could, then way was I shown so much pain and resistance? Why haven't the universe grant me what seems like a pretty simple wish already?

Simply put, my life path and purpose isn't about "insert ideal living situation"

That doesn't mean that I'll never get what I want but I'm being "prepared" for something. The true goals that I set out before I was born.

Last week, when I was reading the latest book I brought "The Three Waves of Volunteers and the New Earth" I was shown a lot more then I could ever imagine a book could. The book is full of transcripts of people under hypnosis during past life regressions. These past lives are different because these people explain lives from other planets and even consoles that watch over entire galaxies including Earth. The book explains why the world is going to hell and how special souls from all around the universe have volunteered to save it. I suggest if you really want a book that will hold no punches on the light worker theme, this is it.

What I love about the book is that the three waves of volunteers are explained, and you see how the person's problems stems from deep inside, beyond just Earth. When you read the transcripts from beginning to end, you'll come out knowing a little bit more about yourself. 

This book hit me especially hard when it came down about how the new Earth is suppose to come in. I won't explain it here because I think it's better for the person to read it straight from the horses mouth. It's what people would deem "negative" and I hate linking 2012/new earth/whatever the hell is suppose to happen to negativity. Plus, I don't think it helps when people feel hopeless about the future because of how grim it sounds. The whole thing made me very emotional but that is where my greatest growth came from. It's from knowing that everything that ever happened to me, both good and bad, was completely for my benefit and future. A chance to change things for the better!

I considered the last 12 months a sure miracle, and I don't use that word often. The last 12 months have been SO INTENSE in positive and negative ways, but I gained so much wisdom because of it. Knowing how fragile life really is, how big our universe is, how so many influences run across our lives really made me put things into perspective. There are a ton of things that I truly hate (or severely dislike) about my surroundings, but in the last month or so, I can honestly say that I'm a lot happier about it.

 I'm pretty damn content, and it's not the "gratitude = abundance" logic either, I'm honesty really content. I don't expect my life to start getting perfect because of my "mindset". But, I'm very aware about how things work which is a lot more useful and a sure fire way to change my own life when its time. 

Actually being content and truly seeing how I really do have everything I need really puts a tear in my eye. I still want the things that I want, but I'm not comparing my ideal life with the one I'm currently living. Which goes into my business statement from before, yes, I want to have a successful business but the lessons, wisdom and knowledge I'm currently gaining is what's MOST important. If I did have all the success that I wanted and not learned what I did in the last month (due to all the work) I wouldn't have known what I do now. Knowledge is truly power! 

It only makes me more grateful that I don't get as many sales because I'm doing so much for myself now, and that I understand its role in my life. I'm not stomping around wondering why my life isn't working. Those feelings of really wanting success did come back today, but I cleared myself so now I'm back on track! I look around in my life and see that my happiness doesn't come from a successful business, but doing what I love, and I can say that I do a lot of things that I love. So much that I don't do anything and I get pissed about it haha! 

I guess it's all a matter of perspective because I've been on the other side of the fence before, but the only difference was my knowledge (or lack of). I am able to see what I do now because of the struggle, the wanting and everything that was going wrong. My wanting of understanding my life, and trusting the universe to give me the answers right when I needed them proves so much more worthy then any other method you can imagine! 

With that said, I feel like my "learning period" or the school of sorts will soon be over (with of course more lessons to learn after wards!) Maybe my life will take that lovely turn like you read in the testimonials of your favorite spiritual teacher. One day the person has no clue what they are doing, after they met this spiritual teacher things just start coming together lol. I always wanted that to happen to me, but it wasn't in my path (or pockets lol) to be relived of all my problems. I had to learn it myself and use it to make my own life better, and in turn I can use that method to help many others! 

So I'll end it here, a lot has been happening lately but this was only the tip of the ice berg! I just wanted to share what I learned and hopefully someone out there can take a piece of it and make their lives a little better! 

Take care all!

New Spring Season Reading!

