Asexuality and Twin Flames (TMI Warning)

This topic has been on my mind for a while now, especially since my own twin is due to pop up at anytime. I do have quite the update on that issue, and I'm sure you all are dying to hear about it. However, that will be for the next time.

Anyway, asexual twin flames, asexual twin flame relationship, does it exist I don't know. Every time I hear about twin flames, sex is somehow mesh into it, depending how deep the conversation goes. This puts a bit of the "ugh pressure" on me because I am asexual, meaning that I have no sexual attraction towards people. If you're like "what the hell is that?" then I'll escort you to this asexuality forum where you can get all your answers and even more questions from.

Remember that one post where I talk about meeting my twin flame in a dream? I mention how I wasn't a very romantic girl, and how I wasn't interested in relationships until college. Well, before I knew what asexuality was, that was apart of the reason. In those teen years having partners and such pretty much included sex. Being in high school, that's all I heard about everyday. Even though I didn't know I was asexual, I knew that I didn't want any parts of having sex.

Generally relationships includes sex, we all know that. But in college, really recognizing that I didn't want to have sex in my romantic relationships made things strange. Even going into my only relationship, I didn't know how to express my feelings on the matter or how to adjust the relationship to fit in my preferences. At the end, what really turned me off and made the relationship deteriorate was the ex's sexual feelings.

(TMI WARNING)

I'm debating even mentioning the actual story, but I will anyway. One night, he told me he had a sexual dream about me, then pleasured himself afterwards. That shit blew my mind. I mean, I never told him how I felt about sex, nor did he. Unless you count his cute little story about us making love then pleasuring himself, which is disgusting by the way. Who does that? Way TMI if you ask me.

Anyway, the point is I felt so uneasy around him after that. Solely because he might want to take things to the next level. Even us cuddling (and I love cuddling and affection) made me uncomfortable. I remember clearly pushing him away a few times due to that very fact. The relationship ended with him up and leaving, like up and leaving without telling me at ALL. A hardy "fuck you" to you fine sir. (Yes, I'm still slightly pet peeved about that, it was a douche and cowardly move.)

Even though I was hurt at the time, I knew it was for the VERY best. For reasons I won't go into today. All I can say though is thank you for giving me the greatest gift of all, which is my twin flame. You can keep your nasty sex dreams and depression to yourself too.

After that I vowed when I'm emotionally healed, I wanted to be with the person I came into this world with. About 2 years later my twin flame appeared to me and so far, I like what he's about. I've gotten a lot of intuitive information about him that just slides into place of what I didn't even know I loved. However, in the back of my mind, I always wondered about how my asexuality will fall into place in all this. After learning that I was asexual, I told myself that I'm never having sex nor will I enter a relationship with anyone sexual. I heard about asexuals getting into relationships with sexual people. Even compromising and having sex, but that isn't me. I'm not compromising shit, sex is a deal breaker along with having children.

But what about my twin, will HE be sexual? Will he be asexual? I don't know. What about the twin flame connection and relationship? I heard many times that apparently making love to your twin flame the best thing ever, but I want no parts of that. It suppose to be the major thing that connects twin flames totally. Or something of the sort, I haven't checked my sources in a while haha. No matter how you cut it, sex won't be apart of my next relationship, but what about twin flame asexuality? How does that work? I never even heard about it. Seeing the circumstances and if some crazy lineups happen, I might be in the first one. But till and if that happens, what is an asexual Twin Flame relationship and can it work?

I say it does, for the simple fact that I was born asexual. I'm pretty sure I planed it to be that way as well. Why shouldn't my other half of my soul chose the same? It doesn't make sense for one partner to be asexual and the other sexual. Not to mention I found out about my asexuality well after I met my twin. During which I was learning (and still am) so much about myself. Things I knew that would improve and make our meeting even better.

Intuitively speaking, I never got the feeling he was sexual, quite the opposite. Nor did I get any signs of it either. Honestly, it wouldn't make sense for the universe to push me in that direction when my plan was set in the beginning. And with all the peculiar and wonderful coincidences I've been putting together about us as twin flames, it would be extremely odd for this one issue to suddenly screw it all up. Besides, worst case scenario if he is sexual, I'm sure he'll understand my stance. I can't promise any romantic relationships though. 

