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Wednesday, October 24, 2012
When An Angel Hides Its Wings: How I learned To Trust Myself
However, in an awesome line of events, mostly the mermaids nudging me to revive old childhood passions did not only gave birth to my new dream, but spawned an entirely new me. Going down that road, I learned my even deeper struggles and unconscious processes. Why I always set myself up for failure and why I was so content on living a life of mediocrity. Why I've always deep down inside never considered myself good enough. Which fueled my drive to overhaul myself towards perfection by society's standards. Why it was so hard to put my all into something without thinking it would fail miserably.
To put it simply, I let the world tell me who I was from an early age. I was bullied a lot because of who I am and the sound of my voice, as ridiculous as it sounds. And all that torment, negative feelings and experiences I never really worked on poisoned my mind on such a deep level. For months I've been trying to throw out the negative and limiting beliefs but only up till a month or so ago was I able to hit this nasty core. My anger towards these monstrous class mates over the years and me being truly sick of not being good enough for something better made me rocket power towards full self love. I was PISSED that I let myself think that I wasn't good enough for better clothes, home, relationships and just life itself. I was so angry that I laid sleeping in this horrid nightmare, unable to realize what I was doing till I was knee deep in the shit. It was a powerful feeling, a feeling that I couldn't have been more thankful for.
In that hiatus, I knew that this was the very thing I've been waiting for. Before then, I felt this "last step" I had to go on in this old phase of my life. That person I was meant to be was there and I was just one step behind. If I was able to go it alone and to met her there, my world would change and it did. I was able to reshape everything I thought I knew about myself, and came to terms that I was beautiful, great, radiant and awesome since the day I was born. That no matter what weight I was, how I looked, sound or did, I was MORE than good enough, I was perfect the way I was. I let people determined who I was and because of that I hid my radiance from the world. I hid my own wings so that even I couldn't see them. So for many years I felt like I was just human, even in the face of an angel telling me how great I was. I was too afraid to come out of my "human" box. I was too afraid to stand out in fear that people will look down upon me. I didn't want to go too far in my opinions in fear that I will offend others. I let everyone else truly shape me into a lesser, far more inferior me and I'm deciding to throw that bastard out. I'll still have my issues, but I won't be controlled by them or how people perceive me. I'm going to bring my all everyday even if no one notices.
Another major factor in finding that true trust in myself was realizing that I didn't fully trust myself. I would only go 50%-90% most times. Even though I got better on "trusting" in general, trusting myself was one of the major problems I had. It was one of the major reasons why I failed in my more important goals in life. That was a total life changer. Once I knew about this, thanks to Archangel Michael, I was able to really change things around about myself.
Because I didn't trust myself, I had low expectations about things. Those low expectations manifested in not finishing projects and not seeing the results I wanted. Which ultimately lead to me feeling highly frustrated about life and how things just didn't work for me. Which lead me to subconsciously want help from guru's that spoke good enough game even though I was resistant. I wanted someone to give me a process that worked, so that I could stop struggling with myself. But that internal struggling came from me not trusting myself, so once I DID I had no need to have those people in my life. In fact I unsubscribed, unfollowed and deleted the very people that I idolized negatively. I felt kind of bad doing it but now (a few weeks since) I haven't thought about them at all!
In the height of that, learning about my new dream, having this new perspective on things and finally willing to put all the effort I needed to get there, I made my first vision board. I wanted to see, read and embody the very things I knew I could get out of life. That no matter what or who says what, I can live the life I was meant to live. That I wasn't bound to the struggles, negativity and ruined people in this city. I was born to fly freely and I was finally making that effort to do that! Seeing my own creativity and style made it so much more clearer that I was indeed born special, and that I hid from myself and my true power for way too long. Even if it takes a whole lifetime, I'm willing to dish it out on my own terms and not someone else's.
Since then, I made even more vision boards and my confidence went up quite a bit. I let myself do things now that I was afraid to do. I'm changing how I do business and how I approach things. I tell myself everyday that I trust myself and that things will work out. And mostly, I'm showing my wings to all that is in range to see them. So that I can be able to share and give my own radiance to people that find themselves in the same rut, without so much sacrificing my own butt in the process.
So this summer was a wonderful tool and I see how everything DID work out for the best. I could of never imagined the person I am now in the oceans of tears I cried throughout. I'm unbelievably happy of all the great and loving guides (especially the fairies) that kept me going and assured me of better times. I'm probably not rolling in money, have a big house or have that perfect lover or body now, but I have the most important thing. An undying drive, dedication and trust in myself. That I'm not only good enough for this world, but I am the very world I live in. And if I want a better life I have to have a better me, a me that is full of self love with a trust to match!
Sunday, October 14, 2012
Free Crystal Code Raffle! (CLOSED)
The winner of the raffle is Ella Sweet from the powerful intentions forum!
Win A Free FULL Crystal Code Reading!