Hey everyone!

Here is the new Spring reading video that I just uploaded. The spring is going to bring an emotional renewal, fresh new perspective and a chance to do some HUGE reflection time. If you're going through something tough, hang on and now that everything is going to work out! Thanks for looking and enjoy everyone!

Love All of You!

It's so important to show and express love to yourself. I see this horrible theme that the "ego" is holding you back, leading you to disaster and destruction in your life. That it has to be transcended, erased and surmounted. 

This is the WORNG way to treat yourself. Know that every part of you, even the parts that you DON'T like is very much as apart of you as the good parts. The "ego" isn't something to get rid of, it's to be cherished and loved because it's TELLING you something. If you feel jealous, sad, or angry the best thing that can happen is your inner voice, child, or ego to sit up and say something about it. Of course your ego aka YOU will blame your own problems on outside circumstances (consciously or subconsciously) but the best part of that is the acknowledgment.

You can't change what you don't knowledge!

That is the very moment you go inside and start speaking to your inner most self, revealing the way you feel in its complete rawest form. Honestly is everything. Once you dig up more and more emotion, pain, and inner turmoil it will become clearer that you created your own unhappiness even if it stemmed from others treating you unfairly. It's about revealing your most true self that isn't always a sugar coated being. It can be hurt, scared and most of all malnurtured. The more we ignore are inner most issues the more we create them, leading us to use escapism methods through everything we do (spiritually especially) to keep us from the pain and embarrassment of our true feelings.

Give yourself compassion for all you have and have not done. It's okay to not be perfect, to not compare to your own or someone else's standards. To feel inadequate or not good enough, selfish, or letting yourself or other people down. It really is okay because no one is perfect, and you know what? It is the perfect time to shout to the world that you're not perfect and let those raw emotions go. From there you will find that you were pure from the start, you just left things unchecked.

We all suffer from not being a perfect being and that is okay.

 It's so important to have a quality of self than to have a "sunny disposition" about things, to have an unyielding steam of abundance, to be "happy" all the time, or to have everything you ever wanted. Your possessions can be taken away at any given moment, but your sense of self can not. If you see yourself through all that you have gained material wise, you are more then likely trying to accommodate for the lack in yourself. And that is the hardest thing for a person to admit, especially for a person that is highly determined and has high ideals. 

 As awesome as it is to be positive, happy and be on cloud nine everyday we all have to realize that we all hold different hues of our emotions and spirit. And when you shut one down in anyway, you are shutting yourself down and dimming your own inner light, wisdom and sensitivity that tells you what is wrong. You literally dig up more dirt on the issues that haunt you most, keeping them quiet so you don't have to deal with them.

So show love and compassion to yourself, to ALL of yourself. That will help melt the cold ice that we created to numb the pain and suffering of our lives. Our inner child, negative emotions, feelings, and voice may seem like they are vocalizing the badness of the human psyche, but they are really saying how you truly feel inside. Our hurt, pain, broken promises and suffering is simply a piece of ourselves that we refused to communicate with and withdrawn our warmth too.

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I've been doing a lot of inner work in the last few days and I can tell you this was my experience, I'll go into detail about it on a later date, but I felt an urgency to speak up and speak out for anyone that feels truly lost. If you feel like nothing works in your life, it might not be the things you are doing, but the issues that you haven't resolved in yourself that created a harsh world for you to overcome before you're worthy of true success.

♥♥♥ Inner Child, The Divine Whisperer ♥♥♥

All New Card Readings And Prices!

Hey everyone! I'm just making a quick post showing you all the new card readings and prices that I just switched over yesterday! If you always wanted a reading from me there are many options and price points to chose from now!

The brand new card readings that are now available includes the Divine Kingdom Readings. You get three cards of any deck that I have for only $12.95! These readings are insightful, positive, detailed and empowering! You can ask for any kind of guidance and the divine will see you through it faithfully in the cards. You can check my "Deck and Spreads info" page to see information on each deck and Divine Kingdom.