Long story short, I guess you can say my curiosity has been plaguing me about this one issue for a long time. I meant to blog about this before but as always, I'm waiting for the right time to do so.

I hope you all enjoyed this. I would love to hear about any twin flame or asexual stories if you have any. One of my major goals is to get more involved with my followers in a more personal way. I enjoy the connection and it enriches my life in this area.

Talk to you all soon!

Valentine's Day 2013 Week Reading

To celebrate Valentine's day, I will be giving guidance to people with a relationship and people without a relationship from two different decks. Collectively, this week is about choosing better, letting go of the old and going towards for what you really want. Finding out what is making you feel unworthy in life and weeding out old and tired beliefs.

For this week only if you use the coupon code "romance10" you'll get 15% off your entire order at my online store!

Januray 21- 27 Reading | The Meeting of Soulmates

This week is the starting gate of soul mates to meet, given that you have the right vibration for this perfect lover to come to you. Also, there will be a lot of lost jobs, important roles and titles but it is the universe showing you the way to what you really want. To make these testing times the best, don't freak out over what's happening but know that something better is coming. Archangel Michael also got our backs in this week and is protecting us in all ways, ask for his help if you need it!

December Month PLUS Week Reading | By Inner Child

 December 2012 Video Reading

This month the everything that we know as a collective will change. All the old and dirty energy will be entering a vortex, that the older indigos will be looking after, where it will be shot out elsewhere in the universe. Stay positive and don't feed into the negative concepts linked to 2012. We will be able to love on greater levels as a whole, especially for those that wasn't able to reach their full loving potential. That is where we're going in 2013.

As for this week only, we are called to take a break from people and to rest, older indigos included. We need to go to our own space and collect ourselves again after conversing, talking and merging with those that we needed to get the truth from.



Yeah, at the end I wasn't able to edit this video at all because my editing program doesn't like 30 minute video files. Archangel Raphael warned me to "upload as is" but I decided to feed into my creative and self conscious need to edit which blew up in my face at 1:30AM, this early morning I'm uploading this. So yeah lesson learned, LISTEN TO YOUR ANGELS THEY KNOW WHAT THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT. None the less, I hope you enjoy my brain farts and over stimulatory self.

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Win A Free Romance Angel Reading! (CLOSED)

Win A Free Romance Angel Reading! (CLOSED)

Hey everyone! It's been a long time since I did a free angel reading raffle, so when I thought about doing one, it felt right do one this week! Most of all, I wanted it to be themed, and of course the divine wanted it to be romance!

I've been experiencing a lot in the love department myself with meeting with my twin flame in a dream that you can read about on my blog. Since that experience, things have gotten more intense but in such positive ways!

Now, I want to do more to help people in different ways, so I've been doing more freebies that's given me much joy and appreciation! :D

The Prize

The prize is a 3 card romance reading with any deck of your choice!

Let the angels help you attract the one that was made for you!

How to enter?

 Comment below on why you want to met your perfect lover to enter, it's that simple! This raffle is being held in 3 places: my blog, powerful intentions and on my fan page, you just need to comment in one place to enter!

From the people that entered, one person will be randomly selected by a number generator and win the prize.

The raffle will end on April, 29 at 8:00PM eastern time!

  Thank you everyone that decides to enter, and by all means share and tell all your family and friends about this special event!

♥♥♥ Inner Child, The Divine Whisperer ♥♥♥

Twin Flame Heart Mergence

This happened the same week that I met my twin flame, Korea, or even the week after. I think I went to sleep earlier then normal, around 10:00PM or so. I don't normally go to bed that early so I think it's the twin flame symptoms again.

I sleep in the fetal position like an Egyptian with my arms crossed. That night, when I folded my arms around my chest, it felt as if he was putting his arms around me and vice versa. It was probably the most freaky yet comforting thing I ever experienced. I didn't know what to think but to enjoy the moment.