Hey everyone! It's been a long time since I did a free raffle and I want to get into my raffle making mode with my most popular reading thus far, my The Crystal Code Reading!
About The Crystal Code Readings
"The crystal code is a dynamic reading that goes straight to the source of whatever is being asked, your aura!
Through my new found ability of clarification or intuitive smelling, I can smell the colors that is surrounding you and how it is affecting your life. I can even connect to your guides and the colors they emit through The Crystal Code.
Whatever is going on in your life will always show in your aura in ways that might not show up in other places, even the emotions or goals that you are unaware of at the moment. The aura is truly our mirrors and reflections of all that we go through on all levels.
These readings are much more in-depth because I'm not talking to angels but going right where the energy of the situation lies. In these readings people often tell me "that is what I was feeling exactly!".
In the times I've used the crystal code on myself, I was often shocked of how in-depth it was. It showed me things that I couldn't have known otherwise. It also gave me a feeling of relief from showing me unconscious behaviors that I can change and improve upon.
For now, I'm only offering mini readings of The Crystal Code. Once I know what a full scale reading will generally consist of, I will offer those as well"
Doing the mini crystal code readings were a huge hit whenever I did them, you can see this forum thread and my blog post to see some great examples of the reading.
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♥♥♥ Inner Child, The Divine Whisperer ♥♥♥
Friday, October 12, 2012
My first Desktop Vision Board
Making my dreams and goals come true through vision boards!
Can I say that I just got addicted to making vision boards for my desktop? It started two days ago, when I realized it's been a few weeks since I decided I needed to change my life for the better. I noticed I was slow to change my bad habits and how frustrated I was that I kept doing the same nonsense over and over. Honestly, I forgot what exactly told me to make a vision board haha. I actually had the idea earlier this year after meeting my twin flame in a dream but I never got around to it. The idea have been popping up now and again but I never went forward with it.
But this time I figured what the hell and looked it up a bit. I saw how effective it was and decided to do my own, finally. That's when I gathered all the cute and girly pictures that I've collected for years and splash them all over my Photoshop canvas as you can see here.
My main focus was my ideal life, dreams and goals, what I loved and what I wanted to see everyday in my life. It was a pretty great experiment and I learned a lot about myself. How creative I really am and my personal style. Sometimes it's hard to know your own personal style if you don't lay down the elements for yourself to see in a creative way. I actually felt extremely proud for doing this and how much this encouraged my need for positive changes.
What I love most about my very first vision board is the words, phrases and overall style of the vision board. I have to admit, I feel like I nailed down my own personal style and feel a lot more confident in myself because of it. I'm not constantly comparing myself and shifting through possible concepts of what I can call myself. This time, it's all laid out for me to see and I'm super proud of myself! Which in turn makes me feel a lot more confident in the changes I want to see in myself. I don't have to worry about everyone else's opinions and ideas. It's all up to me and I finally know how I should do it.
I guess you can say that my vision board is more than that, but a personal therapy. A way to feel more in myself and be more confident in that person that hasn't expressed itself fully in a way that I can totally see. With the huge personal changes that I have been through, seeing this and the results of my changes makes me more than positive that the life I want to live is very much possible. I don't have to struggle in and outside myself to find a true place in this world and in myself. Something that I haven't handled at it's root till a month or so ago.
With that said I totally encourage that everyone out there make their own vision boards, on the computer desktop or other wise. It's not only a great way to pin down your dreams and goals so they can manifest faster via law of attraction, but it's a constant reminder of who you are!
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Not Taking Spirituality So Seriously
Making spirituality my own.
It's been a long time since I made a personal blog post. Mostly because I went into a deep hiatus after being "out there" for too long and other life happenings. Things have gotten so intense in my life that I had to choose to drop a lot of the tasks I was trying to do and focus on my core passions. It's something that I want to get into in another post but for now I just want to express my new feelings about spiritually and just being alive.
Through my hiatus a lot of big changes happened, and most of them were in myself. The way I view the world and it's relation to myself and my current experience in the world. A change in dreams and finally knowing what I really want out of my life and in myself. Those changes and many others even before this time have been showing me how dependent I was on spirituality. And how I hold too many other people's words to heart and not on my own.
For the longest time I felt that being "positive" in all its aspects (loving, forgiving, gratefulness) meant trying to be this saint like figure, something that I wanted to be. But time and time again I would find life would takes it's toll and I would be anything but those things. Then I would feel bad because I was being "negative" and somehow I would be cut off from the universe's graces. I'm finding out that a lot of that thinking came from all the books and constant dedication to my spiritual beliefs. That positive things equaled to abundance and a great life and negative things equaled lack and etc. I believed this because everyone else were saying it, and me trying to follow the best possible route for my life, I wanted to adopt that thinking too.