Also, the new Mini Readings are now available for only $1.50! These readings are about a small paragraph of what you need to hear most at this moment. They are quick, easy, positive and just as insightful as my full size readings (just fun size)! You can even get one to see how your day or even week is going to go!  :D

General card readings, find out what the angels want to tell you!

♥      1 Card Reading  $5

♥      2 Card Reading $10

♥      3 Card Reading $20

♥      4 Card Reading $30

♥      Mini Reading   $1.50

The All New Divine Kingdom Readings!

A three card reading straight from the different realms and entities from around the universe!

♥      Archangel Michael Reading 12.95

♥      The Archangel's Reading 12.95

♥      The Magical Unicorns Reading 12.95

♥      The Magical Fairies Reading 12.95

♥      Archangel Raphael Reading 12.95

♥     The Goddesses Reading 12.95

♥ The Ascended Master's Reading 12.95

♥  Life Purpose Reading 12.95

Unique card spreads for half the price!

Check here to read about each card spread.

♥ Your Guardian Angel Spread                         $25.00

♥ Turn Your Passion Into A Paycheck Spread   $25.00

♥ Cherubs Of Abundance Spread                     $25.00

♥ Fairy Tale Romance Spread                          $45.00

♥ Manifest Your Desires Spread                      $30.00

♥ Your Life Path Spread                            $20

Thank you all for looking and supporting me! Take care!

♥♥♥ Inner Child, The Divine Whisperer ♥♥♥

Podcast 7: Time To Clean Up The Old!

Hey everyone! 

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Here is the new podcast for this week which talks about clearing out baggage and old energies! The angels will guide us on how it happened and what we can do to fix it, so we can have a transformational spring!

 Hope you all are having a great end of winter!

♥♥♥ Inner Child, The Divine Whisperer ♥♥♥

Time To Clean Up Your Energies!

This week, it's been so painfully obvious that I have been working too hard! Just as I felt, this was a down energy week for me, where I needed to rest and relax. I also wanted to challenged myself to face all my demons on all levels so that I can get past the issues and obstacles in my life.

I made that intention earlier this week and just like that I saw Love or Above's status for her webinar RIGHT when she posted it. It definitely helped me start the process in a big way and I'm following suit. Every time I feel inadequate, not good enough or poor in spirit I'm going to go deep inside to release my anger and resentment to the universe. I'll let my "inner child" have her needed tantrum and tell her that she's very worthy for everything see wants, then guide her to the light of my higher self.

Since last night, I did the process twice and each time I felt much lighter, but I need to rest for the new energies to integrate in my physical and spiritual bodies.

The fairies told me yesterday morning in a reading, before I started the challenge, that the new energies will be washing away the old stale energy so not only I'm on track with what I need to do, but I'm taking advantage of this cosmic event to make this process easier!

So if you feel like all the old issues are crawling out of the wood works, please don't slam them down, ignore them, or slap happy stickers over them. There is an inner child that is simply telling you what's wrong and wants your help, compassion and guidance to your higher self's light. This is the best time to do it because the universe is literally sweeping up the old to make room for the new. The more you resist and ignore your issues, even when you try to be positive in its presence, they will still wreak havoc in your life. Causing unwanted struggles, problems and constant obstacles. It's not about being positive and upbeat in life, but resolving the core issues of our problems that will "truly" make the difference in our lives. 

♥♥♥ Inner Child, The Divine Whisperer ♥♥♥

Tangled And The Internal Struggles Of Following Your Dream

Tangled is a great movie, not because it touches us in a deep way, but it shows how the human heart can both push us to something greater, but also keep us stagnate at the same time.