I normally turn around 3 times before I can actually go to sleep, but this time I felt so stuck in the first position I was in. It was like he was there with me and didn't want me to move, to mess up the position we was in. Even though I wasn't sure what was happening, I decided to stay there in his arms and enjoy it. When I felt it was right to turn over, I turned to my right. When I looked at the clock it was 12:30AM or something to the 123 effect (his personal sign). Of course, I'm shocked because of the perfect timing that was involved with me turning to my right towards my clock. I took note of the time and continued my sleep.

This is when things got super weird... I was sleeping when I came into consciousness while my body was still "sleeping". If anyone out there is familiar with astral projection, you should know what I'm talking about. It's being aware even though you're still sleeping, like lucid dreaming without the "dreaming" part. I notice this and was hearing my own heart beat. It was so freaky because it wasn't the same as you would normally hear your own heart beating, it was like my head was in my heart. So the "beating" of my heart rung all around me, my head it seems. What was also strange was that I couldn't move, or at least I thought I couldn't.

I started to panic because of it, the only thing I can describe it as is being an infant in the womb. You can't do anything, just experience what is currently happening. This freaked me out big time and as I started to panic, of course my heart beat got faster and louder. The "beating" was deeper almost as if it was vibrating my whole being or in my head. Which again, made me panic, the whole experience is something I haven't dealt with since I started learning astral projection years ago, with the overall scary, I have no clue what is going on aspect.

So at this point with my heart racing, I thought I was going to flat out die. It was so intense that I thought my heart was going to burst or suddenly stop because of the sheer force and power it was beating in. Then, when I was at my most panicked, I felt/heard a second heart beat, I knew it was Korea's. Our hearts were beating together almost to, if not to a complete merging and I suddenly felt my astral body float up. I felt the sleeping position I was in and everything, all the noise stop and it was just silence. At first I was freaked and then right in the middle of it, I was completely fine with it, since I knew what was going on lol. Then I started to freak again, and like that, I floated back in and woke up instantly.

Needless to say, that was one of my most intense astral experiences I ever had and for good reason. I'm not exactly sure what was going on but I have a feeling that me and Korea was connecting on a higher, more intimate/intense level. Since I'm astral friendly of course he (and the divine) would take full advantage of it.

This wasn't the first time we merged either, I have another story I will share later where we connected to an even higher level in the astral!

Thanks for reading and take care!

The Twin Flame Dream chronicles: Life Overhaul

 Since meeting Korea (the pet name I've given my twin), I've changed gears about my life and whole heartedly decided to completely overhaul it. I want to be thin and even more healthy so I've been doing my belly dancing exercises 5 times a week. I'm normally a bit lazy with it because I get bored easily, but this go round I have a new resolve and I know why I'm doing it! When I first started, I was so excited to do it, and even on week 3 I still have the drive to get up from being exhausted to do it, something I can't say I was willing to do before! I feel the difference in my body and can't wait to get stronger and leaner because of it.

To my surprise I want to fully embody my girly side. I've always had a tomboy look and style with maybe a few dashes of girlyness once in a blue moon. Black, baggy t-shirts, pants, and a pony tail or a bun is basically what you'll normally see me in. If was "dressing up" you'll probably see me in a punk/gothic/rave getup which to this day I still love. But for a while, I wanted to wear more colors, lace, and just girler things.

 Even though I don't look it, I have a huge love for all pink and cute things. I want to show that side more so that I can express myself in more ways then the "dark/scary/I don't get a shit" side of life! Sometimes, I want to be loud and stand out in a bright and colorful way since I love being different no matter what I'm doing. I've also grown an appreciation for mainstream fashion which I couldn't care or less before, I'm still not "into it" but I see pieces that I would love to own! I even want to try my hand (or feet) at wearing heels, something that I used to despise as a teenager. Overall, I want a new wardrobe and get rid of the very old clothes that still plagues my drawers. I'll always have my punk/goth/raver style but I want to expand my everyday style a lot further. I want to look dynamic inside and out!

On the girler note, I want to actually do something with my long hair. Being African American, I was blessed greatly with long hair that everyone would always comment on. I never really cared to do anything with it for the longest time till maybe a few years back. But now, I really want to learn how to do some hair styles, particularly the hair styles out of my Japanese magazines. Their hair styles are always so damn cute! That and I want to learn how to take care of it better then brushing and combing it everyday haha! I was even thinking of getting it dyed and having bangs but I might have to think about that more.