The more days go by now, the more I see and feel myself separating from what I've been learning for years and into my own simple be(ing)lief system. Something that isn't what "everyone else" says, but one simply about me, being me in this world. I'm tired of hearing that positivity equals good and negativity equals bad in ALL aspects. I'm sick of hearing how if you are loving, forgiving and saint like you'll get the universe's graces. And if you are the opposite you are out of that loop.
My thing is, we should be allow to be human. And quite frankly, everyone isn't happy or loving or forgiving all the time, and that should be more than okay. I'm sick of hearing the guru's boast about their life being great because they were positive (in the broadest sense mind you) and if you don't have what you want, you are doing something wrong. I'm not against being positive, and I'm surly not against improving yourself and your life but I am against trying to be this god like figure because that's the spiritual community's "ideal" in a way.
Despite all the great and powerful experiences, words and concepts I've been shown about who I am, I'm starting to feel more comfortable being "human" (it changes but generally speaking). I'm feeling more comfortable having rough emotions, having to struggle sometimes, having to risk things, having to be open to others and being hurt, not wanting to forgive another, feeling disgusted with people and things, and just the way life is sometimes.
I feel that, I've kept myself from feeling strong hurtful emotions because I felt like I had to love everything to be this "shining beacon" of light. That top of the mountain that all spiritual people want to go on and spend tons of time and money on to get there. I want to be able to be my super self (embodiment of my higher self) but I think I've been trying to cut too much out and mold myself into something that the "collective" wants, and not so much my own.
I don't like children and babies, I never did, I never want to have any. The universe having been slapping me with "mother" and "children" like signs for over a year now. And in that time I felt like I had to like babies and children to be whatever the universe is trying to convey to me. But after some failed attempts to like them I just have to shout to the world at large that despite my beliefs and what I want to be, I DO NOT LIKE CHILDREN OR BABIES. And gosh it felt good when I got clear with myself about my feelings. It got even better when I told myself and the world that I don't have to be or do anything because I'm spiritual. I can be whoever I wish, and do whatever I wish and still be a great person. I don't have to be "all-loving", I don't have to forgive everyone on a drop of a dime and I don't have to be compassionate in the face of something I completely opposite. And I surely don't have to force myself to like anything to be in the universe's graces or to be considered an "authentic" spiritual person to others. It's all self opposed stuff that I've been reading about for as long as I've been in the metaphysical (which was for 10 plus years). I'm stepping out of the books, and other people's ideas to know that who I am "now" is more than good enough today, right now. I don't have to do anything or be anything to be good enough, I am that right now, with all my flaws.
Yes, I want to improve upon myself just like anyone else, but I won't be so serious about it. I'm more willing to go through life's bumps as well as the emotional kind and be okay. I can feel needy, selfish, spoiled, angry, unforgiving and know that it's okay to FEEL those feelings because I'm human. Despite my spiritual nature inside and outside my body, I can be anything I choose and accept those things, and still be good enough for the world, myself and anyone I care for. It's not about feeding those bad emotions, but accepting them inside myself, and admitting that "I'm not so loving right now", or "I really hate that I'm dealing with this." It really is okay, given that you're not being run by those emotions and are dealing with them constructively. And if you are still not feeling all loving, let that be okay. You're more than allowed to feel that way because we're human and no human being is perfect, or never had a negative emotion. We all had them at one point and we can get better. But don't strive for something mindlessly, or do it to be conveyed as a certain person, to other's or yourself. Because that will be the biggest challenge that you'll almost never have the guts to face. That part of you that is negative, hateful, unforgiving, hurt and only wants to express itself like every other part of you (as long as it is constructive of course).
♥♥♥ Inner Child, The Divine Whisperer ♥♥♥
Thursday, October 4, 2012
Crystal Children Adults
I'm making this post today because after a year or so of searching, I could never find enough information on crystal adults. However, I did find a lot more information on crystal "children", in fact there is an abundance of information out there about them if you look consistently. Even though finding information on crystals in general are very slim compared other "new children" (adults included) you can still find a lot more information on crystal children rather then adults. With that said a lot of information you will find will be a copy from someone's original site or book.
It's frustrating because as much as I love to hear about crystal children, a lot of it is rather fluffy. It's geared to parents about children. Being children, they have different issues than someone that is looking to go out in the world to live their own lives. To hopefully find a suitable partner, career, and well being that is unique to them. Even though it's great to read up on these resources to know more about your crystalline nature, you'll always be hungry for more. Information that you can use for your own stage of life, not just for young children and babies.
The point of this post is so that I can finally provide information about crystal adults and all its blessings and curses it causes us! You don't see a lot of information on crystal adults (especially from another crystal adult like myself) when there is a desperate need for it! In my search for crystal children adult resources I gathered a lot of sites that provides wonderful information! I'll be sharing them here as well as my own experiences and information that I gained!
So hopefully the following paragraphs of crystal adult information will help you through your own crystalline journey, especially if you just found out you are a crystal being!