Here is the starting plot of the movie that sets everything off. Taken from Wikipedia:

"A drop of sunlight falls to the ground and grows into a magical flower, with the power to heal the sick and injured. An old woman named Gothel finds it and uses it to keep herself young by singing an incantation. Centuries later, a kingdom has developed, ruled by a king and queen. The Queen becomes ill during pregnancy, and the couple's loving subjects search for the legendary flower. The queen is eventually fed the flower, is healed, and gives birth to a daughter, whom they name Rapunzel. Rapunzel's golden hair, it is found, has absorbed the magical abilities of the flower. Gothel discovers this and tries to steal a lock of Rapunzel's hair. However, she finds that, once cut, the hair turns its normal brown and loses its power. So she kidnaps Rapunzel and hides her in a tower, saving the powers of the magic flower for herself, and raising her as her own child. Every year, on Rapunzel's birthday, her parents and their subjects release thousands of sky lanterns, in the hope that the lost princess will return. Rapunzel has seen these over the years from her high tower. Nearing her 18th birthday, she asks Gothel to take her outside to see the source of the annual floating lights as her present, but Gothel refuses."

I couldn't help but to notice the friction between Rapunzel's and Gothel's goals, and that of the human heart. How many times did we dream about doing something, big or small, only to meet an inner being, or a Gothel, telling us other wise.

Gothel is my favorite character believe it or not lol

 In the movie, Gothel is quite manipulative, and she undermind's Rapunzel's wishes and fills her head that the outside world is a horrible place. She tells Rapunzel that she couldn't possibly defend herself from its evils, that she was immature, naive and "vague". This was Gothel's way to keep Rapunzel from going into the outside world, to keep her "safe" in the tower, only to wonder "what if?". 

I can tell you now, I feel like I've always had an inner Gothel, telling me that it's safe to be where I am, even if I'm hungry to advance and strive for my dreams. Those "negative voices" that people talk about all the time, it's the same concept. People from all walks of life, from all backgrounds will face those feelings, obstacles, and hurdles.

What made Rapuzel so great was that despite her own fears of not only upsetting her mother, but "facing the world", she decides to put it all on the line to go for her dream! How many people you know have been so bold to do that? To have this incredible dream, vision and concept that they want to make a reality and said "The hell with the world!" and do it? Even for those of us that have taken the unbeaten path, it can be hard to change along the way and get better, because in the back of our minds those voices are still calling us home, back to the tower where it's safe. 

It was the same for Rapunzel, even when she felt grass under her feet, ran in the fields, and felt the freedom of being alive for the first time, she was conflicted greatly, and always thought about the tower. She thought how horrible of a daughter she was and how her actions would upset her mother enormously, so much so that Rapunzel was in tears. It's never easy to seemingly give up on everything you know for a simple dream.

The awards for striving for your dream is always great, but it's never an "easy" road. You don't just make your dreams come true, you are deciding that no matter what, you'll see your dream through for everything it's worth. Even when people say (me included) "life can be easy if you do/think/behave differently" it's never really that simple. Life is an open road, not a linear tunnel. What you decide to put in will result of what you'll get out. You can be positive all you want, but you'll still need the strength and courage to overcome everything that will be thrown at you. If you're sitting in your tower, waiting for your dream to smack you in the face, you will need Rapunzel's magic hair to keep you alive for all the time you'll be waiting. 

 That doesn't mean you have to work yourself to the grave for your dream, but I will never suggest that you sit in a tower and wait for it to happen either. When you feel it, that passion, that goal, that connection between you and the world around you, you'll know that you're more then ready to not only make your dream come true, but to finally know what to do to get there (at least the first step). Even if you're scared, afraid or alone, it will be that inner passion that will override the fear and make you "do something" that you'll never thought you would. 

That is what Rapunzel did, and she was faced with many challenges and even sacrifices, but she became a person that she never thought she could be. She become smarter, wiser and so much more vibrant because she moved mountains for this one dream she had since she was a little girl. That is what life is about, striving for something that is bigger then yourself, even when the whole world is against you. It's never the easiest road, but it's always the more exciting and awarding one! 

 Are you excited yet? Go out there and start going after your dreams!

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