I'm so old school that I live by the phrase "If it's not broke, don't fix it" haha. If however I didn't have to worry about the cons of dyeing my hair, I would want a light pink, or a brown-red color. Something that's catching to the eye. I just don't want to have too much maintenance with my hair. I'm a pretty simply girl so I don't want to constantly go back to fix the roots and stuff like that. So yeah we'll see about all that.

There are a couple of other things that I want to do like whiten my teeth, find more ways to make my skin clear, try my hand at simple make-up and stuff like that, but overall the reason why I want to do all this for myself is so that I can finally look like the person that I feel I am! There is nothing wrong with me now, but a lot of what I'm currently still doing is pretty much in the past, old or doesn't resonate with me anymore.

At the same time, being and looking my best can only bring greater things to me including my twin flame. Whenever we do physically meet, I want him to see me as I see myself, the very best person in the world! Confident, sweet, radiant, beautiful, giving and just so much more. It's my duty to myself to love and cherish myself with unconditional love; putting my very best effort to make myself shine shows how much I care about my body, inside and out!

Now, I want to come out of my shell more and really show what I'm made of. I'm beautiful now with a beautiful personality, but now it's time to really put forth the effort to take care of the body that I came in with. Make it shine, radiant and healthy! Hell, I want to show it off too on the beach and anywhere I go because I'm so proud of it and my effort!

This is just the beginning of my life overhaul journey but I can say that it's starting off quite well!

Thank you all for reading and I hope it inspires you to become your best self!

How I Met My Twin Flame in a Dream

Romantic relationships has never been my strong point at all. I love romance but I was never really a romantic girl. I've always been indifferent when it comes to relationships and it showed throughout my life. I only got interested with having a boyfriend when I got into college. Before then, I had no desire what-so-ever to be with anyone, plus I knew that anyone from high school wouldn't work for me. I mean seriously, most boys in my school were very less then desirable to me, and I never really understood why all the girls my age wanted to be with someone that they more then likely wouldn't be with for long. I just didn't understand how girls can be so attracted to guys that were pretty much douches or really immature.

However, that doesn't mean I didn't have "my type" or ideal partner either. After the first relationship failed in college, I knew how much I hated dealing with flaky incomplete people (then again who doesn't lol). I vowed that the next person I would be with would be the person I entered this world with. The one person that was solely created for me and everything else fluffy and sweet you want to add. I also confirmed that I didn't want to be with anyone till I, myself, was complete and whole. Breakups are hard and my moral was in the toilet. When I would met this person, I wanted to be complete 100%. I wanted that person to have me, the best me that I, myself, can be.

Fast forward about 2 years later, March 24, 2012

Around that time, I've been struggling with my own beliefs about my love life. If my ideal partner was reasonable or even realistic. It really started to get to me where it didn't before. I only started having that issue in the last month or even 2 months. I didn't want it to turn into a block so I decided that night to clear it out.

I told myself, my inner child, that anything was possible and my doubts about my true love was not founded at all. The clearing went great and I felt that initial shift in my feelings about the situation but quickly fell asleep at the end.

That's when I started dreaming. I was in what felt like an elementary school, but there were high school students walking around. I was walking down the hall, minding my own business, when the teens started to freak out and started running towards the opposite direction of where I was going. Amongst the chaos, I see this one guy walking up the hallway towards me, it was like a casual but pacing walk. If you remember Jason's walk from Friday The 13th, then you should know what I'm talking about lol! That's when I heard a guy say something like "It's that crazy Asian kid!". I instantly think that this guy is going to shot up the school, so I ran to my right into the stair hall.

I thought he was right behind me too, so that made me run even faster up the steps. Even after I started running, I hear another random guy say "He's going after that cute girl" and admittedly, I felt really flattered lol! So I was continuing to run up the steps, using the railing to propel me up more then one step at a time so I can get away. I was looking at the railing, and thought that I had outran the Asian guy that was trying to come after me. Only when I look up the steps, I see that very same guy sitting on the floor looking down at me.