How I found out that I was a crystal child adult
The whole story on it's own is weeks long, but the day I found out that I was a crystal child was last summer (2011). That whole day was full of very divine insights and coincidences, mostly seeing babies and infants no older then 3 years old. Which is the age of most crystals that are coming in right now, or so I heard. That day when I was in the park I was seeing nothing but babies! It was so insane! During which I felt like something or someone was trying to come through to me. I wanted to let it in but I was so overwhelmed with the energy of the people in the park, I was just too exhausted to let in anymore thoughts. That and I was honestly afraid, I felt like a bigger part of myself knew exactly what was going on, but I just didn't want to hear it. I felt safe not knowing. But in a sudden flash I heard inside my head "do it for them" right before the flight of a brown and white pigeon (that I always related to angels for some reason). At the time I thought that I needed to further teach about the Law Of Attraction, since I was in my high point in learning it. Looking back a year later, that was not the case. In fact, that one saying probably had a much bigger and deeper meaning then I could ever realize, but that is for another blog post.
After going to the park, me and my friend went to the bookstore across the street. It was the first time I ever went there, in fact I never knew it existed till that day! Of course, I found the new age section and was guided to read about indigo children. Somehow I felt like I needed to go further across the bookshelf when I saw Doreen Virtue's book about crystal children. Right then and there I knew that the divine wanted me to read that book. I just felt it in my bones, it was quite overwhelming!
Upon reading that book I was on the verge of tears. When I was reading it about these clearly special children it reminded me of my higher self. A few days before, I felt her 100% for the first time and it was the most wonderful experience I've had! That unconditional love, compassion, gentleness and the feeling that everything was going to be okay. It's something that is hard to replicate, so when I feel it, I know it is a special moment!
I also couldn't help but to see myself in these children, especially in childhood. I was very shy (still am haha), I didn't like being around my peers and often got picked on. It was hard for me to stand up for myself. I was clearly sensitive but I never thought of it that way. I just thought I was "too soft". But in reality, I was just a crystal in a seemly unforgiving world.
Before that moment I thought I was an indigo, because how I toughened up in my teen years, never really looking at my past. But that day, when I was sitting at that table, the divine was making it clear to me that I was a crystal child all along. This realization totally blew my mind, especially when I wasn't a fan of the crystal child concept to begin with. Ironically, that simply stemmed from my jealously of these children. Reading how special they were (in the few times I did) only made me feel inferior in comparison.
Another key part of that event was that I felt like I was a "guardian" or overseer to these children. I felt like I needed to protect these children in a way, from the world that they were being born into. I can't really explain it, but that was clearly shown to me. Since then, the divine always expressed to me that I was a "mother" to the children. In the way that all people around the world were in fact my children.
That day forever changed my life. It make things so much clearer for me, yet everything got so intense. It was both truly a blessing and a curse.
What is a crystal child?
In the simplest way, crystal children is the next step to our conscious, spiritual and even physical evolution. The term crystal child comes from their aura field, which is clear or hold opalescent colors.
Crystal children are here to help us bring a better, healthier and more peaceful Earth. With our rather gentle, healing and creative energy, we can help anchor more harmonious energy on to the earth after our older indigo bothers and sisters broke down the old and tired energies that was in place.
We're pretty much the next "runners up" of what this world will contain or will hopefully contain, along side our other cosmic partners like star, indigo and other "children" from around the universe. Each of us, as groups and as individuals have special missions and life paths that we chosen to help enlighten and make the world a better place. We literally chose to come here to help the planet. Make no mistake, if you're here now (despite your age) then more than likely you want to help out and contribute in someway for a better world!
Of course, none of this just comes to you on a sliver platter, we all have struggles and conflicts inside and outside ourselves that we have to resolve to archive self mastery! Thus making a way to be our true selves or what I like to call the "super self" so that we can put into action what we intended for this world before we incarnated! Something that most light workers have to go through before they can achieve true greatness! I talk more about why a light worker's life is seemly so tough in this article.
The amazing sensitively of a crystal
The staple of a crystal being is our overly sensitive natures. We are probably one of the most sensitive bunch in the light workers group, seriously. This sensitively can be emotional, physical, mental, spiritual or all of the above and then some. Even though light workers in general are very sensitive beings, crystals seems to take it to a whole new level.
For example, I'm currently going through a pretty tough eczema break out. I had eczema since high school after I tired Proactive to get rid of my acne. I had no idea how sensitive my skin was, so when I used proactive it dried my face out and suddenly the eczema appeared and haven't left since.
Another great example is my emotional sensitivity. When I was a child I was the "cry baby" of the group. I did cry a lot, especially if I was uncomfortable which was a lot in childhood. I didn't really develop my "suck it up" switch till I entered my teens so I was pretty much an open book other wise. I was always an emotional person, even if I didn't want to show it to myself. I learned to stuff it down and keep moving ahead in life. It was better to be tough, since kids were really cruel to me in grade school. Once I finally learned how to stand up for myself and get through the day without encountering problems with others, school life became a lot easier to deal with.
That emotional sensitivity only gotten stronger once I started to embrace my crystal spirit. I cry over everything now, sentimental moments, great wisdom, music or anything that reminds me of something worth crying over. When this first started it was hard to handle. Even though I was doing a lot more crying due to my tough situations in the last few years, whenever I could, I wouldn't shed a tear. But this time things just slapped me in the face, it was a lot harder to keep those tears down! So I just let myself cry and told myself that it was good for me to cry. In reality, I was just letting go of all the things I was desperately holding on to. Letting go of all the things I believed was right for me, the old beliefs, my old self and my "indigo shield" that I had on for many years.
No matter which way the sensitivity manifests itself as, just know that crystals are super sensitive, child or adult. For that same reason we have to learn to treat ourselves better emotionally, spiritually and physically. And we must also stand our ground so that others know how to treat us as well. Crystals are naturally very forgiving, including myself, but that forgiving nature can be so easily taken advantage of, thus it can lead us to absorb other's emotions which can bog us down. But if we do step up and give people the chance to know who we are and how we are expected to be treated, we don't have to worry so much of being taken advantage of.
So I just went over what a crystal being is, child or adult. I went through the most basic and iconic things about crystal people that a person should know first. Of course, I could go on since there is a lot to us, especially in relation to the world we are in right now but I want to dive into the blessings and curses of crystal adults, and our unique issues!
The crystal adult in today's world
Let's face it, if you are reading this or consider yourself or someone else a crystal, you know how tough it is right now for us. The world is changing so rapidly everyday and our natural sensitivity feels EVERYTHING. Energy naturally come to us because we have the passive ability to transmute it into a high frequency. Even though there isn't a lot of crystal adults right now, we are also here to not only show the way for other's but to also "clean up" the negative air waves wherever we go. So if you are tired, drained from a day out on the town, even a place where you frequent a lot you've been sucking up negative energy from people and places.
Of course we don't feel the delighted effects of the clearer energy waves we naturally create because now that old energy is interfering with our emotions, mind and body. If we don't know how to clear and shield ourselves from these negative energies passing through us, then yes, we will feel the negative effects from it. It's quite easy and I recommend doing it at least once or twice a day. Just visualize a bight white light washing over your aura, clearing out the old energy. Make your aura colors (however you perceive them) extra bright and radiant in result of this white light washing over you. Then once you feel that you've cleaned out your aura enough, make a crystal shield around your body. Like you being encased in a gem, or diamond being protected from negative energies.
That method works really well for me and it works even if you forget to do it before leaving the house. No matter what type of shield or protection method you use, it's never too late to use it. Doing it even if you are in the middle of a crowd works just as well. If you are feeling extra vulnerable or love the protection of the angels, asking Archangel Michael to protect you from foreign energies is an AMAZING tool to use! I ask him every time I leave the house and I sometimes feel him as I walk out onto the side walk.
Last Christmas, I asked him to protect me from other people's energies before going Christmas shopping a few days before the major holiday. And per normal the malls are pretty packed and I don't do well in crowds, I get drained, headaches and become scattered. However, this day I was just fine! I was alert, calm, focused and energized. I only realized that after a few hours passed in the mall, I was amazed how well Michael had protected me in such an energy draining situation! From then on I was convinced that he was the best protection of all! However, I still use the crystal shield method quite often with great results.
In these changing times, it's really hard for us to be focused on more than a few heart felt activities. Once where our energy goes into many things, passions and past times we can only reserve to only a few core activities. Mainly, because if you are coming of age (in any stage of your life) you're life path is starting to seriously take effect and show itself to you. Also our energy is very fragile so what we put in is what we put out, and if we are spreading ourselves too thin then the energy we get back will be just as fragmented. Not only that, but the energy we are giving to other's might not always reach back to us. These people might be in tough times themselves or are holding on to the victim mentality so we might be instead absorbing what they are putting out. And as natural healers and energy converters, we take that energy inside ourselves to be transmuted, but we might still be holding on to that old energy still.
With those things in mind, we just don't have enough energy to please everyone and ourselves. Our energy is just too fragile and particular to try to do too much, so we have to pull back towards the things that we feel very passionate about. So it's very important that we know what exactly what we want to do and do the things that bring us closer to those goals. And even with that said, we might have the trait of having too many passions so scaling down to a simple 2-3 can be very demanding. We may even have a lot of passions but have yet to realize our "dreams". Something that I feel is very important in any person's life, and vital to our life paths and missions. If you have yet to know what you're dream is or find it that your once dream is not so much a dream anymore, please be patient!