It was insane, it was like he was sitting there all day and I honestly had no idea what to expect. I thought "What the hell" since I thought I had clearly outran the guy. I also felt a bit fearful because I thought he was going to shoot me dead.

I was at the middle of the stairwell looking up at him, and I remember his face clearly. He had a round face, small nicely shaped eyes, black shoulder length hair that winged out at the end. He had on a blue jacket with a black shirt under it, with a normal pair of pants or jeans. He also had this cool and calm aura about him.

He got up and approached me, I still didn't know what to expect, we were a step or two apart from each other.  He reached for my right hand with his left, I noticed then that he had a really pale/milky complexion. As soon as we touched these intense waves of energy came over me, I never felt anything like it in a dream or in real life. It was like a great realization, a huge lighting strike of inspiration, or a sudden connection was made in the brain that simply wasn't there before. I knew this energy I was receiving meant something great or important about who I was having them with. The waves went up and down my body about 3 times then left, the whole thing was unreal.

Once it stopped, I stood there in shock and realized that I knew this person before. I knew him from "somewhere" but I just didn't know where, like when you have that one word at the tip of your tongue. I could only assumed that it was in the past. It was crazy, I didn't know what exactly was going on but I knew this wasn't the first time I saw this guy. I asked him "I know you... don't I?" It was the most real and open I've ever been with anyone in my dream, I guess I really trusted this guy with my feelings. I don't remember him giving me an answer, but in a quick flash I saw/sensed the Twin Flame card in my ascended masters deck and the entity Aengus which happens to be on the card. I thought Aengus was the man's name but it wasn't.

The dream panned over where we were both on the last platform of the stair hall, we were standing right across from each other. I was staring at him, and he was saying something but I don't remember what. Then he was talking about us, then about me specifically. He had a very heavy Asian accent, but I understood every word of it. I can't recall what he said in detail, but that week was rough on me so he was cheering me up. At the end he held my face and told me to "Smile smile" which is probably one of the sweetest things that anyone said to me in a dream or in real life.

After that, we were standing around, he was talking and I was waiting for my hug since that's common in my dreams where I met guides and entities. When we did hug, it felt so realistic (the whole dream felt realistic on its own) it was slow and soft. We hugged for a good amount of time, I had to readjust my head because my ear was being squished, that's how real everything was. I don't remember anything else happening in the dream. Everything went black and I was in a state between dream and being awake. It was strange even though I'm not a stranger to altered states of conscious, it was like my consciousness was "settled" between states like a resting stop, then just like that, I woke up.

It was like I just got hit by a truck, I was in such a deep sleep which seemed odd to me. That always let me know that the experience I just had was important. At first I thought it was my own guide but that guy that I met was nothing like my guide in personality so that possibility was out the window. It also felt like I just came from a very high place, like I "came down" from somewhere in my dream which I don't experience often. I remembered everything right when I woke up, there was no gap in time where I didn't remember the dream which again is odd to me.

I was pretty much in shock about the dream and didn't really know what to think. As I was thinking about that Asian guy, I knew that he wasn't "dead" but was out and about in the living, I just knew. I see a lot of entities in my dreams but never anyone that was alive.

Since then, things have gotten a bit strange but in good ways. I started to take this man's advice to "smile smile" and whenever something gets me down I think about that saying. It cheers me up right away and I feel like I can do anything. I also feel like I need to make some major changes in myself that I never put enough effort into.

 Just knowing this guy is on his way made me want to be the very best I can be for myself and him, however that may be. I've been into K-pop (Korean pop music) a lot more in the last week. When I was watching music videos of the boy bands my body would heat up and cool down over and over again. Not just heat up but in a special way, usually when I sense Archangel Michael is around, something supernatural, or a confirmation about what I'm thinking/doing/saying. I call it "spiritual/spirit heat".

Never did I ever experience spiritual heat in such a way before, I even started watching the girl groups and it completely stopped, but when I started watched the boy groups it started again right away. Needless to say I find Asian men extremely attractive, more then likely because my most recent past life was in Japan. I also got a huge sense that I should learn Korean which was strange too, I wanted to learn it casually but I never had an "urge" to learn it before then. When I finally started, it just felt right like my whole world started to light up.

A lot more crazy symptoms happened but those were probably the most prevalent. For the record, I have NO experience or knowledge about twin flames other then the most basic premise about them before this dream I had. I never asked for a twin flame either, it pretty much smacked me in the face once I did some clearing in my beliefs about love. I did some researching about meeting a twin flame and my experience match the symptoms of meeting one.

I have no clue on what to expect and I'm just going to follow the bread crumbs that the universe will leave for me. I know when the time is right, that person I set my intention on will show up. Other then that, I'm going through a huge reflection and reimagining period about myself. I've grown a lot in a short amount of time in the last month and my twin flame dream only seem to make things more intense.

I know how popular the twin flame/soul mate subject is so I'll keep you guys updated if anything interesting happens along the way!

Take care and thanks for reading!

♥♥♥ Inner Child, The Divine Whisperer ♥♥♥

Love All of You!

It's so important to show and express love to yourself. I see this horrible theme that the "ego" is holding you back, leading you to disaster and destruction in your life. That it has to be transcended, erased and surmounted. 

This is the WORNG way to treat yourself. Know that every part of you, even the parts that you DON'T like is very much as apart of you as the good parts. The "ego" isn't something to get rid of, it's to be cherished and loved because it's TELLING you something. If you feel jealous, sad, or angry the best thing that can happen is your inner voice, child, or ego to sit up and say something about it. Of course your ego aka YOU will blame your own problems on outside circumstances (consciously or subconsciously) but the best part of that is the acknowledgment.

You can't change what you don't knowledge!

That is the very moment you go inside and start speaking to your inner most self, revealing the way you feel in its complete rawest form. Honestly is everything. Once you dig up more and more emotion, pain, and inner turmoil it will become clearer that you created your own unhappiness even if it stemmed from others treating you unfairly. It's about revealing your most true self that isn't always a sugar coated being. It can be hurt, scared and most of all malnurtured. The more we ignore are inner most issues the more we create them, leading us to use escapism methods through everything we do (spiritually especially) to keep us from the pain and embarrassment of our true feelings.

Give yourself compassion for all you have and have not done. It's okay to not be perfect, to not compare to your own or someone else's standards. To feel inadequate or not good enough, selfish, or letting yourself or other people down. It really is okay because no one is perfect, and you know what? It is the perfect time to shout to the world that you're not perfect and let those raw emotions go. From there you will find that you were pure from the start, you just left things unchecked.

We all suffer from not being a perfect being and that is okay.

 It's so important to have a quality of self than to have a "sunny disposition" about things, to have an unyielding steam of abundance, to be "happy" all the time, or to have everything you ever wanted. Your possessions can be taken away at any given moment, but your sense of self can not. If you see yourself through all that you have gained material wise, you are more then likely trying to accommodate for the lack in yourself. And that is the hardest thing for a person to admit, especially for a person that is highly determined and has high ideals. 

 As awesome as it is to be positive, happy and be on cloud nine everyday we all have to realize that we all hold different hues of our emotions and spirit. And when you shut one down in anyway, you are shutting yourself down and dimming your own inner light, wisdom and sensitivity that tells you what is wrong. You literally dig up more dirt on the issues that haunt you most, keeping them quiet so you don't have to deal with them.

So show love and compassion to yourself, to ALL of yourself. That will help melt the cold ice that we created to numb the pain and suffering of our lives. Our inner child, negative emotions, feelings, and voice may seem like they are vocalizing the badness of the human psyche, but they are really saying how you truly feel inside. Our hurt, pain, broken promises and suffering is simply a piece of ourselves that we refused to communicate with and withdrawn our warmth too.

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I've been doing a lot of inner work in the last few days and I can tell you this was my experience, I'll go into detail about it on a later date, but I felt an urgency to speak up and speak out for anyone that feels truly lost. If you feel like nothing works in your life, it might not be the things you are doing, but the issues that you haven't resolved in yourself that created a harsh world for you to overcome before you're worthy of true success.

♥♥♥ Inner Child, The Divine Whisperer ♥♥♥