My latest dream was to have a big business in my craft sweets deco den. I've worked hard to better my skill and everything that I could possibly need to fulfill that dream of mines. But in the recent months I feel that dream is not for me anymore. It came as a shock because when I was thinking about it, I couldn't see myself putting my core life's energy into that goal. I felt that it was the wrong thing to do and I wanted to do something more humanitarian like, to make the world a better place. This really rocked me to my core because I have no idea what I really wanted to do since I was so dead set in my business dream. Yet, letting go of the old and letting myself be who I really was revealed my soul's plan rather then my personality's. Even now I have no idea what my "dream" is but I do have things I want to be. But they are not dreams just possibilities and goals.
If you are on the same boat, don't push yourself to find it. Let the universe, your guides and higher self guide you towards everything you need to realize it. And if you are rather pushed to find your divine purpose, I hold angel, crystal code, channeling sessions and readings to help people find their dreams and passions (which is one of my biggest passions). I would most recommend the crystal code readings because I can access that part of your soul that holds your divine purpose. Talking to anyone with a listening ear does help ease the pressure of it all, which I do for other's and also lean on for other's to do. Even if you just want to talk to another person in the same boat I'm always happy to help. You can just email me at innerchildreadings@hotmail.com.
The adult crystal's greatest issue: Knowing who we are and adhering to our truth
The world today is changing so we can be who we really are, that's why everyone is struggling with just about everything, especially things of the past. We are meant to clear those things out so that we can be our super selves without the old baggage tearing us down and keeping us from reaching are true potential. Crystals are no different but the kicker is that we have to also be able to withstand the negative energies that are being pushed out of people and places. People are fighting to be "right" when in truth everything we truly feel is "our" truth and there is no need to fight over anything.
People are constantly producing negative energy that crystals and other lightworkers have to soak up and transform. And if you don't know what you are, finding your own truth in the mass of everyone else's truth being thrown around will be one of your greatest challenges. We want to do our best, we want to strive for better things but when we don't know where we stand in this world, everything becomes a challenge. We want other's to tell us who we are and what we should do, but in the grand scheme of things only we can determine that. There is nothing wrong with getting the help of other people, but if we don't put the effort in to really know ourselves and step into our truth instead of everyone else's, we will never be as magical as our potential presents to us. No matter who you are, your potential is never realized just by sitting waiting for something to happen. It takes years of self mastery, a lot of patience and times of being thrown into the unknown to really get a taste of what you can do.
If you are afraid of your own power, afraid of what other people might think, afraid that you will be consumed by another force greater than you, then those are the very things (if not more) that you have to resolve. It's not always easy, I've shed tons of tears over my own crystal journey but it's not as scary as you think. If you allow yourself to be you, your true self, rather than the things everyone else wanted you to be or what you think you should be, things will start changing for the better. You'll see the moment you cut yourself short out of things. You'll see your mistakes as you're making them than after the fact. You'll see your potential a lot clearer, and you will start to feel something different inside, urging you to do things that you never thought you wanted or could do. It's a brilliant cycle but the person that is living it has to be willing to move forward with that flow. If you deny or resist it, you'll see constant challenges and roadblocks that doesn't have to be there.
I believe life can be easy, but that doesn't mean we can slack off when we are being called to the plate. It's up to every person on this planet to achieve what they want, big or small. Being a crystal, or any divine being doesn't guarantee anything. It only means that we chose the "tools" we wanted to hold to mold out our own destinies with.
But how do us adult crystals start to adhere to our own truth or even mold it. If you are an adult crystal, the world around you has effected you in some kind of way. That childlike attitude and beliefs you once had has been dimmed to barely holding on to that truth through small pastimes or even hobbies. Whether it's watching Disney movies, collecting fairy or angel statues, reading fantasy books or even creating your own works. Whatever it is that you truly felt inside has always been in your life, even if that said belief has been dimmed, crushed or pushed out of your being. There is no real escaping how we truly feel, and as crystals we are more connected to the divine so that connection is always in us, showing that faint light that desperately wants to shine! What we are and truly want to be is always showing itself to us, it's just up to us to run, grab it and not let anything stop that wonderful connection!
I let the church scare me from wanting to know the angels. Since I was a little girl the thought of wanting to "know" the angels or anything holy made me go into fear that god would punish me. I felt that from what I heard in church I wasn't allowed to know anything holy or divine. I felt like I was put in a box where lowly beings were suppose to be, completely unable to know the angelic kingdom. That put the stigma of me being afraid of, feeling odd and resisting getting to know the angels. And during my childhood in the 90's when the topic of angels blossomed and was everywhere, I felt odd and resisted a lot of the shows that had angels in them. Mostly being that I felt odd watching it, that somehow I wasn't suppose too, and another reason because they were shown as very sweet and endearing. I believed angels weren't always like that and somehow I always felt offended that they were always displayed as god's ass kissers and did things by his will and lacked their own. Even as a child I felt that angels being displayed as merely divine robots were extremely discouraging and very lack luster. It simply takes a lot of the "magic" out of the whole concept. And knowing that I'm a Mystic Angel (incarnated angel/wise one) I see why I feel those feelings, I somehow knew what we, the angels are more then what humankind has presented.
However, I could never let myself "not know" about the angels and in small ways I would always draw myself closer to them (and vice versa), even if I was fearful. In my early teens, when I got serious about my psychic development and new age beliefs, I wanted to face my fear about the angels and borrowed "The Big Book Of Angels" from my local library. The first day I got it I read a few pages from the massive book and took a short nap afterwards. I had a dream that I was in my high school's hallway. When I looked to my right I saw this massive light descend upon me, pulling me in. This scared the crap out of me so I resisted the pull as long as I could till I couldn't no more. That's when I felt that I was "pulled" out of my sleep. I didn't wake up, but someone or something pulled my consciousness into waking state. This was the first time this ever happened and it scared me to the bone. I never touched the book since and it took months or even over a year for me to return it to the library.
Over the few years since, I've had encounters with people and events that finally broke down that fear of the angels. Included when I discovered my channeling and mediumship ability. Within my life other celestial beings and concepts have been shown to me even when I let the world cover my crystal spirit with mud and rock to convince me otherwise. After I've seen what the world had done to me and saw who I really was face first, I knew that everything I felt drawn to was real, touchable and achievable.
I can imagine every crystal having the same kind of stories, even my most recent good friend that is a star person and a crystal had experiences through out her life that related to her core being. The key here is going back to those experiences and allowing those things to come up to the surface again! Just like the day I found out that I was a crystal it might be overwhelming yet magical, but it's needed for you to be who you are. You are you're truth and you have all the right to live by it 100% despite what other's might think! You'll see over time that people that love you for you will show up and protect you from the world's harshness. But you have to get there first, you have to be willing to let go and move forward into your own light instead of your own shadow. Just like a light passing through a real prism or crystal, when you allow your own light to shine in and through you, you'll see many colors and rays of light hit all those that are around you to see, even yourself! But it's up to you and only you to do that.
Being who you are
Being or just finding out you're a crystal can be intimating. Among the wonderful things we can truly do (I haven't gotten close to that yet!) it can feel like we are being pressured into doing something we don't know or what to do. That we have to adhere to this sort of crystal cage and not go out of those boundaries. Let me reassure you that being who you are, no matter who that person is, is the person you where meant to be. No one should "live in a label" based on anything, but I want to make it clear that, we do have different tools and resources that make our lives challenging in different ways then a person that is not a crystal (and vice versa). And I also want to make it clear that, whatever that crystal being is trying to call out to you, it's perfectly okay to let it in. It's okay to have those feelings and core beliefs that you have. It's okay that you feel different than what you allowed yourself to turn into. It's okay to change paths based on how you truly feel. It's truly all okay. No one can make you do anything, but I want to tell anyone in the sound of my voice that, being you, your true self is so needed now. YOU need you at this moment. Because things are changing and if you are not passionate about your life and what you want it to be, you'll always feel lost and alienated.
I'm going through a total life, no, a soul makeover! It's hard because I always felt that I needed to be tough, driven and strong to make it. This came from my childhood of being picked on a lot. I placed what I called an "indigo shield" around myself for years to toughen me up, emotionally especially. This literally pushed my crystal spirit in a dormant state. For years I thought I was an indigo because of this life long persona and shield I put around myself to protect my truly gentle spirit.
Since that crystal spirit had woken up again, my indigo shield has been peeling off more than you can imagine. Through those peelings more and more of my true feelings, intentions and goals have been resurfacing. Things I didn't thought I wanted to do or didn't allow myself too is now integrating into my personality. My craft dream has been replaced with a feeling of a humanitarian effort of some sort, my path I use to see clearly is now nonexistent, the goals I wanted to achieve, I feel is no longer valid. The person, soul and being I felt and wanted to be is slowly taking over my path and I've been very resistant. But in that resistance I have nothing to fall back on. I don't have things I can dive into because I feel they are not right for me anymore. The world has been pushing me to go to that last step of this phase so that I can be in my power and in my true self, than the one I was molded into.
I feel that clash of the Titians in myself, as if I was two different people. The tougher more rougher part of me that is willing to do anything to "make it". That cynical nature I hold towards the world because of the "reality" of this plane. The way I was treated I had to protect myself for the rest of my life because simply, people are cruel. And it doesn't matter who or what you are, if you stuck out or was different you'll be ridiculed and shunned. You have to work hard for everything because the world doesn't give "free rides" to anyone. If you want it, you better work to the bone for it, even do things that goes against what you feel is right.
Then there is another part of me. So compassionate, loving, overly caring and warm. I see the suffering of the world and I would do anything to fix and relive that feeling from people. I don't see struggle but a reason to be more helpful and to make the world a better place. I just see and feel this overwhelming compassion that I've been crushed by and left me immobile. That sweet feeling knowing that all people, places and things can make it. And that dreams can come true with enough effort and determination from the person. That everyone can do what they came here to do no matter where they come from or who they are. Everyone can succeed...
Those two sides have been clashing and I admit to resisting my better self from emerging fully. I fear that what I will become will be much different from what I know myself as "now". Yet, I so crave for the moment when I won't hold myself back from what I truly feel and want to do. I also have a great fear of being taken advantage of or people seeing my radiance and stealing it away, leaving me with nothing. I feel that without my shield, I will be left open for attack and that rougher part of me wants to protect that gentle crystal spirit from ever being hurt again.
My path has been drastically changing, switching from the tough me to the compassionate me. I haven't yet made the full switch so only so much can truly be revealed to me till I'm fully aligned to my soul's path. But within all this mess and fog the one feeling I know that is my calling and purpose is "wanting to make people happy". That is not something I ever considered my purpose being but it feels so right and I know it's true. It's for sure one of the things I came here to do and I've cut myself off from that truth because I felt so hurt by people and how people hurt each other.
Nevertheless, my crystal spirit has been leading me to all the right things including this revelation, and I intend on following it. If it's who I really am and I "feel it" then I have no right to deny it. Even in my roughest weeks in this year so far, trying to figure it all out, I know that where I am now is where I need to be. And that the angels and all of my guides are there helping me along. I just have to help myself now and that's by being who I am fully. It's tough at first not throwing up my defense shields at every chance I get but it's getting easier. Letting myself be truly soft, forgiving, openly compassionate and letting the harshness of the world pass through me than "in me" is one of the hardest lessons I have to learn. But I know that is who I really am in truth and I have all the right to strive for it, even if it is hard.
Slowly but surely, even in odd ways the world has changed more so I can be who I am, because I'm finally letting myself be that. Instead of controlling myself to be perceived in a certain fashion, so people can "leave me alone".
Without a doubt, everyone, not just crystals have to face themselves to be themselves. And you also have to allow it as well. If you resist those calling and urgings, you will find yourself in tough situations that will remind you who you really are.
The talents and skills you already have is all you really need. The world will guide you to where you need to be to learn new things naturally. Don't look so far outside yourself to figure out what you need and should be, all those things are just reflections of your potential, not who you should be. The person you are now and the person you are destined to be is already in you, ready to shine but if you don't let that light in, no one will ever know, not even yourself.
It's not being superior or better than the next person. All of our paths are uniquely different for just as unique of people. Even if we do the same things, we do them in different ways and even different reasons. It's about being you, it's about being who you really are and letting go of the nonsense we chose to keep running in our lives. No one in this world is like you, even if they seem better or worst than you. It's not about being the best than everybody else, but being the best at mastering yourself. Because if you're better than everyone else but have yet to master yourself, you haven't mastered and owned real personal power. And every person has the right to access their own power and let themselves shine with grace. With you're own power you can create wonderful things, even worlds. The very thing our souls have originated from is the thing we have in control inside ourselves. But if we can't get over the masks we wear, how can we see our real future and not the one we molded from our denials?
In turn, everyone has a grand destiny, a road to go down and their own talent and skills that they can create wonderful things from. You just have to let yourself in so that you can be able to handle the true power of your inner tools and start craving out the best life only you can create!
The conclusion
Despite having 10 plus pages on the subject of crystal children and adults I have yet to scratch the surface about who we are, what are purpose is, our natural abilities and so much more wonderful things. I've really grown to love writing this post out, especially the last 8 pages where I felt inspired to continue it. Mostly because I can read it and feel like someone else has written this about myself, and that I feel so connected to my own spirit through these writings.
In short, crystal beings are super sensitive, gentle and are passive healers. We chose to incarnate here to help the planet and to also advance our own spiritual growth. The world we are in today is hard for a crystals, especially a crystal adult that might of shut down that crystal spirit due to life's drama's and ridicule. In sprite of those things, we are being called to heal ourselves and fully embrace our crystal spirit, so in turn we can do it for the each other and the world.
Shield yourself everyday and clean your aura out everyday because we pick up negative energies wherever we go to clean the air waves. Embrace your unusual experiences, gifts, talents, beliefs and childlike attributes because it is our super selves calling out to us, leading us to what we are in spirit.
Believe in yourself and live your truth! You are the one that is meant to be you and no one else. Everyone is unique and beautiful with different challenges and obstacles to overcome. When you decide that you want to be free from the world's and even your own earthly standards and roles, the magic will start to blossom in awesome ways!
And most of all, love yourself always and remember that magic does exist, you've just have to shine your light so that magic can be seen! From one crystal adult to another... :)
♥♥♥ Inner Child, The Divine Whisperer ♥♥♥
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